Hello!
I am wondering if you could help me find out what type of beings I'm in contact with.. My story is very long and complicated, but to be short.. I experienced ascension symptoms exactly 30 minutes before fireworks at new years eve into the year 2000.. I have read that you get direct contact with ascension guides.. However.. That contact made me very sick.. I had extreme anxiety and panic attacks for several years after.. Then my uncle invited me to attend a theta-healing course.. That he paid for..!
It was exiting and I learned a lot.. But I found that some beings where in my space and they where talking telepathically with me after I learned that at the class.. They obeyed my commands and pretending to be my best friends..
Then they controlled my feelings and asked me to agree with what they sent me.. Which I didn't know what was even.. But I trusted them, so I did say "I am absolutely sure!", then they started to bother me.. It was extremely painful, and I wasn't able to sleep for three days, that made me contact the medical office or whatever and got into this mental ward (hospital).. Before I got into the mental ward.. The beings showed me around the whole hospital except the mental ward.. They knew what doors where open and stuff.. I was kind of not myself so I drove a taxi to my aunt after.. And she drove me back and got me in to the mental ward.. Then I got on medication.. And it did not help any bit.. And it still don't help..
I need to know what has happened to me.. Is this normal when one is ascending? Who are they? How did they gain 100% control over me? They can control what I type in this mail if they wanted to..! Did I somehow throw away the real ascension guides and replaced them with Anunnaki (negative reptile race) or something?
I'm really scared.. And I'm ill! I really need help!
Most spiritual people I meet, got the belief that some incense and some crystals will scare the evil spirits? Well I can tell you that does not help at all.. And I have even met a clairvoyant who saw them and tried to exorcise them away.. She gave up on the third try and told me it was the first time she was not able to throw them away! I still don't know who they are..
I somehow got the belief that I need to clear out miasmas (negative blockages), and that if I experience what I am scared about.. I will get really scared a short while, but eventually I will clear out that energy.. Since I find out that it is not dangerous.. Though these beings scare me big time and it's not looking good from my perspective!
I got two messages however.. From the beings.. The first one was "We just want to give you the experiences you need!" and "Experiences are the most important thing with life!"
Can you help me? I can pay you for the service (preferable PayPal)!
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Mvh. Thomas Ivan Sønsteby (Starlight/Bluelight)
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@ Montanawolf: I believe that what you are experiencing is ascension work.. But I have thought out that I may need to experience negative beings to be able to release the fear in me.. As one friend told me: "the perfect love is driving out the fear in you..! Like turning on the light in a dark room.." I do not think these beings are evil or bad.. They are annoying, yes.. But it's like one here stated.. What you resist will persist.. Even though I have been experiencing some bad stuff like what you describe.. It's still true that that being is in some way part of creation.. And I have released a lot of fear with the help from these beings.. Also I know they can but they still don't control me.. They just tell me stuff.. Sometimes meaningless and annoying but sometimes they come with really great advice.. They do not program me like a robot.. And you know.. Losing your privacy is a requirement when ascending.. When you are in the fifth dimension, everyone will know everything about everyone.. That is true fact..! The bad experiences turns on your ability to see love and to be grateful.. I got scared that I might get to know more about these beings after what you typed, but they still haven't served it on a plate.. I did however see a reptilian last night, but even they are not evil.. Some of them might even be nice.. What being is able to override the creator.. Who can close off the guides and angels? None other then prime creator.. Why is it happening..? I have heard about many peoples experiences that they cannot bear to experience.. They either lose consciousness or they don't remember what happened.. This is for a reason.. Why does that not happen to our perspective? Well..! It's supposed to be like that.. it is my belief.. I trust the creator..! :-)
As you know.. It is correct that out guides will help us.. So why do people get ill.. And are unable to cure themselves even when they know how to? Well it is because of the experience and knowledge you get from the illness.. They are supposed to get ill.. So they can learn about them selves..
It came as a surprise for me though that these experiences related to these beings are the same.. That what your experiences is the same that I experience..! It means they got a plan? But a plan for what? Why are they wasting so much time trying to do this.. ? I have opened my hearth chakra and had an extremely high vibratory rate.. And it actually comes from these beings.. At least that is what I believe..
@ Bigfeet: Yes, I read it.. But it seems difficult.. And it don't feel right..
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What I want to know now is.. Is these beings the same that removed extreme amounts of fear from me after the year 2000? Or did I somehow lose them.. And someone else took over the show? For me it seems very unlikely.. But it could be.. Why would ascension guides leave me open for anyone to grab me, if that is the case..? I know 100% certain that there was positive guides that helped me face A LOT of fear, and they DID have the ability to control me 100%.. They manipulated me thoughts so that I got very scared.. But everything they did throw at me was experienced by me in some weird way of just believing it was true.. And then never returned... I faced the fear for my physical forms death and many other things.. I know the beings I talk with now, has helped me release trauma and issues with my parents.. Also when I was in the hospital, they where annoying and made me think I had all sorts of psychological issues and brain damage (actually they made me believe that I created the reality that my brain was like a snail, lol) and other stuff.. But they never actually hurt me.. Never! It's all illusions provided to me for releasing fear..! Even if the beings are evil/negative they still release my fears..
Have any of you seen any of the movies where ie. an author get a really bad response from a woman, and then he starts to answer that women without actually really answering? He does not say the words that is coming out from he's mouth.. It is actually GOD presence.. I have experienced that.. And so I believe in it strongly.. I have also heard about walk-ins after someone decides to take their life.. Where the new soul (in the body of the other person) tells her friends that she is now here (stating a different name, changing her looks), and that everything is going to turn out fine.. Also I have seen children (starseeds) having total connection with GOD presence and is painting amazing pictures.. And they say they only feel love.. I type this so you can understand my trust in the Prime Creator..!
I wish you the Best!! I was taken by these beings en-route to go and work for US Customs and Border Patrol in Piegan, Montana...I was taken from a Bridge in Charleston, West Virginia near the Amtrak Station and put on another Bridge about 1 or 2 miles from where I was at..I was attempting to walk to a hotel within site of the Amtrak Station..I was found walking around in shock..No-one would believe me..I had to return to NC..I told my Mother what had happen to me and she had me thrown into a Hospital where I was Tortured and my Career with Homeland Security was destroyed...I have been beat up by local cops and tortured in hospitals...My entire life was changed because of this...I came back to NC with this Telepathic Connection to other Humans that have done nothing but play games..and a totally seperate issue..of seeing these beings that are on our Earth...and these beings have the ability to jump into other humans..if this occurs..you will notice a color in their eyes..usually they will turn black and then back to original color..or one eye will change and the other will stay the same...anyway there is not much any of us can do about this..I am now working in Health Care and going back to college full time..I have nothing to do with my Mother..and I never will!! I only care about my children and my boyfriend and his children...I have nothing to do with any other family members of mine..I found the help of a Shaman..William White Crow out of California whom has helped me more than anyone..finally things are calming down..I wish you nothing but the BEST!! and I am on this site if you need to talk!! Sincerely, AMy in NC
Why are those beings allowed here? I thought they left a long time ago..?
I have seen proof that I have been tinkered with physically, but I don't remember anything such as that..
Manipulation by a negative race is my ultimate fear..!
@ Peter Immanuel, tesla_lion and tentinyturtles: Thank you for the advice.. I did this and felt some change.. But they are still here..! I'll try this often, but the beings might manipulate my call.. I hope not!
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Are none of you able to see what is going on with me? Except for some of you who already told me they are on the mental plane or are beings that are not totally of the good!
I will try the lemon prayer soon! Please pray for me and send me light! :-)
Thomas, Are you hearing other Humans talking to each other in you're head?? This is like listening to a radio that you cannot turn off...The Aliens have done this Telepathic Link to Humans with the attempt to try and drive us crazy..or just to see how we would use this ability..basically, just an experiment on human-kind...when this Telepathic Link first comes on..you will not understand what is happening to you..this will scare the heck out of anyone...The first thing either the Humans or Aliens that you are connected to will attempt to make you lose 3 days of Sleep....you will also have the ability to communicate back to whomever you are connected to...The Idiots that I was connected to Tortured Me and used the Book of War on me and then attempted to Program me like a Robot and the the worse thing they did was attempt to control my body functions like going to the bathroom...I have no Privacy because of this Telepathic Link..I have been going through this since Sept-2006....The best advise that I can give you....Get plenty of Sleep..Stay in a Daily Routine...and learn how to ignore this...Do like I do and tell them all to go to Hell and that you do not want to be connected to them..
The Aliens also have the ability to Poison or Drug you..they do this with some-kind of white powder or red smoke,,if this happens to you..you may have irregular heart beat, shortness of breath, numbness in youre arms and head, slurred speech, and confusion..this will last for 2 weeks and then fade away..the only medicines that I have found to help this are Claritin D one a day...Tums, Milk, and Sugar...The Aliens seem to enjoy attempting to mess with the Airway and Bloodsugar levels and Blood Pressure..
What you may be seeing..Lights, Shadows, Orbs, Large Grey Creatures, Lizard Beings, Human SIze Beings the Color of the Sun...you may see some of these beings and then they just disappear..you may be having Time Lapses and time seems to be either going faster or slower..Computers and TV..Electricity may act up around you..you may wake up in the middle of the night being attacked by something that you cannot see..these beings can touch you..they love messing with the Head, Ears, Eyes..you may wake up in the middle of the night and cannot move..you may feel like you are frozen and just cant move..you may feel like you are in shock...All of these Issues are connected with being attacked by Aliens..and this is happening all over the world...You are not alone!!! I have been attacked by these creatures since Sept-2006...The best Protection from these beings is just a simple DOG..let the Dog run loose..both inside of youre home and outside...I hope that you will be ok..and I am on this site if you ever need to talk..Sincerely, Amy in NC
I have had a lot of what you describe, but much of it is related to ascension.. Like growing new organs and changing the skeleton.. You seem like someone who tries to scare me.. lol Mostly these beings have cleared out a lot of negative energy.. But I could make a really long list of stuff that has happened to me.. I can list some of the physical stuff that has happened.. I have been paralyzed when waking up one time.. I was unable to move.. Yes it is true! Can this be from activating kundalini too fast? Is it not a mentoring thing?
I have had issues with blood sugar and pressure.. And been numb in my arms.. And my computers seems to break and get unstable.. And the same problem occurred with several computers..
I have also had a lot of nosebleeds.. But I have cleared some emotional stuff with my parents, but that was maybe before all this happened.. I have never seen aliens, only the green slimes..
I have never used drugs!
My emotional history: My father left our house when I was ten.. I liked him so much I was sad every night for two years.. Then my mother was with a psychopath for three years, and when she did throw him out.. He started out by cutting the tail of one of the horses we had, poisoned the dogs with rat poison and started to call several times every day and when we took the phone, he said: Hello this is the santa.. Then he started to sue my mother about the horse wrecking he's car, when it was really he who got mad one day and used the sledge on the car because it didn't start.. Then my younger brother found out he was poisoning the well (our drinking water).. I got extremely sick at new years into 2000 as I wrote earlier.. At that moment I thought it was poison, so I moved from my mothers house.. And had an extremely terrible economy and I was having extreme anxiety and panic attacks for two years.. Until I started becoming a normal person..
It was not until the theta-healing course that I started to talk telepathically with the beings.. I see it as highly likely that some bad spirit could grab hold on me because of all this fear and stuff.. Or alien for that matter..
Can't some of you see clairvoyantly what these beings are? I was able to see stuff when attending the course.. Some of you must see something? They are in the mental plane? Why are they allowed into me? I thought the whole planet was filled with positive energy and beings now that we enter 21. dec. 2012?
It can also be noted that the beings told me once that my computer will not work the day after, and I thought "what nonsense is that" but the day after, my computer would not start.. They also sent me the thought that my father would cut himself on the saw.. And he did two days after..
I really don't see how it is possible to throw away these beings.. Can any of you see physical implants?
I'm feeling weird energy in my head as I'm typing this.. Anyways, is there some sort of emotional hole that allows them to connect with me? Can I clear it out? I read a document I found once about the grays and implants.. And how they gained total control over you after 3 days.. It was full of symbols and stuff.. Weird looking.. I hate that I read that.. I found it on someones computer by file-sharing..
I'm starting to get worried here..! Can I shut off with the older types of medication?
These beings are really tricky..! :-(
I have also had ringing in the ears.. But I read the book: the Bringers of the Dawn.. And it states that the ringing is positive downloads from ascension guides.. Also a clairvoyant that was channeling Michael told me my soul had chosen ascension.. And after that I searched and found information about those ascending, that they get a direct line with ascension guides exactly on 2000.. I got sick exactly 30 minutes before year 2000.. Is this some kind of plot by the negatives? It can't be? Is the Bringers of the Dawn and the ascension notes and the guy who channeled Michael all controlled by darkness? It cannot be!
Great advice tesla_lion--
There is some energy that you do not feed. Especially when dealing with negative entities. create a love filled bubble. The energy gets bigger when you feed it fear. remember what you focus on grows, what you put your attention on becomes bigger. what you resist persists. Archangel Micheal will help - you have to continually take care of your energy. You can't do it a few days and then drop the "energetic ball".....self care.....
love tentinyturtles
Thomas thank you for sharing your story, it is my hope you are able to find healing, and the beings in your space will start to share love and compassion with you. In the three-dimensional world, the mental health community does not need to know about them (they are likely to increase your current medications if you talk about hearing them,) I believe if you adhere to your current mental health treatment plans (stay involved in your care, use a gentle voice and the staff may be more likely to want to help you) you can get out of there without three dimensional attachments, Demonstrate your ability to be safe, and hopefully that will help your physical person find a place to achieve a resolution with the beings occupying your space. Love, light, and peace; you are important (slow deep breaths, there's a place in your inner being where those other beings and the three dimensional world are not allowed, it belongs to you, please go there when you need to and rest;) I believe your experience is truth, be patient to allow things to balance out.
Can this be related to bad karma? 8. Sept. 2012 I turn 30! Maybe the repetition is over then? But after 2015,t he Earth will be completely cleared of negativity and enter the 5th dimension? The Maya people say we will ascend before 2013..
Can someone help me with asking Michael? When I ask about protection and stuff.. The beings force me to send the thought that I want to protect me with them in my field..
Can someone clairvoyant check if I got physical implants?
Man I'm starting to get scared.. :-P Again! How can I protect myself? Also these beings are present even though I feel love.. It has only happened once that when I felt strong love for the beings, they shouted "Stop", and I was unable to feel that strong love for them after that.. This is getting annoying..!
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I spoke the words.. I felt some change.. But it just last a short while.. Yes I know they are nasty! They are bothering me right now.. I'm almost unable to eat and do other things.. Lately I've been completely unable to act in the evenings.. And I get heavy anxiety! I feel slightly better now..
I posted on this site a while back, when I was in the hospital the last time.. Some people tried to help me.. Told me they removed some etheric implants and stuff.. I didn't feel any difference..!
I think I need more help! :-( I got serious problems!
@ Prometheus: How do I stop using it?
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Edit: I still feel the negative influences from these beings.. I have spoken the words several times.. They are manipulating when I think and try to get rid of them..
@ Louse: I only attended the theta-healing course... But I tested a mp3 file with positive programming.. But I got so bored while listening to it that I stopped..
@ Hannah_Peace: I often surround me with light.. And use positive thoughts/feelings.. My grandfather was in the freemasonry.. I don't know about any other holiness than that.. He was drawing funny pictures for magazines..
@ tentinyturtles: I have no such knowledge or memory. But I have noted physical things that highly suggest an abduction.. Actually several abductions.. But I know the history behind the Zetas.. They are not bad/evil.. Maybe a lack of feelings but that's all.. Also according to some, I have no physical implants.. But maybe many etheric ones..
I just saw the beings just when I got in connection with them after theta-healing, and they looked like a beautiful woman..
One thing to note though, is that they never seem to sleep or rest.. They are always there..
@ Anasthun: Well the beings do send me negativity in the way you describe.. Like if I want to tell someone something nice.. They give me a picture, that they will not think the message is any good.. Many times I just give up because of it.. The funny thing is that they give me positive ideas and sometimes help me with problems..
@ John Jancar and Maiailla: I have made some prayers and asked the Source and angels for help with no luck at all.. I have commanded them and asked Sananda and other ascended masters for help..
@ Pichu: I actually got a lot of positive thoughts, but that does not mean I'm not uneasy about these beings! But the funny thing is.. They do teach me a lot..!
At second reply: I have thought that many times.. "have I lost my mind!" The funny thing about that is that the beings then show me how it is to lose your mind for a short while.. And then I find out what it really is.. Then I ask, is all this caused by chemical imbalances in the brain (medical establishments answer to all my problems) and then they actually change something in my head and tells me.. No that feels like this! :-) No, I don't want to mess up my head like that for longer periods, but learning about it is interesting.. Not that I can trust these beings either.. But at least it is exiting none the less.. I was scared about manifesting defects on my DNA with thoughts.. And these beings are actually responsible for showing me that it is not dangerous..! I dive into it.. I experience it.. I feel it.. I believe in it.. It hurts! But wow! Then it's all gone..! :-D
@ STAR: Thats funny.. When I first started hearing voices, I thought it was funny and interesting.. And when some being obeyed my commands, that was kind of awesome.. I even remember a ride with a ship in the north of Norway where I could feel the beings presence, and when the boat was going up and down, the beings stood still in the air.. So I felt them bouncing in the opposite directions of the ship.. I also had some weird sensitivity about infra red weaves.. Like they had some sort of weird energy.. And also I had a very high vibratory rate at some point while I was in Oslo.. I was able to feel the negative force-fields in shopping malls.. It was literally a wall of bad energy just at the entrance..! The high vibratory rate lasted for three days.. And I woke up in the middle of the night needing some more food then usually to be able to hold that high vibratory rate..
@ Rick: I'm not so scared about that anymore.. I just dive into that fear and let it pass! Yes they can scare me, but no harm has ever been done except for the physical pain to my body, the annoyance of invalid information, the fact that I need to take medication to keep healthy, even though it's a very low dose.. And that they harass me and my energy very often.. Some of these things may be experienced like torture for me, but I'm not able to do anything with it..
Also, at some point in time, these beings forced me to obey their commands or tested me or something.. Like they told me to obey or they would harm me.. Then I refused and they sent me pain.. It lasted for maybe an hour or two and then they stopped.. So no, they did not win that one.. But as I have typed here.. They still got 100% control if they want to.. The funny thing is that they don't use that very much.. And I know it's a true fact.. I have been there..!
@ Maiailla: As written above somewhere.. I have tried this.. I also placed a stick in the ground, and commanded, that as long as that stick is standing.. The beings will not be able to be in my space.. The stick is still standing, but it did not help!
@ RajeshY: I'm really bad with this sort of thing.. I have to get my physical form into the grocery store and buy a lemon! That is no simple task, lol Ok! I will see what I can do.. It may also be noted that I often dream, but the dreams are most often about my biggest fears.. Like being inside a freezer with tubes of flowing blood connected to my body by a mad scientist.. I just experience my fears without actually doing it.. Because it's just a dream.. But a dream can seem quite real when you are all in it..!
@ Prometheus: I'm getting exercise a lot.. I'm actually playing bandy with the guys at the fire station on Nesodden! They are not slow, he he.. Also I'm playing golf and do things like visiting a farm that is kind of a meeting place for many people on Nesodden (no animals there though).. And I'm drinking coffee at the local Café!
When it comes to the chakras.. Well, I may affect them in some way with intentions, but mostly these beings send powerful energy through them, and I think they can force them open.. I think my biggest problem is grounding.. I am not able to ground myself.. At all! And I want to use the pineal gland... It's the ascension way of doing things..! The beings tell me now (while typing this) that I can control my energy centers.. So maybe I might try that.. The stupid issue here is that when I finally get rid of these beings.. I'm gonna miss them big time.. :-P
I need to realize that they really are bad.. That is why I want to know who they are.. Who are they? What are they? Why are they? Why me? I feel that what they do is for something good.. But that might be a trick! But of course, I am typing this to get help.. I am going to visit a person I know that works with emotional blockages.. He claim that if they are allowed into my space without me wanting it.. It has to be some sort of trauma inviting them in.. So if we clear out that.. They should be removed with little or no effort.. My experiences with these beings are both the best and the worst.. And I kind of like it! I have felt and experienced things that normal people can only dream about.. Most people reject it and call me a crazy person.. But the fear is also something to learn from.. Also I learn to let go of it when I see it for what it is..
What is occurring for me mostly now, is "change"! My state is changing all the time.. From great in the morning.. to crazy and dark in the evening.. But almost alright in the nighttime, so long I get to sleep and don't wake up in the middle of the night being unable to sleep again..! It is change that will give the biggest boost in learning about one self..!
The thing with not using my pineal gland is that I really want to see.. I want to see everything.. Feel everything.. I just need the integrity, grounding and knowledge about the darkness to be able to do just that.. And my biggest issue is first and foremost these beings (when they are dark/negative) and grounding! I think my crown chakra is activated.. Can't some of you lightworkers see it? Maybe it isn't :-P I can feel energy in the top of my head all the time though! I have seen everything from green slimy creatures with eyes on stems.. To humans stocking beer into a fridge.. Lately I have just seen humans looking at me, saying something I can't recall.. And sometimes I hear someone shout my name! If I am to close the third eye.. How do I do it? Why should I do it? I remember the first time I used that eye.. I was watching a Hoodoo movie.. It was creepy and scary.. But I started seeing eyes.. Eyes all over.. Animal eyes, monster eyes.. Even the eye of Sauron.. And when I finally got used to seeing them, I saw the face of Anubis..
Man, I get carried away here.. Got to type everything.. :-p
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Also these beings can control me (still they rarely do).. They even change my beliefs if they want to.. They also send me the thought that I want them here, if I try to remove them..
Also, just three days before I got into the hospital the first time.. I painted a picture of myself on a cliff looking down into the void/abyss..!
I believe strongly in destiny.. What happens is meant to happen..! Also I believe that to be able to see the light.. One must dive into the opposite (darkness). I think that everything will be just great! But it is painful to have these negative experiences (like when the beings say.. "we own you now! He he!", and when they say, "You will be a rich and powerful person that will work for the corruption of the darkness".. Stuff like that, makes me nervous!)..
I'm not so worried when not in a hour of darkness.. But when I am in those hours it is a pain (and it seems like everything is bad and cannot be fixed).. But it is a passing pain.. And the sun will shine again.. I think I'm just having a crash course in metaphysical stuff and maybe the necessary pain/fear is given to me so I can see the light!
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Mvh. Thomas Ivan Sønsteby (Starlight/Bluelight)
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