Hello dear readers,
I have been reading some of the discussions here on this forum -as a guest- and noticed that there are a lot of people out there that are burdend by the ascension symptoms. This was one of the reasons I signed up coz I think I have some symptoms going on myself and I have a hard time with it. So I am happy that I can share my experience and that there are people that feel the same and can undertstand my situation and that of many other people, without judging.
I already have some negative feelings going on starting last year, but it is getting worse and worse and the last week and it is so bad that it controls my life. I get all these negative thoughts that I wonder if they are even my own. I am fighting against it and try to tell myself good and positive things, but somehow the negativity controls. I feel misundertood and everthing suddenly falls upon me. People are rude and mean and somehow everthing I do and say is bad wrong or rude. Even when my intensions are good and come from my heart I have to apologize for things that I didnt do or where meant well from my heart. So all this pressure makes me feel negative about other people. I noticed I start to behave different as well and get annoyed really fast, and I even have moments that I want to scream. There are certain people in my life that I feel suddenly very negative about....usually with people that i had issues with in the past. I am aware that these are probably feelings/issues from the past that have to come out to make clean ship. But it bugs me....I feel misunderstood and I been punished for being nice. Now I cant be nice anymore and the only thing I want to do with some people is fight..coz they say or do something that hurts me or say things that are not true or misinterpretterd or whatever, or if they simply cant understand what I am saying or trying to explain. I am turning in one of them..slowly..thats how it looks like. And I dont want that.
I have read about physical symptoms in here...I had that too starting 2006. But that is getting better now. Now it are the mental problems and I really feel I am not in my place.
I thought I had my mental issues under control. Forgave people, tell my self that their behaviour was to blame about there experiences etc etc. And when I am sincerly wrong I will admit it, think about it, make excuses and try to change coz I want too.
Just wanted to share that with you guys. Because I am human (or maybe not ;-)), I make mistakes, but it cant be that bad that everybody suddenly falls upon me and everything I do and say is so bad that I deserve to be yelled scream at and being told bad things which makes me lose my friends.
And the people that had real bad intensions get away.
What is going on here....
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There is a lot going on energetically with people.
I know for myself I have delt with energy that was negative, scary and as a result had me running to the nearest metaphysical shop to get stones and emergency psychic readings. When people start to ascend and transform everything gets uprooted it is not a matter of being wrong or right or a negative person.....What people previously hold as truth for themselves will dissolve.
I kind of see it that there are vampires within us. When we are transforming those vampires (the parts of ourselves that might live in darkness) but once they hit the light of spirit they cease to be, and sometimes they put up a fight to live.....There are parts of ourselves that feel like they are passing through the eye of a needle, old baggage and beliefs some hang on for dear life and it feels like if I can just those final "worms" out of my system everything will be fine......
There are also lower vibrational energies that get transformed and negative emotions and thoughts run there course and change and are raised to a higher level.....there are also the energetics of interpersonal relationships in which negative emotions can be someone elses and not yours. That is a big one I deal with and that is the one that effects me the most......I am at a point in the process when I speak of something like I used (maybe a thoughtless comment) to I feel guilty....That tells me the old way of talking is no longer working for myself becaues of the personal feeling behind it....I can no longer speak in way that makes me feel bad....
there are lots of twists and turns to this process and for one thing I can tell you it is not always rainbows and ponies..
In what the bleep down the rabbit hole the main character goes down the rabbit hole and she Is looking in the mirror and she screams "I hate you!" "I hate you!" and basically berates herself, but that shift and changes and then the next shot she is turning to loving herself.....every aspect of myself has changed during this process ........
remember to forgive yourself first and foremost!
Hello and welcome to our little looney bin Ingie,
When all this gets to you, just say to yourself and whoever is within earshot while wearing a largish, corny grin: "I'm OK, everyone else sucks!" Because, it really is true, you beautiful person, you. Your welcome.
were theres a storm there must be a carm.first thing is stay on top of your health nuetrionally,do some exersize like yoga to release negitive energy. try to stay sentered by way of healing and medition stand up for yourself more but fighting is not the answer.it seems like you and the people around you are vibrating on different levels.so you may find it harder to comunicate with them.stay in the light no matter what and trust in the light people will come and go in your life but if some of these people are family visualise harmony between you and them do that in your medition and see how you go.love and light.
You are right. I have cut ties before...many times. It hurts but i got over it....but there are always people that are SO close that it is natural to try to fix it...and yes i try to let them see the light sort of speak. But no results...so you are right..I have to let go. How painful it might be..luckely I have you guys :-D
It contradicts a little bit with the new dimension though. Coz thats says that the new dimension is about unconditional love, forgivenes and more. So there is this one person that I feel unconditional love for..whatever he says I still love him coz I can see the good sides to. So that is what is so confusing for me. Coz it is burning love for the first time in my life I feel my heart burn, like really burn burn. Burn in the sense of new dimension burn.
Never mind I already know what the answer is here lol...you can still love someone unconditionally when you let them go...split roads.