I would tend to think I'm more left-brained, as I tend to be logical in my thoght processes, but recently I've been going through tough emotional times.I'm a computer guy: I like working with computers, and I'm a fan of open-source software (I'm posting this from Arch Linux). I can still program in C (mostly), and I even know a little assembly language. If I'm not mistaken, these are things that require a very left-brained point of view, right?I also have hopes and dreams, though, like anyone else in the world. There are things that I wish would happen that I don't even feel quite comfortable posting about here yet (then again, I'm a bit shy about myself, so...), and I would tend to guess that these are very right-brained things.Maybe I just have a very small way of looking at the whole left-brained/right-brained thing, but my question is: can I be both-brained?What I mean is, can I have my interest and knowledge in computers and programming while still being able to hold onto those hopes and dreams? I feel as though I have to choose between one or the other, not both...A certain someone (I won't name names here) keeps trying to tell me that the human brain doesn't have to be "left-biased" or "right-biased", and that the ideal state is actually right in the middle, but does that mean I have to give up what I like to do?
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"I like to talk about math, and math 'ideas' as long as you're talking about theories, like physics, it's all good, as soon as you actually get into numbers and equations, and such, I'm miserable." - Katt
I was once interested in studying the mathematics behind basic rigid-body physics so that I could possibly write my own physics simulation engine for a game idea that I have. I realize that there are libraries already available to use, but I think it would be an interesting challenge for me to take on that sort of thing myself...it would give my left brain a nice workout, LOL. :-P
The main reason why I got so discouraged from it is because I've started going through all this crud about predestination and free will. I keep thinking of how those physics apply to the human brain, and how it kind of precludes free will, since the mathematics behind those physics are fairly absolute (AFAIK). I think what I need to do, if I ever want to seriously get back to doing what I like to do, is simply put it out of my mind while I'm doing it. It's not easy, though: whenever I see some kind of algorithm or equation that looks like it could be applied to human behavior in any way, I start panicking and going into an endless chain of drawing analogies between computer algorithms and human behavior. Trust me, it's not a fun place to be, especially if you really seem to know what it all implies...
Anyways, I think I'll just try to "go with the flow", as it were. If it turns out that I don't really like computers anymore, then I suppose that'll be something I'll have to deal with. I do have a genuine fascination with technology, though...maybe I should try exploring fields other than computers.
Thanks for the post! LOVE!