I got thrown out of my home,heres why.
My mother,she's a very angry person,she sometimes acts nice and dandy,but she gets VERY mad over the littlest things.A week ago,a friend came over,we talked and played games etc.When he left,my mother came home,and the first thing she noticed was that someone has been smoking.During the time my friend was over,he smoked on the window.She got very mad,it almost got physical.Yesterday,when i was watching the TV,i was talking to my mother on the phone,i went away from the telly so i could have a little quiet time,when suddenly a loud laughter came upon and she thought that someone was here again.When she got home,things got really wrong,she was...angry,lets put it that way.
So today,when she came home,everything was ok,when she went to the kitchen,she immediantly came to my room and started yelling at me "WHY ARE THE DISHES DIRTY!?","You dont do your home chores,your doing AWFUL at school!" etc. Really,why would a person get mad over dishes?So anyway,one thing lead to another and now im...homeless.I'm at my grandmothers place right now,but i dont have a genuine home now.The last words my mother told me were "Give me the keys and Get out".thankfully,i didn't.So i no longer have a home,she might cool down in a few days,but i don't want to be there or anywhere NEAR her.I just want to go away...far away,i want to be among aliens,good or bad,i want a real home...
So iv reached my Zero-Point.I don't know what to do any more.
She's a bad person,i dont want to see her again.She feeds off negative energy.
thoughts,please...
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Be patient and see what you get onto your plate. A person can not learn much if everything is right for him/her.
Hope things will be alright soon for you..
Sending my heartily blessings to you....
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Maybe you are both at fault, but you need to talk things over and need to work together to make your home a happy one.
I hope it works out for you both
Love and light
I have a few times found myself homeless, and survived, believing I'm a much stronger person for my experiences, I know I'm a heck of a lot tougher, and can confront anyone and walk away, though I've left my violent past behind.
I would highly recommend staying with your grandmother and finishing school if possible, then once you have completed your schooling, try finding suitable employment, then you can be truly self sufficient.
It sounds like you are still young, and without a reasonable education, employment is hard to find.
Good luck, I wish you all the best in being able to maintain a sense of sanity, and in not putting yourself in the wrong situations.
I too dream of living among the stars, but I'm not prepared to leave just yet, still have to finish raising my son who is now 16.
I'm sorry but I dont agree with all the other posters. Your mother is NOT toxic. She is just living in the real world. And sometimes there are responsibilities that people have to do throughout the day. We're all here because we want to discover our spirituality. Well lets then help others do the same. Your mom probably needs help. And since you're thinking about "Why am I here on this earth?" "What's my purpose"? Etc., think about this... could it possibly be that you're here to help YOUR MOTHER.? And I dont' mean by cleaning the dishes, I mean by listening to her and being there for HER. Not having to always think that SHE is the one that has go GIVE GIVE GIVE. And no, I don't have any kids yet, but I have a mother and I know that it's incredibly rewarding to help the ones that helped you at some point.
My suggestion for you is to look into Homeopathy, it's a great healing tool. If you do manage to do this, and give this to your mom, she will feel much better, it will clear her mind, calm her emotions and help her realize that she perhaps was too harsh to shower you with all the problems of the world. And you as well if you take homeopathy in time will realize that you don't have to feel that way and can open up to better experiences.
Don't wallow in this pitty, help yourself and your mom.
Good luck!
I'm 17,at school I'm a great student and I have good results I try my best at every thing,but he always finds something to yell about.He thinks that I'm not interested in any thing normal that I'm a failure,abnormally naive and he always threatens me that he'll throw me out of home.In fact he did that two times and I always came back,that time I was sleeping at my grandparents place,at my friends place,it was really difficult for me.He tells me that I have no future he insults me every time he can and most of the time he is so negative,he makes me cry...I know that everything isn't like that and I know that he doesn't understand my ways and that's why I'm not mad at him.Every time I can I try to calm him down and make him happy and proud.Before I just wanted to leave him forever and live on my own but i found out that that wasn't a solution and that I can run away from problems.
Your mother is not a bad person...you have to understand her,maybe he acts like that because she is not happy and she has problems try to help her and understand her talk to her don't give up on her...she needs love that will make her a better person.This is just a period that you have to live through it.
Don't feel bad and don't lose hope.I didn't and it was awfully bad.
Sending you lots of LOVE and LIGHT Anna.
Your not really coming clean here, so far it seems you just want attetion, by saying what you said above, with no more details, it comes off as a spoiled rotten kid, seeking attention. If thats the case, you cannot count on your mom, who spoiled you, to fix the problem. You have to fix it yourself now. Its done by INTENT and PASSION. DO you really want to grow up? Or stay SPOILED. Only you can change it now, your past puberty, and the one who spoiled you isnt capable of seeeing what they did. (if this is the case)????????????????????????????
If your being physically or sexually abused, you need to tell us, and quit playing games dude. No matter what, you have to become responsible and grw up as an adult. Throw the spoiled side in the trash can, and pray for forgivness for whoever did that to you. Look to God and Jesus, the way they walk; and you'll see where the path of responsibility is...peace