my life is strange, i am trying to fit into what is expected of me , yet deep down maybe naive or irresponsilbly i know it does not not matter taking this rat race for money, equality and status seriously! but we live in a tangible world where stuff matters! deep inside i know we can't take this material stuff  with us and it's a game/lesson to be played out with each other! the ruling elite have created such a power holographic perception of what we should believe that we resign our power to playing that game! i am guilty of that as i still struggle with the emotional addictions and the ego driven praise of our pears! there is that part that knows we are powerfull beings with the power of creation and the divine spark in all of us and the rocks, the animals,our water and mother earth.

but gee wizz i want to feel connected to the source! i am like a hampster on a wheel seeing outside and knowing i want to be there but keep letting myself get caught up in the ego pleasure's!

i suppose i need to trust the process, it's brought me here and there is a reason i am opening slowly and battling my demons! lemuria was not created in an instant!

universal love is all around! stop and pull some in through your base chakra is what i try do it's a simple visulisation but helps! i imagine a shaft of pure white light that sparkles going into my base chakra and through my crown connectiong with our ozone layer!

now just to get the mood and patience sorted!

thanks.