Hello people of this wonderful site!
I'm going to start briefly on how my life is right now and what I want to do. This is something I have been thinking about everyday since I started to awaken last autumn.
Right now I'm spending a lot of time searching for information from the outside world. Channelings, information about the massarrests, documentaries etc like everyone else does. I have also created a forum post on a swedish site that informs about the massarrests and everything that will follow with great success. But it has come to the point where I begin to feel sick of it all and I feel I really want to learn more about MYSELF instead. Questions I ask is: Who am I? How do I connect with my higher self? I have read so many wonderful things about people experiencing these kind of things, learning their (galactic?) name etc. I long for it! Why do I get the impression that you need to be "special" to do this, and that it's a hard thing to do?
From what I understand this takes great practice, and I don't really understand why it must be (or maybe look) so hard to be able to access these things. Allthough I know being born and raised in this "illusion" reality makes it harder, but i feel as I am reaching for something that is so far out in the dark.
Sure I have tried meditation, but I'm so unsure what to expect of it, people say "go inside yourself" and I'm really trying but I'm not coming further then to a state of calmness whilst I'm still aware of my surroundings. Though I have not been meditating everyday, it feels like a nice thing to do, but I have no urge to do it because I simply don't know how to go deeper, what to expect and how to feel. It's almost like I'm being pulled away from meditating because of this, even though I really want to explore it. Meditation is really the key to use, right?
Every night before I go to sleep I am often thinking about with pure intent from the bottom of my heart that I for instance really forgive the dark ones in this world for what they have done and that i imagine how we all as a collective can finally begin to live in peace and harmony with Gaia. It is strange, I do not feel any hate AT ALL towards them because deep inside I know that will not do any good at all. Every single day I think about it, for instance how wonderful it would be to see a spacecraft when I look to the sky, how wonderful the feeling would be to witness Disclosure, how amazing it would be to witness Agartha, how wonderful it will be to learn about past lives and where I come from. All these kind of things.
But it feels like I'm missing something right NOW, I have not yet explored myself, what I TRULY am. And I really want to, but I don't know how. Right know it feels like all I am is this body with flesh and blood that can't experience spirituality beause I don't know how.
This surely creates a problem for me and some doubtful thoughts when you have not experienced any exceptional in your life (except som really wonderful dreams and amazing stuff happening in the middle of the night) like "What if this all is all made up? Do I just imagine things? Is my brain creating these dreams? How can I trust anything that I don't experience first hand?" those thoughts is INEVITABLE for me, and I would like to get rid of them. To be ASSURED. Anyone that feels/felt that too? I WANT to believe that there is more than the reality I now experience, sitting here at my computer. And the majority of myself beileve hardly that there IS. It's just this little part that still needs to be convinced.
If anyone has some advices to me on what to do to progress, since I really want to learn more. I would be really greatful for your help.
Love you all :).
Thanks !
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Thank you :) Interesting to hear!
There are many questions and one solid answer. ...Who Am I ~?~
that can only be answered by going within self. it's like finally going into meditation or prayers and asking that same question. ...........Intuition is the best tool.
Ask and you will find , search and learn...................
there is plenty of information on the net to discern falsity from the truth , sort of speak.
Mind is a powerful ladder on evolutionary path.
If you want to you can communicate to Ets through meditation in telepathy or during your sleep through the astral out of body experience astral projection. All you need to do is ask and you will e able to communicate. :)
That sounds so simple hehe. Something I would love to do :)
And ultimately...I think to really get in touch with your inner being, you have to become like a hermit. It's hard to really go within and know yourself if you're constantly around people and always focusing on what's outside of you. Being alone, and quiet with yourself...without any outside distractions...is a sure fire way to connect to your inner being.
I spend so much time alone, and in quiet...and it's amazing how people seem to be afraid to be alone and quiet. They always have to be doing something, or talking to someone, or listening to something, or reading something, or watching something...it's like they're afraid to just be.....and be alone with themselves and their being. Me it's the opposite lol I'm much more comfortable alone, and in peace...than with others. I can't be around people for too long, or I'll start craving my own space again.
I think it was Blaise Pascal who said...all men's miseries derive from not being able to sit quietly in a room alone. Because that makes what's within you, come to your awareness. And alot of people, haven't dealt with the ugly side of themselves and their life, so when they spend time alone, and start connecting with their soul....that comes up, and they don't want to deal with it, so they always look for some distraction so they don't have to listen to the nudgings of their soul. That's really how it is.
So to recap, here's my advice.....spend more time alone and in quiet.....move into integrity....live in your heart...and learn how to slow down, relax and eventually still the mind.....this will help you out, I know, because it works for me. And I believe firmly the same principals work for everyone, we're all basically the same. And don't think about it too much lol Don't try to do it...don't worry too much about technique...that's mind. Just do it, without really thinking about it.
Thanks so much for this John, It really helps me. Great advices!
Well you know, experiencing spirituality isn't something that you can be taught by reading. As I'm sure you've figured out lol Ultimately, experience is the name of the game of life, much more so than knowledge. And true knowledge and wisdom only comes from experience. So, none of us really can help you learn how to experience spirituality. I can tell you what I've done...but then, I don't really know how I did it lol You just go within. But I'll try to give you some tips of my ideas, hopefully it'll help you.
I think the first part to truly getting in touch with yourself is to move into integrity. I mean true integrity. Become really real, and honest with yourself and others. Then, not only will you become more real, but things in reality will become more real, and more clear, so there'll be less confusion. It all starts within, you want to have true realizations of things, you have to become truly real. It's not that things outside of you become more real, it's you become more real, therefore, your perception of things outside of you become more real. I think that's an important step to truly experiencing spirituality, and love, and oneness, and having real realizations of things....you have to become real. There's no room for fakeness or fronting in spirituality.
Another tip, and this connects to being more real, is to connect with your heart and begin living in your heart, instead of your mind. You're mind isn't you...it's a tool. You can't truly know something with the mind, that comes from heart level. And you're not truly being yourself or living from your being, from the mind. So..just focus your center..on your heart.
Most people are centered in their head...move the center down to the heart, and it's hard to put in words. Just relax your core, and focus on operating from it. And I've found, you can know when you're mind or heart centered, by your swallowing. If you swallow from your head...you know you're centered in your mind. If you swallow from your core, and your torso..that's when you're operating more from your heart. And practice that too, try swallowing things from your heart...it'll almost automatically connect you more with your heart.
Also, try to eliminate as much tension from your life as possible. Mental tension, emotional tension, even physical tension. Like, even exercising too much, puts stress on your core, and disconnects you from your inner being. So just relax...your mind body and spirit. Relax the mind, that's important. You can't connect to your inner being if your mind is racing all the time. So learn how to still the mind, and just relax it, slow it down. Slow down your thoughts and eventually you'll learn how to completely still the mind. It worked for me. And once you can still your mind, it'll be so much easier to experience different states of being, I've been in many different states just by learning how to get out of my mind.
it is mindblowing to awake and your head is spinning from all the information and how much you wanna do something or how much you wanna leave this place or see and talk with them , it all has to do with time and patience, we all have our own path with are own questions and experiences, and some have so much information and ways that you longing also to be close and find the way that they have found.
there is so much to learn and so may ways to see it is not easy to find the path but reading all this story's and the advise, it is nice to know that sometimes you are not going crazy and that this is more real than the world we live in now and I do meditate and not have the deep experiences, but in this world of chaos to take a break and give yourself room to feel the silence and peace is in itself a step forward ,,,,,and the more you do it the more you like it, it is the expectation that is what blokking, there are some video's from mooji here on this site and they are helping me to feel the essence of meditating just put it on and lay down and close your eyes and listen , maybe you find some progress in meditating with that
Thank you :) I will try that
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Just kidding. The Shadow can help if you reach out and seek me out.
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