now I realized the only relationship that I have where there's no fear and where I am accepted and not judged is with my dog.......wow....thank God for animals....It feels somehow strange to write this.What about you and your relationships?I don't know, is it even normal to feel not Really attached to any human being in my life?

I have never started any discussion on this site before, but now when I feel like a real freak I would like to know your opinions and.. whatever comes to your mind when you read something lame as this. Or do you maybe have the same experience? What do animals mean to you in your everyday day to day life? Do you maybe have close relationship with a dog or a cat?

I cannot imagine my life without my dog Sara. She is old now almost 14 but..she is my only best friend. I am never so open with another humans. Not even with my friends from primary school and I know them from my childhood. But there is a great wall between us...they would laugh at me if I told them all of THIS...I mean about ascention and the stuff...beings from another planets..It is just like a dream..no one knows this..not even my family..friends..and I cannot tell them. Sometimes I feel like I am going to wake up one day and realize it was only a Dream and I was a Fool to Believe. Maybe I am going insane. It is enough that my parents think I am already a freak, just a strange girl spending a lot of time alone, without any friends..no parties, drinking, boyfriend....and maybe it is true..freaky part..partly because I am afraid of people...and for me, it is better to be alone. Free and alone without others to force their opinions on me...what should I do with my life.  How should I think and talk..I am just..dont know anymore..

.I should not post this with all the mistakes I do in english...but it is not my native tongue..and really I dont care much right now... But I would love to hear your thoughts and feel a bit more connected with others...so ....what is Your experience?