Ok peeps,
Last one. All of my best friends in the world have just taught me a very valuable lesson. It's taken a while but I got there in the end. ;)
After everything you've gone through, you have to realise that all the 'bad' that you have done came from fear, in my case, fear of being alone, which I have been for most of my life so far. Not that I didn't have wonderful friends, family and partners but because I was alone inside. I trusted in no-one and nothing. Especially not myself.
I have had to fight for every single thing I had in life and then give it all up to truly be free.
Someone has asked for a list of 'good' things I have done. This isn't going to be easy for me to write. I have spent my whole life refusing to trust or ask for help from anyone. I am the ultimate control freak because I have spent my life knowing that I have been given poor guidance from other people. My gift is to be able to see a person's true intentions behind their words or deeds. It is this that has driven me to this point, to try to find the truth.
Not everyone can see this. Some of us have been soooo brainwashed by the system (including me and anyone else whoever got out alive) that breaking it, means breaking yourself into a million pieces and then trying your best to put them back together in the right order.
That's what I am here to do - to put the pieces in the right order. Once I have been shown them by some of the most gifted people alive, that is ;)
I am the narrator. Funnily enough, I never got a part in any of the school plays as I was the only one who could read properly (I'm also from WIGAN: GO TEAM PIE EATERS!!!) and had to tell the story. Makes sense now, lol! Oh and I was born in BATH. You'll have to make your own name up - I wasn't there long enough ;)
Well, the truth is that I don't know if any of this is real or not. I have spent the last 8 months looking for someone I lost along time ago. It turns out that 'something' might have been playing me all along.
When I told my family what I belived, they thought that I had mental health problems and threatened to take me to 'THE DOCTORS'. Well f you family, you might not belive in me but I believe in myself.
And that's the secret to it all really, believing in yourself. Ha, who'd have thought it!
So people, no more listening to stupid guru's, teachers, rulers, leaders or the elite. Do what TEAM PENDRAGON do and believe in yourself!
PEACE OUT - WE LOVE YOU ALL - BELIEVE IN YOURSELVES. AND US xxx
Cat xxx
Oh, and here's the list
Age 1 - Survived having all of the skin burned off my feet by boiling hot toffee
Age 3-16 - Fought my dad who was trying to beat my mother up. And I kicked his ass.......
Age 4 - First person in the class to figure out how to read. Only cos my mum had tried to teach me first though!
Age 4-16 - Spent all my time working out the answers to the problems in class and then explaining them to everyone else, lol ;)
Age 18 - Tried to save people in a burning car when everyone else was too scared of it exploding (not that there was anyone in it, sooooo that would have been a TOTAL waste of time). Use your brains before rushing in people!
Age 19 - Took down a man who was trying to tell a group of his friends that I was madly in love with him (don't feed the ego dude) by banging on the window, shouting 'is this yours' and giving him the finger :)
Age 26 - Took down my disgusting monster of an ex-boss who constantly used, abused and groped women by smacking him one in front of all his staff and telling him that I'd knock his f'ing head off if he ever touched me like that again. Not that I advocate violence in any form - only self protection. In this case he had grabbed my arse really hard and it hurt. Don't let horrible men with huge egos touch you up.
Age 30 - Brought down the biggest WANKER of all time. He had abused me for years and tried to strangle me in my son's bedroom. I somehow managed to get my hand under his little finger, dislocate it and bring him to his knees. When he crossed me by refusing to pay up, I told his work that I had done all his qualifications for him. This was the original deal. He broke it. Don't make threats, take action. ;)
Age 32 - Brought down the second biggest WANKER of all time. This revolting piece of sh*t had been floating around 'care' systems for years, 'counselling' people with his 'wisdom'. This one, if I'm honest, gave me a little bit of pleasure. Essentially, he waited for vulnerable women to come to him (i.e. me, just after the break-up from WANKER 1), 'counselled' and 'supported' them by telling them that they were poor, weak inferior little beings who needed his 'guidance'. Massive religious freak, surprise, surprise. He even managed to get me, I was so ill and then, guess what, he tried it on with me. Now admittedly, I am pretty hot (LOL) but no real man would EVER take advantage of someone in that way. They would take their time, support and guide them, giving them space to find out who they are. :)
And not by being a great big floating turd in toilet of life. I took him down by going to his all his bosses (thankfully there were some good ones in there to help me, or I'd have gone down). In the end I had to go in there myself, tell him that his leadership style was appalling, that I had no confidence in him whatsoever, ask him what kind of deluded f*cker would sit there assuming that ALL women were interested in him and question him about exactly how many he had done this to before me.
NEVER, EVER, EVER let anyone take your power away from you. Not once. If someone tells you that you need their help, advice and guidance and you don't want it, or agree with them, you are perfectly within your rights to tell them to p*ss right off. OWN YOURSELVES!!! :)
Now, here is where the forgiveness comes in. Every single one of those men had been hurt in the past. As a result their defences had built up to the point where they took over the show. They were ill and I had to do what I did to set them free. I have no blame or anger towards them as no forgiveness is needed. It is no-one's fault. There is NO ORIGINAL SIN.
The truth is that you have to take power back for yourselves. Why are you all still sitting there waiting for some stupid frickin aliens or channelers or gurus or whatever to save you?
GET OFF YOUR ARSES PEOPLE. THE PATH IS IN PLACE. FOLLOW IT :)
GO TEAM PENDRAGON!!!
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Cat - the first female grail knight ;)
xxx
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One day, a King will come... and the sword shall rise... again.
~Keep up the Good Works Cat... Percival Lives 555
Hi Catherine,
Yes it's fear that guides us when we feel angry or guilty, and it's fear that makes people abusive. Bullies were bullied. The most evil, misogynistic narcissist I know was sexually abused by his mum at the age of 4 and used to wet his bed in fear till he was in his later teen years, and still did at times in his 40's. As your amazing Forgive the Illuminati video said, even the cabal are taught to hate, through fear, from a very young age.
If we knew this, the world would be a different place. We were not taught this. It's not our fault that we didn't know. It is up to us to devise ways to deal with it without feeding fear to the fear. I'm still working it out. I refuse to make my life any harder than it already has to be, so I refuse to join in the fear game. Not that I haven't.. but it did nothing good for me to remain outraged and angry. Finally, after years of hating him I put my anger aside and made contact with him, without attacking this time, discussing narcissism and early childhood abuse, and he suggested that hypnosis would help..and then his biggest concern was how his mum would feel in her old age if he brought it up.
May the force be with you Cat! Love Moanna xxx
congratulations