Spiritual Forum

For some time now I have had thoughts of how nice it would be to find a community where I could speak freely about some of the things that most people would not quite understand. Thank you so much for accepting me into this group. I appreciate it very much!

An intro about some of the things I've experienced and wish to share:

When I was a young one I would have visions of myself flying around the planet at a very rapid speed with white light trailing behind me.  The speed was so fast that I could see patterns being created from these light trails. 

Back in the early 90's I had several experiences with the greys.  I truly believe that the group of beings that were working with me were actively trying to activate their love vibration. One specific experience that is so cool and stands out in my mind is where I saw an image of a grey from the shoulders up.  I then saw an image of a horse from the neck up.  After that I felt the feeling of what a horses nose felt like - very soft and velvety.  This tactile sort of feeling had an emotional sort of energy tied to it.  I honestly think that this being was trying to show me the closest feeling it had to a love vibe. 

I had another experience in the 90's where one of these beings presented itself to me and revealed how vulnerable they are on a physical level.  I assured this being that I mean no harm whatsoever and  pretty much welcomed them into my life.  I had a few experiences with some that didn't seem to have an active emotional body. I told them to go away unless they were coming from a place of love and good intent -- and they did.

Years later I had an experience where what I believe to be a ship (with rainbow light) came to visit me and thank me for working with their group.  It was like they were leaving or something and wanted to say goodbye.

I'm curious to know what people here have to say about the greys and also if they have any presence here currently.  The other night Leaf and I were sitting at the dinner table, when he went to go get something from the living room. We were talking about the disclosure and such things at the time.  I've been very emotional for some time now because we've had some very intense financial struggles.  Whenever we get to talking about disclosure and how our system is going to be "reworked", I get very  teary eyed hoping and praying that it's real because it would be such a big relief!  Anyways, during the time he went to the living room I had a vision of a grey right next to me like putting it's hand on my shoulder and looking at me with much concern. It was like "are you ok?" sort of vibe.  It seemed so real.  It's weird, I have no fear of them whatsoever.  Now maybe because I'm pretty isolated where we live, I'm more inviting to any being/race/creature because I don't get much social interaction? lololol!! :D I just don't know. ;) All I know is that they seem like friends? Why is this? They don't seem like a threat to me.  My partner told me that a few years back the greys actually joined up with the galactic federation, so this may mean that the ones who have are playing a small role here? Anyone have any input?

Another thing, I think that I contributed to umm, what's that called.  Like the creation of hybrids?  There's this song from Pat Metheny album "Secret Story" called Above the Treetops. It's the first song on the album and has some sort of chanting in it.  When I heard that back in the early 90's it brought up this "memory" of being up on a ship and taking care of young ones.  Back then it was so weird for me to even think of, like wondered if I was crazy or something!

Later on in between maybe 2000-01 I was visited by a young grey that apparently wanted to apologize to me for not being able to connect with me? It was odd, like it showed me an image of a necklace with a thin gold chain and a very tiny garnet pendant. It was like it wanted to give me a mother's day gift?  It was a strange experience indeed. There was a taller being in the distance that looked much less vital like chalky almost, and had a long black coat on.  I got the impression that it was either very old or sick. At the end the tall one told the small one that it was "time to go" and they both left.

I don't know much about any of this in regards to research and stuff. I haven't spent a ton of time with it.  I did listen to some tapes given to me by a friend early on when I experienced this. They were Drunvalo Melchizedek tapes.  So I did glean some info about the greys from that stuff.  One thing that has been a curiosity of mine is to find out what race I was in a past life.  It's weird for me to talk about this as most people would think it's pretty freaky, lol!

When I first met my mate/partner/fiance (leafeforest), I had a very intense experience. I saw him in front of me as a reptilian being.  He was yellowish in color, very muscular with Large eyes that looked very much like goat eyes.  I was one too and felt the breath of that being during this vision. It was much different than human breath.  The feeling was that of bondedness and love, but it was very strange and took me some time to accept.  I heard that all reptilian races were dark/bad and it made me worry/wonder if I had a past life that was less than love.  Later on I had a related vision of being on a planet that was not very vital. I was on some sort of military base or something, a lot of stuff like concrete was around and it was pretty dingy & dark.  My partner Leaf came to rescue me in a little ship.  I'm not sure what that's all about, lol. :) I've looked to see if I could find illustrations of this lifeform but could never find one that looked exactly like what I saw, specifically the eyes.

I'm afraid that I'm totally going to get bashed for this, like you reptilian!!!! This is sort of an odd "present yourself to others" post, but it's stuff that I have not been able to talk about with most people. I didn't anticipate starting my intro out with such talk, but maybe it's what I need to discuss right now?

Love, Light, Hugs, Blessings, Kindness, Activation,

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