Now I have that smashing pumpkins song stuck in my head "I used to be a little boy, so old in my shoes."
towards the end I was beating that song into the ground with sticks I had found.
But more intriguing was when I met myself as a two year old and picked me up/hugged myself. I had the sense that I was time travelling and I looked myself in the mirror to compare our two faces. I had on the typical matrix glasses. I took them off and the dream started to fade.
Trippy dream
further recall edit: Ya know...I went into my home, my two year old self's home and met the matron of the house. She didn't look like my mother, but it was a diff time. Going with this matrix theme, I have to wonder if it was like one of my angels.
We got into a sort of arguement and she showed me papers of different life scenarios for me. Time's when i would have died without their intercession. I guess I was complain of the interference, but they were like "would you have rather it been like this" and they showed me like news paper headlines...
When I was around two I had a very near death experience. I have to wonder if I was visiting that self to help heal. Like that trauma was the source of a lot of pain in my life.
Like i've connected with it, to let the light in...to "disarm" the pain.
(that smashing pumpkins song is called disarm)
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