I'm so confused and don't know where to start.
These 2-3 years I started to awaken to a new world full of wonders.I have learned a lot and I understand more and more.Everything feels normal...just like I'm starting to remember.I've been told that I had spiritual past and that's why everything feels more real to me than the world that I knew before.
Many things I use in my practical life...I pray and chant very often and had few as I call them visions.I'm trying to practice spirituality as much as I can.I'm close with older people who are interested in spirituality and they are giving me many advises(I'm 18).I read books from spiritual leaders.I'm trying to eat healthy and take care of myself.I'm trying to awaken everyone who is close to me and have done a good job so far.I started to analyse everything I do and see if I have done something bad or not,am I making new karma ,or going in to freedom?..So this is were it starts...
...I started to be really harsh to myself.And started to chase time as much as I can so it wont be wasted.As I read from others discussions many are little bit stressed and feel like they are under pressure about what comes next.
Please someone help me...I really need help.I'm in love with Jesus and I'm trying to be more like him.I want to understand everyone and forgive them.It's like I can't enjoy the things I liked and I feel really bad when I do anything that is even a little bit bad,or if I hurt someone by mistake.
I don't understand what crystalizing is and how to move from 3dimension. I'm in panic.The world round me seems the same.
This is going on for 3 mounts...
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I think that I love myself,but my actions show something else.It's way easier to love someone else than to love yourself.I think that is a lesson I have to learn.Plus I have problem with thinking good things about me.I have no idea why.I feel stupid and ashamed when I do that,but I think that this is a period and It will pass.I 'll work on it.Thank you for the mantras I'll use them and I'll visit that website.I already feel like I was doing a stupid thing to myself.I getting all paranoid for no reason.
Thank you for all this loveradiates,Namaste!
....and thank all of you for helping me to get through this.
Anytime, that is what we all are here for is to help others; one never knows when someone else might need the help back. Much Love to you, you are on your way!!
Thanks to all of you...your words calmed me down.
Thank you again from the bottom of my Heart...