I feel as if I'm in a fight with myself, any comments on this?

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1 darkstar January 4, 2013 at 4:14pm

Well, it might help to do some volunteer work in order to get a job, or just for your own personal satisfaction. School shouldn't be too hard, you may get a grant.
Richard Levison January 4, 2013 at 10:17am

I honor you for being in the non-productive part of society.Besides work makes you feel like a machine that repressess your emotions as well as your spiritual self.Money is slavery for having you pay for things rather than it being free of charge like it is in off world societies.Both give you the illusion of freedom instead of the reality of freedom.My stance against work and money stands.
- Seek and you shall find > Richard Levison January 4, 2013 at 11:27am
  
  We so need to start communities with a gradual introduction of a gift economy.
  
  It's the only way to do it. Waiting for the old system to crash, even for a day, only prolongs the inevitable.
  
  This change should be brought in gradually.
ThePatient January 4, 2013 at 9:47am

Phew.

Hard to know how to answer this, considering all the mistakes I've made to get to this point.

My best advice. Wait. Wait tables. Wait to go to school until you're SURE of what you want to do because, even after that, your goal will surely change.

Perhaps, this will help:

I've found that nothing is more important than working towards LOVE. Once you begin to ACCEPT and LOVE everything outside yourself, you will realize that you still don't accept and love everything outside yourself.

I went through this recently. I thought I'd come so far, but then I realized that I was still eating meat.

I'm not going to try to explain why or if that is good or bad,

but I will say that nothing compares to inner peace.

You can absorb whatever information you wish from the outside,

but it doesn't matter unless:

#1. you act on it

#2. it makes you happy & brings you inner peace

---you are the only one who can determine how you feel. you just have to figure out what makes you feel good.

Does it feel good to make money for yourself and "The Man," or does does it feel good to give to others?

The most important thing I want to share is that there is NO REASON TO BE AFRAID.

EVER.

We all make it back to SOURCE.

It's up to us how long we stay away.

Fight your EGO.

Fight your desires.

Don't give up.

We're counting on you to keep making progress.

When you look in places like this and ask questions, you should take comfort in the fact that you are heading in the right direction.

-Rob
Si January 3, 2013 at 10:00pm

What excites you? Follow your highest excitement and you're well on your way to your purpose.
- RedSpectralDragon > Si January 4, 2013 at 3:39am
  
  space excites me, but idk what, or how to start this exciting studynin life
Peter Panayiotis Karanikas January 3, 2013 at 4:52pm

And this is what i recommend you do with your life.

Awaken to your full potential.

And Be.
Peter Panayiotis Karanikas January 3, 2013 at 4:50pm

Hey there Red,

3 questions for you.

What do you enjoy.

What do you want.

How deeply do you love?
- RedSpectralDragon > Peter Panayiotis Karanikas January 4, 2013 at 3:36am
  
  well peter, i enjoy being around people, video games, nature. what i want i really dont think i know, but more than anything i want this planet to heal and the people on it aswell. and i love more deeply than i even know myself.
  - Peter Panayiotis Karanikas > RedSpectralDragon January 4, 2013 at 4:53pm
    
    Being clear on your personal wants is so important.
    
    Your desire for a healed planet is valid and appropriate. does the idea inspire you to make it a ful time concern? (apart from light work, of course).
    
    So often, those of us that are a bit "different" have wants that are also different. And so we tend to disregard them for more socially acceptable wants. Wants that satisfy those around us.
    
    Unfortunately, you will only truly be motivated to take action on your own wants. And so if you find yourself lacking direction and motivation, I'd recommend taking the time to familiarize yourself with your childhood dreams. with the ideas that used to keep you awake at night with excitement.
    
    And whilst your at it, make a list of your personal values as well.
    
    Your values are your moral compass. and if you aren't clear on your wants it is likely that your values have been compromised as well.
    
    The point of the exercise is to become clear on what matters to you.
    
    So that you can maximize your vibration.
    
    And allow synchronicity to start working for you.
    
    Be aware that just because you've created a list of wants, doesn't mean you'll necessarily get them. It may not be appropriate.
    
    Just acknowledging your wants to yourself sends a message of worthiness to your unconscious.
    
    And it liberates you from an unconscious fight with yourself.

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