Spiritual Forum

Hello, my name is Chaos Change. My name doesn't have much symbolic meaning, I once said the phrase "Chaos Exceed Change" in a dream and it did something magical so I decided to use it. Feel free to call me Chaos, or Change, or whatever you want. If you wish to know anything about me specifically feel free to PM me or ask in the comments, I'll answer practically anything. I suppose I'll use this blog to tell you guys a little bit about myself. I've had multiple spiritual experiences in my life, most of them are very Science Fiction-like, and often involve organizations that I only wish are the insane fascinations within my brain manifested into some form of hallucinated state. 

I'm not sure how to express myself, or even if people are interested in reading this, but if you are reading it then just know that everything I speak about is my own interpretation. I personally am not sure if anything I witness is even remotely true. Sometimes I'm not even sure of what I say. For awhile now my life has been plagued with multiple phenomenons that I'm not sure how to explain.

Now where do I begin... I suppose I'll start by mentioning that I have two sets of memories. There's the set of the time I've existed on here and everything I've done in this world, and then there's the set that I've done in what I presume is an alternate dimension.

At certain ages, my memory would alter/add more memories that I don't believe happened in this life. For example, when I was 7 I have a memory of where my father abused me, and another memory where my best friend was murdered and I discovered the body. That's probably the best example I can remember right now. 

From subtle clues I have of these memories from a "Different Dimension", as I have chosen to call it, I've deduced that I may be in a world similar to Earth. The technology is maybe 10 or 20 years more advanced than now. Well, it's rather odd. The most powerful piece of technology I can recall at the moment is a Hyperspace Gate that "bends space" between Earth and Mars, allowing for easy and simple transportation between the two planets. The scientist who discovered it used some kind of matter that literally bent space, like a piece of paper. I'm really bad at explaining things.

My role in this Different Dimension, from what I can tell is that I'm part of a group dedicated to seeking Truth. The group in question is something like an Investigation Agency for all things paranormal, extra-terrestrial, or otherwise. I haven't had a memory of this group that gives it a name unfortunately, or maybe I have and it's currently escaping me. I wish I knew how to explain it, I highly doubt I'm some extra-dimensional entity manifested in physical form. That would be silly.

In any case, this has been a bit all over the place. If you have any question about me, or about anything I've said feel free to ask. I mean I'm not trying to limit the discussion to just questions, anything is fine really. Geez, now I sound a bit desperate.