Waiting is not something humanity enjoys!  Prior to building the illusion andburying yourselves in it, you were experiencing the magnificence ofeternity where there is no waiting because there is only now.

Time is a two edged sword.  It is the part of the illusion that effectively hides ordisguises the eternal now moment by making it appear to be onlymomentary instead of everlasting.  You can remember past times andexperiences, and you can dream about or imagine future ones, but yourexperience of now is only fleeting when it is enjoyable, andcan seem interminable when you are in pain or are suffering.  It is infact what is frequently described as “attachment”.

Letting go of attachment, of needing specific outcomes or results in time, as theBuddha taught, relieves you of suffering and anxiety.  You will stillexperience pleasures, pains, and boredom as they occur, but you willnot feel driven to hold onto them or to avoid them.  You will feel atpeace knowing that they will pass and be replaced by other sensations. In time, in the illusion, nothing lasts, everything passes.

When you hold on, are attached to anger, for instance, pleasurable sensations that you couldbe enjoying pass by unnoticed, or even intensify your anger, as in thatstate your ability for enjoyment feels blocked.  Trying to makeenjoyable sensations last by holding onto them – attachment – destroysthem, turns them, as it were, to ashes, and frustrates you, causingsuffering.

You cannot control the illusion, it just unfolds, but you can and do contribute to itcontinuously because you are involved in it.   Sometimes it will seemthat your contributions are good because an apparently satisfactoryoutcome occurs, and on other occasions the reverse is true, causing youconfusion and consternation.  It seems that you followed the rules,obeyed the laws, and that everything went wrong!  Events that you couldnot have foreseen, events of which you could never be aware changed theexpected outcome.

To experience peace and contentment it is essential to let go of expectations.  Toexperience desires and needs is normal, but a decision – and it mostdefinitely is a decision even if you are unaware of it – that youcannot be happy unless a specific object is obtained, or a certainoutcome occurs ensures that you can never be at peace.

Peace is your natural state.  When you are not at peace, like most people for a lot of thetime, it means you are attached to outcomes, outcomes that you cannotcontrol.  When you investigate your attachments honestly, which is noteasy, you will find that they are mostly fear-driven needs either to beright or to be better than or to be special.  But we are all one, noone is better or more right, just different – which is fine, that is asit should be – and yet in the illusion we have bought very firmly intothe need to divide and separate into good and bad, us and them.  Then we fight themto show them how wrong they are, how they are offending God, and us,and that they must be corrected, judged, and punished – preferably byus!  We know that when we defeat them and win, all will be well . . .  But it never is.

So let go, accept life as it occurs, and learn the lessons it provides, instead of rebellingagainst them.  Each one is a step on the way to peace.  It is as thoughyou were immersed in cold water, and each time you learnt a lesson thewater became a little warmer, until finally you and the water are atthe same perfect temperature, and you can no longer identify where youend and the water begins.  You are at one with the water, in completepeace and contentment.  And this simple allegory, although comfortingfor you while you are engrossed in the illusion, cannot convey even theslightest notion of the infinite peace that you will experience whenyou awaken into full consciousness, as you inevitably will!

With so very much love, Saul.