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REALLY IT'S NOT FUN TO B ME~THIS IS NOT A GAME~ & IS OH SO VERY REAL~I HAVE MADE MANY MSTAKES~ THROUGHOUT 4  THE IMPACT & ACCOMPLISHMENTS  I COULD HAVE contributed~ I failed ~ & NOW~ I hang my head in shame for ~NOT~ beiing a stronger man~as I thought I could~BUT~ Was always too worried about offending/hurting people~ BUT THAT NO LONGER MATTERS~ TO ME AT ALL~ I LOVE U EACH~ & I WISH I COULD PUT INTO WORDS ~ HOW MUCH~ YOU ALL NEED TO FOLLOW YOUR INTUTION NOW~ AS~ IT'S HERE!I WISH I WOULD HAVE GROWN SUM BALLZ~ & ~ BEEN ABLE TO DO WHAT IS MOST HARD FOR ME~ & THAT's hurt anyone's feelngs... AND SEEN IT WAS NECCESARY 4 THE IM-BETTERMENT OF ALL & 4 THAT  AM SO VERY SORRY~FOR WRITING IN CAPTAL LETTERS~I AM NOT~ THAT'S ME~ & STOP JUDGING OTHERS WHOM AREN'T ABLE TO BE FAKE!To those whom are SO VERY LOST~ & I FEEL RESPONSIBLE~I CANNOT RE-ASSURE YOU ENUFF~ THAT DEATH IS NOTHNG MORE THAN WHAT SLEEPNG, or graduating, getting married exc... IS~ ITS A PART OF LFE~ & ~ If that s what you waste your remanng time & energy here in this experience fearing~WELL~ that is your choce~I GUESS I ASSUMED ~ WHO WAS I~ THAT EVERYONE FELT THESE CHANGES WITH THE INTENSTY AS I ~ & saw the changes wth their own eyes as well and all the ships but were only  as I~& were just to afraid to sound looney~ AS BEING ME~ WHOM  KNOW HAS NEVER EXPERENCED SUCH A DENSE NASTY PLACE BEFORE & HOPE TO NEVER AGAN~ I AM SO SENSTVE TO EVERYTHNG~ SUDDENLY~WHEN YESTERDAY WAS NEAR INTOLERABLE TODAY TRULY IS~JUST THE SIGN OF THE CLMAX~ THIS IS EQUIVELENT TO BENG BURNED~ALIVE~  I CANNOT TOLERATE  THE BULLSHIT~ OF LIFE~I NOW  FEEL SO ALONE~ AS A HUMAN~ I AM NOT~ & ASSUMED ALL WHOM STATED THEY WERE THE SAME ON THESE SIGHTS TRULY WERE~I HAVE SEEN THE SO VERY MANY SHIPS ALL DAY EVERYDAY IN SUCH MASS QUANTITY~ COMNG OUT OF THOSE FLUORESCENT violet  & green pulsating energy portals for some time~BUT ~ AS OF TODAY I CANNOT FIND A SPOT  N THE SKY~ where there aren't ~COUNTLESS ships/ORBS OF LIGHT~SO BRILLANTLY FLYING AND FALLING &  N ~A FORM OR PATTERN AS GEESE~ FLOCKS~DANCING N WAYS I CANNOT DESCRBE WTH WORDS~ I CANNOT  COUNT THEM BY NUMBERS~ANYMORE~ I AM LOSNG MY OLD VISION~& ABILTY TO TOLERATE MUCH OF ANYTHING OF WHICH HUMANTY IS STUCK N ANYMORE~NOW WHAT ~ I  KNOW ~ WE ARE TO BE FIXING THS MESS  WE CREATED~ & THAT's WHAT I AM TO TELL PEOPLE~ BUT~ I HONESTLY CANNOT~ EVEN  GO TO THE STORE AS OF TODAY~ IT IS SO PANFUL TO BE ME~ I~ JUST WANT TO GO HOME~  PEOPLE AREN'T GETTING~IT~ AND THE PAIN & FRUSTRATON &~ THE SENSITIVITY I  NOW FEEL TO ALL THE WRONGNESS~ BEING SPREAD BY HUMANS (whom self apponted themselves as represenitives promising & almost being blastfamist to our famly from the stars) CLAIMING THEY ARE THE GFOL~  PROMISING TO DO EVERYTHNG FOR US~FIX OUR MISTAKES~ for reasons of which I do not understand but KNOW~YES~ I KNOW Y~U DO WHAT YOU DO~I MUST SAY NOW~ THIS~IS PROBABLY THE BIGGEST MOST HARMFUL threat &  DETREMENT TO SOCIETY ~NOW~ as for the future of all earth grown human souls~MORE~THAN THE CABAL NOW, or very soon~ I CAN  SEE THROUGH~ANY LIE~ BUT~I~ FOOLSHLEY~ PLAY A PART~  PLAY STUPID~AS SELF RECOGNTION IS SOMETHING SOMEONE LKE ME IS NOT AFTER~ NOR DESIRES~ AS~ TRUE HONEST COMPASSION & CARE ~ IS MY ONLY  IDENTITY~ & the REWARD COMES FROM WHITHIN~and is very personal & attenton has been something I have avoded my entre life! BUT I  SEE THE  VOLET ENERGY PULSATNG HOLES THAT these fleets of countless ARE COMNG OUT OF~and as of today they havge lterally flled almost each inch of our day skies~ I feel as I am a  carcass of which fles would be drawn too~for them~as a metaphor~NOT A GOOD ONE~AS~ they are the only thing that feels good~ & releves such pain anymore~  SO FAMILAR & COMFORTING~ YET I STLL MANTAIN AMNESIA TO WHY~PEACE NOW 4-me IS TO BE ALONE~ WTH THEM~ I CANNOT  JUST ACT LFE OUT ANYMORE AS IT  IS JUST TOO PAINFUL~ My family  see some of the larger ships~ that follow me~ but  they are more like ~ 3D in nature~& DON'T UNDERSTAND THE PAIN I ENDURE, NOR WOULD I EVER WANT THEM TOO~ I cannot explan with words~ TRYING TOO IS  MAKNG ME SHAKE LKE A LEAF! I'M SO~VERY  SENSITIVE~TO SOUND~ TEMPERATURE~ ALL FOOD~  Makes me sick and I am losing the will to even force myself to have the wll to eat~ They are encouragng  me~ BUT~ THEY DON'T SUFFER AS I DO~ & THEY DON'T JUDGE AS US~ and cannot just tell me what to do~in  english~  BALANCE IS ABOUT TO BE RESTORED~BUT NATURE ISN'T as concerned  about each vehcle who goes with as what people think~as they have been fed by~ OH DEAR ONES WE PROMSE~YADA YADA~as for when MOST thinks of death its as a negative thing & want spared from~IS WHY THEY EVEN CARE TO ARGUE~THS TRAIT Is unique & primtive to our humanod species~  THE UNIVERSE~ DOESN'T SEE  DEATH AS ANYTHING OTHER THAN A TRANSITON~AND A CHOICE EACH HAS HAD ALOT OF TME  TO MAKE~ I WOULD LOVE IT AT THS POINT~AS I GET IT~ YES~ LOVE &  COMPASSION ARE THE KEY~ BUT ITS~JUST~ NOT HAPPENNG~WE ARE NOT UNITING~WE ARE NOT  BEING WHAT WE CAN BE~EVEN ON THESE SITES I ONLY SEE CONFRONTATIONAL SELF MOTIVATED ARGUNG JUST TALKNG~ ITS A GAME TO MOST~LIKE DUNGEONS & DRAGONS~ I CANNOT TOLERATE LIFE MUCH LONGER AS I AM THANKFUL FOR  YOU~ALL~ But I cannot exert my energy which I have not much left~with the  douchebag~nimrods~ THAT ARE ONLY  CONCERNED WTH THEIR SELFs~ & SOUNDNG BEST N AN ARGUEMENT OF NO  IMPORTANCE~ & THESE SELF APPOINTED SPOKESMAN FOR OUR GALACTIC FAMLY~MAKING FALSE PROMSES~ TO FIX OUR MISTAKES??? COME ON~  AREN'T WE INTELLGENT ENUFF TO KNOW~ THAT THEY NEED NO ONE little human TO SPEAK TO THE MASSES 4 THEM????You think they couldn't be posting daily updates if it was how it was supposed to be? SURELY DEEP DOWN ~  You KNOW CHANNELNG IS A VERY SPECIAL PERSONAL PART OF THIS  PROCESS of spiritual growth & evolution & why they are here for us each~ when the time  comes for each~ SO MANY WiLL WiSH THEY HADN'T SPENT THESE DAYS  ARGUING OVER WHAT ~ a certain person~ HAS TO SAY EACH DAY~ As adding a computer voice doesn't make em the GFOL~DUHH~ONLY A COWHERD~ which they already have enuff they should be saying to themselves~BUT~WE SHOULD INSTEAD BE  USING THIS what could be ~MOST AMAZING GIFT OF WHICH WE ARE RECIEVNG AS  ENERGY  TO CORRECT THE MSTAKES WE HAVE ALL MADE! MAKNG MSTAKES IS WHAT WE ARE TO DO AS HUMANS~ BUT  MORE IMPORTANTLY~ACKNOWLEDGE~OWN~& LEARN FROM THEM! NOT~ BLAME~ OR THINK IT MAKES US BETTER THAN ANOTHER~ TO MAKE LESS~&~MOST~ NOT WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO FIX THEM FOR US~AS A WHOLE!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY THAT HAVE SAID THIS~FOR SO LONG~ &  CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE & HAVE MOST RESPECT & EMPATHY~FOR THE FEW TRUE WARRORS~ OF SELFLESS MOTIVE~WHO HAVE GIVEN THER ALL~BUT ALL OF YOU~ SEARCHING ALWAYS FOR  WHICH  TARGET NEXT TO BLAME~ WHAT's WRONG WITH SOCIETY~ WHY ~WHY~ AREN'T THEY SEEING  THIS? I AM SO SAD~ & aggitated~ & loss is now ALL left of  whom I was ~ ITS  HARD TO EVEN TALK~ I feel ~ SO MUCH~ MY BODY CANNOT CO-EXIST WITH  NEGATIVITY~SELFISHNESS & NOR CAN I  give anyone the false promises they  seek~That ~a human being~ has given~in behalf of advanced beings that could MOST certainly post their own messages~ YA THINK??? NOr can I do this ALL FOR EACH & ALL alone~ OR I WOULD! WHAT DO I DO~MY  DEAR FRIENDS~ I WOULD DO ANYTHING~ANYTHING~ TO HELP EACH OF YOU UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS THAT TIME~ THE TIME OF WHICH WE ACT NOW~ OR~ I FEEL AS A WHOLE~ WE HAVE DECIDED~ AS WE CANNOT SAY~ WE WEREN'T TOLD THIS~BY MANY OF SENSITVE STARSEEDED HUMANS~MUCH STRONGER THAN I~ WHOM HAVE SUFFERED AS I 4 TO SHARE & HAVE FAITH N WHICH I DO NOT~ WE AREN'T N THE TRILLONS~ BUT~ PROBABLY ALOT OF THE ~ REAL ONES~ YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW~as a public figure as I know for which how hard that would be alone to do~ NOR~ Have you ever heard of as if I DIDN'T HAVE KIDS~ I WOULD HAVE LEFT EARLY AS WELL~ & TO THE REAL PEOPLE OF HONOR~ & ~ KNOWLEDGE~ OF WHICH ARE KNOWN AS~ THE NATIVE AMERICANS~ THANK YOU~ FOR~ BEING THE AMAZNG~HONORABLE~ KIND & FORGIVNG SOULS YOU HAVE~ & FOR SETTING THE EXAMPLES OF WHICH to live by~ we could have noticed~ &~LISTENED~ ACTED on which such wisdom you shared~ AS WHICH YOU WERE KIND ENUFF TO SELFLESSLY OFFER AS WHEN YOU DID as  ADVCE for you TRULY know the meanng of life~as a whole~& I WOULD only hope to be honored to be N YOUR PRESENSE AT SOME TIME before, or after  the transition which is & WILL BE  the final one~arrves~TY~TOO~ALL WHOM HAVE ACTED SOLEY WTH THEIR HEARTS & selfless intent & real valid care for ALL as your only motive for doing all you have done for this bunch of barbarians we are as a whole~US~HUMAN~VEHICLES~ LIFE WILL ALWAYS GO ON~ & THERE IS STLL TIME~ I HOPE~ Don't quote me on that~as That's as much optamism as I can honestly offer anyone now!   ~SILAS~