Namaste.
As a 23 year old light worker and Indigo and current metaphysical student I've been wondering something....and its making me kinda worried (not in a negative matter tho)
You know Ascension and all the symptoms..well i know allot of people who are feeling the symptoms and they feel as if they are changing etc or the have aches,dreams, visions, body aches, headaches etc they hear or see angels etc or go and visit their Planet and all that wonderful stuff.... and i dont feel, see or hear anything..i dont feel pain.... i dont feel changes...i dont feel i am moving or changing or anything...,i dont feel changes in my body.... Even when i meditate i feel peace and i feel happy but i dont have any symptoms or visions and anything like that...and i think that is boring or probably i am missing something?...
I am a vegetarian and well i keep my life as happy and peaceful as possible I love to serve and take care of my family...i am not getting any of those changing symptoms but what i STRANGELY get is like i get angry which i usually never feel.... i get annoyed by being around people it just makes me soooo angry and like annoyed...USUALLY i am not like that AT ALLL.....and it makes me wonder whats wrong with my ego? why is it like this??.... Is this one of the symptoms?? I cant control it and i try to let it flow and i try to look deeper into my being to see what is causing this but the anger is still there i am even annoyed by my boyfriend..my family.....i am angry and plain annoyed...and how people live their lives etc.... In our house there are like 3 extra women living with us that work for us and they use our kitchen too etc...and well these days i dont even want to say "hello" to them.... and this makes me worried!! Am i being judgemental or mean???? Oh lord..., I want to ascend but all these weird negative feelings are driving me insane.... and i kinda get worried what if then with all these emotions i miss the ascension??? If These emotions are part of the ascension i would be HAPPILY angry then hahaaha.... I am worried that probably i am missing something to "change" like the others who are having body aches etc.....I smudge my whole room with white sage, i bath with salt water....and oh boy, I even want to be single now and i dont care about anything... whats happening???? Thanks for reading btw! Much Love. PS: I meant it!! i am not mad right now LOL xxx
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First I would like to say I LOVE YOU!!! haha I strongly feel you and honestly you are doing just fine! yes I get that as well with the energies of other ppl( it may or may not be your energy,perhaps the ego) learn ways to protect your aura, and center yourself. The ego is trying to hold on to anything it can. Protect yourself protect yourself protect yourself. This journey is about YOU. not in an egoistic way.(The angels just told me please do not compare yourself to others) Self love my dear:) I was in panic too last week because I was experiencing a similar situation, and the angels told me that because we are receiving new energies each moment if we go threw physical aches it is simply because the body is adjusting to the change(bad energies gots to go!), now that you are eating healthy(high vibrational food energies) the body doesnt need to "kick" much out. We are like beautiful butterflies from powerful humans to powerful light beings:) Hope this is understandable:)..now because we are going threw new conscious levels we are receiving more light(universal love, wisdom & Knowledge) and the lovely ego is doing its job by protecting it self, I like to thank the ego for doing its job but I also RE-MIND it that its part of the one :) also i would love to add is that Ascension is not a fix date, it is happening moment by moment, And we all are going through different experiences each in a different way. I feel like we are in a roller coaster ride, I absolutely love it:) We get more of our power back with each and every ride:) Dont worry love your doing just fine:) glad i was able to share this with you:) Much Love and Light ♥Luna♥
Well I would say, don't worry about it, it's part of the process to get negative sometimes. That doesn't make you a bad person, it just means there are things to work on. Try to look at it as a positive thing, because it is being brought to your attention to be cleansed, and further your Ascension progression.
And I get negative too sometimes, especially at other peoples negativity. And I get annoyed too, like with useless talk lol You know, people who talk for the sake of talking. I tend to like being still and silent, and only talk when I feel it is necessary, like to share an idea, or to answer a question. And these people, they just talk and talk about anything, and gossip, I do not like gossip lol And I get frustrated because there are times when I just want peace and quiet.
And I totally understand you, there are times when I just want to be alone, in silence. No outside thoughts or sounds. And then people come and talk to me, and I feel like, I am frustrated! Or I will tell them, I'm not in the mood to hear you gossip, and then they get hurt, and I feel like a selfish bad guy.
But I know, getting frustrated is an imperfection, I know. And I know, patience is a virtue. And like Luke said, love is the answer. It really is. If we can move into a space of unconditional love, nothing will touch us. Much easier said than done lol Also standing in our power, because I believe self-empowerment is just as important as unconditional love. It's okay to tell someone, look I am not in the mood for company, I am not in the mood to chit chat about trivial things. We have to honor ourselves as well, and we shouldn't feel bad for doing that. But right, love is the key. Self love and love for others.
So I wouldn't feel too worried if I was you. I don't think your missing the boat or something, simply for not experiencing the "symptoms". You know, inside of you, you are ascending, so that's all you need. Not some outside physical validation that, yes I am on the path, I fit the criteria! You know you're on the path, or you wouldn't know you're on the path! lol So take it as it comes, be patient with yourself and others, honor yourself and others, love yourself and others. That's really all you need to do.
I am just like u !!! I cant stand SMALL TALK! my brain shuts off... yeah, people love to talk about normal random ordinary stuff that it gets me annoyed too... Yep, and i constantly want quietness and silence too that is one of the reasons me and my boyfriend are kind of struggling a bit....because he LOVES TV and break.com videos... and dramatic killing movies and all that BS that makes me craaaazzzyyyyyyyy!!!!! lol..., But i do stand small talk when it comes to My mother... she is like almost 60 , very stressful woman and very lonely so yeah... Sometimes she annoyes me to death with her vibration but i believe i can change her with My light just by being around her. Hopefully she will get there too. But i have lost many interests in friends... because they love to talk about stupid useless stuff and i feel "disrespected" because i think i am much advanced or worth to be talked about deeper subjects. (not talking out of Ego here LOL) but thats how i feel. So u r not Alone... in fact i think you are also an Indigo child :-) Old SOul
I agree. When my mother or anyone gets going on the small talk, I just go automatically on day dreaming mode or zone out into contemplating something that I'm actually interested in :Þ
But I've been getting myself into some Reiki practice lately so all I have to do now to get my mom to shut up is give her a Reiki treatment. lol. funny how things work out sometimes :D
The Secret 2: how to get people to shut the bleep up!
haha
all the best :)
-Kristó
Yea, and I'm 23 as well, seems like we have alot in common lol And we have black hair!
Like you, my friends talk of many useless things, things that are not even important today, much less tomorrow. And I feel like, I am more advanced than this, why I am even listening to these people. I try to be polite, and change the subject onto something real and important, and this is when THEY tune out lol I mean, God help these people. Me too, unless it is something deep, I just would rather not engage in conversation, except if it with my mother, I mean..she is my mother lol
And yes I need my quiet time. I need my time of silence and going to the stillness within me. I don't know why people are so afraid of silence, like they have to talk, all the time, about something. Why don't you just be quiet for a few minutes. Like in cars lol Silence makes people uncomfortable, it makes them bored, they have to always try to talk of something. I just get tired of it lol
And yes, I am a high level indigo, this I know. Like you, who I know as well. It is our job to tear down the old, and make way for the new. We are the light warriors, here on Earth, to right the wrongs and show people a better way. I know many people here, on this site, and around the world...want to keep to themselves, and feel like, well I will just be positive and focus on my life, other people can do the dirty work of actually getting out there and changing the world. That is their business if they feel that is their role. But IIIII have a different role! I knoowwww my rooaadd! And I will not cease nor rest, until the job is done! God is my strength. I pledge alliegance to God and goodness, and to turning this world around.
I wish more people were passionate like that. I wish more people cared! So God bless you, Ali, for caring! For sharing! And for daring to do the right thing. God bless you, for being you, for being a high level light worker. Even if we fall to imperfection sometimes, or fall into negativity, that's okay! We know we are on the right path, the path of rightness and righteousness, the path of purity and perfection. Keep at it. Don't be swayed or led astray! Keep your eyes on the prize, the goal of fulfilling your role, and together, we will transform this world into the Heaven on Earth it is meant to be! God bless you, and God bless each and every one of us!
Im glad I met you..just like Kristo... do u guys have facebook? lets add eachother !
Hey, have you ever tried 'the mirror technique'?
If someone is troubling you, draining your energy, or being negative in any way... Imagine a full length mirror in front of you but reflecting the other person. I've actually experienced folk stopping in mid-sentence, making excuses & leaving real quick. Works every time & helps the day go easier...
Have fun
Eternal Love, Light & glorious Rainbows from Scotland xxx