I guess you could call me a "questioning" individual as in GLBTQ. My goal in life is to make some contribution to relieving human suffering using my interest in molecular biological research or I might like to make some contribution to advancing human knowledge of some medically or biologically related issue. Doing both would be OK.

I am 56, male, upper-middle class origin. I continue to live an upper-middle class lifestyle though I suffer from mental problems. Specifically depression and OCD (although the OCD has been well-controlled for 11 years now due to medication. I also had a year or so of cognitive behavioral therapy which may have helped also.

I do question everything although this could be some kind of boast and I am loathe to boast--usually.

Actually,  I should edit that goal to say my goal in life is to be happy.

I really liked Mr. BenArion's blog about the dark side. I am trying to figure out how to think about and what to do about my dark side. What is a dark side? Is it my limited cigarette smoking? (Of course it is, but should I stop doing it?) I also noted BenArion's comments about the duality of life. I agree that there is a duality about almost everything--except maybe God, if she he it exists).

I have tried meditation. It doesn't work for me. But I see that that AshtarCommand employs ideas that are associated with meditation and I embrace them. My only question about meditation and duality is, Is there a god? I think that the fact that this web site talks about everything in the universe ultimately being ONE does NOT necessarily imply that there is a God.

I did some drugs until I was 32 or 33. Pot and LSD. Now I only do coffee and cigarettes.