I am sure most of you here are aware of or have heard of Demons, which I have learned to recognize as faults in the self, and a part of the struggle to be free of the stain of this Illusion that we call reality. I have experience with Demonology, and Demons, and in an attempt to stop fearing the darker aspects of myself I actually was able to befriend them, and become intertwined with their society; now I know that they are hindering me, and I know how to cleanse myself of them by dispelling their effects of me and their part of my psyche out of me entirely, only I feel like I am betraying them.
I know this sounds over the top, but I have been relying on their presence when I feel alone (only to find that they are the reason I feel so alone) but I have become so connected with them that they are calling me a Gateway, which I guess is someone so close to the Ars Goetia (order of Demons that are connected to the Miasma known as the Shadow of the Self) that they give passage to Demons through them, thus they have embedded themself in my heart and mind, and I need some help overcoming the feeling that I am betraying my friends. They have been subconsciously tormenting me for six months at least, and I am taking the steps to clear them from my mind forever. I know this a place of acceptance, and I hope that whomever happens upon this answers with an open mind on the matter. I know what I am doing is for the greater good, and that this will be a huge step to being free, but their part of me is telling me I am a traitor; I just need some counsel on the matter.
I recognize the obscure nature of the subject, and I understand that this may sound ridiculous, but all I am asking for is some guidance. I want to be here, this place has been such a huge help for me in finding a community of people who I understand, and who understand me. I want to be clean, and this is one of the things that has kept me from being pure.
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Do you know a good lightworker-healer in your area... no, a great one.
I would seek help rather than try this by myself..... but wish you the best either way.
Also there are distant-remote healers who work with this kind of situation for a fee.
Yeah, Braco isn't a bad idea... if you synch with him.
Your genuine intent is what matters, but others may be more experienced at this and offer an unbiased view.
Remember you have your own strength, more than you know, you are simply discovering it. Perhaps they need to be reminded of the same, encouraged to find it, and that you are not it nor its source for them. Fear is a mind killer, their beingness will never be their own to determine so long as their choice is fear.
The first and most important advice I can give you is “ASK”.
What you are feeling is your emotional sphere being tested. You are in contact currently with multiple entities that you refer to as “Demons”. These demons are your friends, and you have established a connection with them, and have embraced them as such. This is a very important tool when dealing with duality. They too serve a purpose, the darkness. The darkness teaches of things that we are not, and this tormenting is a result as such. You have to understand what their purpose is; the way to do that is this.
Invoke the Violet Flame, through the power of your’ I AM’ presence. Your ‘I AM’ presence clearly states your understanding and awareness of your being, and therefore it empowers your thought in the ‘Now’. Once you have brought yourself into this awareness, invoke a tool call the Violet Flame, it is a transfiguration tool. This works as a high frequency energy tool, which performs energy conversion and can be used for clearing, as well as any aspect of your intention in order to discover your true and highest purpose. This will allow you to confront those entities with true purpose within the mind, and they must respond accordingly; if they are silent or misleading, you know their intentions to be untrue.
Ask them of their true purpose within your experience right now.
Experience trumps everything, do not simply expect it to change, actively speak through your I AM presence to these parts of yourself, in order to create further and more abundant understanding between the two of you (this can lead to further lessons, and peace) or you discover they are there to hold you down, and feed your fear energy. The presence of these entities can be dealt with in an individual manner, or a collective manner, whatever works within the framework of your mind and spiritual realm.
Remember those that are within, are within because you have given permission for them to reside. Do not feel betrayal if you ask them to depart, you may still interact on any level, with any form if you wish. The goal of your consciousness in this time is to be pure. Purging your inner world of foreign entities is a choice, and that choice is infinitely yours, as it is your own world. If you are feeling dis-harmonic because of beings within your realm or mind, these entities do not reflect your true and higher self and need to be cleared.
You are no traitor to self. Your realm is your realm, they have their own, and as such they have their own choices to make. Do not feel betrayal because an entity wishes to reside in your consciousness, and you have grown weary, fearful or imbalanced because of its presence. If it is truly of harmonious and loving being, it will leave when it is asked. Self-Sovereignty is an important part of mastering SELF, and the purity in which we all search for. This is common, those that need assistance should always ask, do not fear, there is always someone out there listening.
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Actually those demons have more fear than you, and this is all they are doing - implementing their fear within you.
You must stop being engaged in playing with such demons. You can never win. As fear beings they always torment you.
The essence of fear is forcing and holding on tight instead of simly letting go. Fear beings see letting go as threat, they are always looking to ease their pain by holding on tight to other beings, they need their energy of fear. Fear always is attracted to fear. In their eyes that is more than nothing. Fear is a great energy. It is pushing any boredom. Fear beings always fear boredom.
See, this is similar to hate. Like love, hate is something apart from boredom. As long as you hate someone, you are connected, deeply connected. Actually hate is not the opposite to love. The opposite to love is ignorance.
And the opposite to fear is not fighting. We can never win such game, never. The opposite of fear is knowledge. Knowledge in order to look through the nasty game. Knowledge in order to get aware what is going on. You need to get aware what is really going on.
They torment you. They call you a traitor. They make you feel uncomfortable. They transfer their fear unto you. They fuck your mind and soul. They are no friends. They are about to demontage you. Are you able to see that? Do you feel sorry for them?
The sorry case is a basic misunderstanding among humans.There is a difference between compassion and empathy. Do you see it? Compassion sounds great, but is a sorry game. The sorry person can transfer some fears to you, you allow it. Empathy is basicly different. Empathy is not transferrence of fear, but basic memories, that you and the person are actually one, you come from the same Ground of Being.
Generally you can have empathy for demons, but it is exceeding humans imagination. We are not supposed to deal with demons in a normal way, because demons betray humans as interdimensional beings. It is not a genaral determination for humans to deal with such matter. I don`t know, if you are supposed to do so. But generally we are supposed to deal with humans, and the task is fairly enough.
Now don´t panic. Do not negotiate of fight with those demons. Instead, find knowledge to be able to look through the whole thing. You have come in through your ignorance, now come out by patiently finding to see the whole picture. Ask God to guide and help you. When I encountered demons, and this was often, I screamed for God and mentioned the name of Jesus - sounds silly, but is true. I once had death threats by a demon possessed woman. She wanted to kill me with a knife and had inhuman powers throwing me from one corner of a living room to the other. I really thought I would not survive that night. Her voice was like a deep male voice. She cursed me in most terrible manner. We both were guests at a birthday celebration, and we both should sleep over night in the house. We didn`t know each other. When all have gone, she came over to my room and started a conversation. You believe in Christ, she said, and I said yes. And suddenly she raged out, and the place was ready for the rumble. Unbelievable. It was strange. Suddenly I lost all fears and simply called out the name of Jesus. Her knife would immediately stop right before my chest. She was not able to stab me. She trew me around like a puppet from corner to corner. But she was unable to kill me. Next morning the nightmare was over. She slept in my lap like an innocent little girl. When this happened, I left the house.