I pray to God as almost every day.
When I went home I saw the stars.
Cygnus and Lyra and I remembered all the stuff.
There were women dancing and nobody looked at me.
Nice women, but too young estimating an old rattletrap like I am.
Sometimes I feel so lonely, so deeply lonely.
I feel I have always been like a loser, an egoist.
I have almost lost believing in love.
They don´t look into my eyes.
But I do and they dodge my looks.
I am seldom drunk.
And if I am, then I feel like having all done wrong.
Except God´s presence.
I even pray when I´m drunk.
And when I can´t sleep.
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