Hi,

Me, myself and my infinite I are going to attempt to communicate something to you. First off, I'm no chaneller and this might well be a load of rubbish :)

Ok, so when I was a little girl and I used to play with my friends at 'house', I never wanted to be the mum, or the dad, or the baby - I wanted to be the 'naughty' child, who ran around doing mischievous things and getting told off. This was mainly because I found 'house' and pretending to be a normal family fairly boring!! Plus I had to do what everyone else told me to!

So, imagine if you had played the game called life/love so often you knew every possible outcome and were bored out your skull with it.......do you think that you might want to inject a bit of chaos and naughtiness into the mix, just to see what happened? So instead of life/love, you start playing life/love/fear - just to give yourself a few more options, really test yourself and see how far you can go with it? And what if you did that and then found the lessons you learned in life/love/fear gave you infinitely greater insight into who you were as a person, than those that you learned in life/love?

Surely the further we go away before coming back, the more we can learn on our return journey? So, that means the lessons gradually become harsher and more extreme, constantly testing how far we can go, without any genuine risk of harm (assuming you believe in life after death).

Now, if there is only really love in the universe, and we all sign our soul contracts to say we agree to this that and the other beforehand, who plays the role of the bad guys? Is it the people who need to learn how to separate and forgive, or is it the people who have played the game so many times that not only have they already learned all their lessons, but are also bored out of their brains with the old game!

How much pain do you think it would cause a compassionate being to hurt another, even if it was to help them grow? Well, I've done it and I can tell you that even those once on a dark path are only fighting against the pain and fear. To know you're going in and will be committing some truly terrible acts, all to help another grow could be seen as true compassion.

I believe part of the role here as lightworker, starseed, whatever you want to call it, could be to help others to forgive the dark/cabal/church/elite (pick your favourite). Imagine, if you will, what will happen when the truth comes out for those who haven't been on this path for years. Imagine your sitting in your semidetached house with your two point four kids, watching X factor and thinking that all those duality things wee there for your own good - like I was this time about 3 years ago.

Things I have seen and heard have shattered everything I was to pieces and I have been as gently guided as possible to put myself f back together. Who is going to do that for them.

Along that path comes anger, fear and the desire for what feels to be justice. Can you imagine what scared, angry and frightened people will do to those of the 'dark' unless someone shows them a better way?

Applying compassion and understanding when viewing the acts of others is the only way I have managed to find inner peace.

When you get that what we often view as negativity is people acting from a fear that is so deep seated it isn't immediately apparent where it's coming from, you don't automatically assume that it's something to do with you.

You then don't have to retaliate. Doesn't mean you have to accept their behaviour if you don't like it, just means that no-one is attacking YOU, they are lashing out in fear.

For example, I know someone who was in an abusive relationship about 15 years ago but will still lash out very viciously at anŷone who pushes her buttons, intentionally or not. That was a response she learned to defend herself years ago that she is still repeating. If you didn't know this, you could easily think that she was a horrible person. And who's to say her abuser wasn't put through the same thing themselves.

There is no original sin, or anyone to blame, as much as we need that release sometimes, the only way to find peace is to forgive, accept and move on. Or so says my infinite I. And me :)

Cat xxx