Hi there nice people!
Thank you for reading my topic, I appreciate it!
When I was 12 i was diagnosed with epilepsy. I got seizures 3 times a day and was put on medication. I was often " out of it" en my attacks got even worse and more frequent. The doctors didn't know what to do with me so they start drugging me with all kinds of medications possible. When i turned 15 i was on a medicationscale of a grown man.
Last year i stopped with my medication, all by myself and didn't have any seizures since.
Now to my question:
I'm really worried that all the drugs, the so called seizures and the mental issues i got from the 10 years wrestling with this is holding me back for my purpose. Actually, i think it was pressed back because of this reason. I was so spiritual, I've felt energies and saw a lot when i was younger, before the medication, thats why i believe and live by it. But I've never felt it as strong as i did.
I think i still have something blocking me, holding me back and i don't know what to do with it.
I really want to "clean" my body, but don't know how. I really want to feel energy again the way that i did, but i don't know how. I try to meditate, but i can't concentrate anymore.
I feel really lost and sad and i'm really trying to stay on a good path and send light and love to all, but i often feel its useless because i'm 'broken'.
I hope that maybe someone can give me some advise, or maybe someone has been through the same thing...
Or maybe i just want to be heard.
I guess its all the above :)
Thank you for reading my story, i must seem really depressed and sad, but overall i really enjoy my life and everything in it :) So no worries on that part!
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Dear Reneetje,
Contrary to popular belief, the human body is a wonderfully resilient and rebuildable device.
Embedded within your dna is the blueprint of all that you are in a perfect, uncorrupted state.
First of all, if you are talking about your purpose as a light worker,this is your purpose.
Turn on your light, carry your light into dark places.
Thats it.
That's it.
I understand how you feel about this.
I for a long time was worried that I wasn't fulfilling my purpose.
That there was something I was meant to do.
and things didn';t really start to move forward until I came to understand that what I was meant to do was be, light.
that by just doing that I AM adding to the overall light quotient of the planet.
anything beyond that is how you spend your time.
And it doesn't matter what that is.
You carry your light, your attitude, your integrity into dark places so that those in the dark can see what is there.
The metaphor of the light house is appropriate.
It doesn't tell the boats where to go. it only illuminates the rocks so the boats know where to go.
This simple change in thinking opened up a whole new universe of potential for me. And it allowed my energy levels to consequently sky rocket.
and that is when your divine plan starts to show itself.
And trust in the divine plan. trust that you haven't missed it.
There is a vibrational threshold that needs to be reached before this is exposed to you.
The galactic alignment, I believe will awaken many such plans.
It is not unusual to feel and understand energy when you are a young, budding light worker, only to have it stop on you.
That is part of the process.
The process being you are given a taste of your potential, then life happens in such a way that you lose it. this occurs to make you stretch to reclaim it. This is an important part of the process. It is the stretch and struggle that forces you to dig deep inside yourself and discover who you truly are. It teaches you compassion and humility. The struggle teaches you to respect that gifts that you reclaim. Anything given to you on a platter is abused and squandered.
Beyond this, what keeps you from reclaiming your gifts, your ability to recognize and manipulate energy is fear. It is that which lowers you vibration. It is that which causes illness. It is that which shuts you down. And keeps your pan from you.
In taking a step to stop them meds you faced a great fear. Pushed across a significant boundary. Now the game for you is to keep doing this. To face that which you fear most. Over and over. and every time you breach a boundary you will raise your vibration that bit more. And you will activate your DNA that bit more. And your body will heal that bit more.
I know it sounds over simplified. And it's not. It is that simple. It is something that I have applied to my own life, and to the lives of my friends with much success.
Have faith in the process. You are right on track.
Even if you don't feel like it.
The boat won't sail without you.
I hope that that this has been of assistance to you.
Namaste.
WE ARE DIVINE SOVEREIGN BEINGS OF LIGHT
P.s there are a lot of online resources available for addressing emotional states.
Binaural beats.
various channelings with a healing intent.
Some of my favourites are the arcturian frequencies.
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=arcturian+frequencies&a...
there are also dedicated chakra meditations.
and some channelings to help cheer you up.
god knows they've helped me in my darkest hours.
Kryon.
My favourite.
let me know if there is anything more I can do help.
Take care.
God speed your healing.
Dear Feather!
Thank you for helping me! Really nice to meet you!
I like psytrance too! Unfortunately the partys in the netherlands are all in Amsterdam or somewhere near there, and is a little far for me to travel. But i go when i can! Thank god for internet and my home, so i can dance here as well.
I will try the Apple Cider, have to check if the bioshop is somewhere near!
(thank you for your advice not to take the one in the supermarket!)
I tried the oracle, the first one didnt do a lot for me, but i tried it again and i could find a connection, nice pictures there as well, thank you!
Thank you for your advise, all the people here helping me to get healthy again, it means a lot!
I hope i can return the favor some time in the future!
x Renee
Your seizures could be related to over medicating
Yeah, ive thought so too when i was younger, but i had a lot of seizures in the beginning (when i didnt had any meds) so i have to disagree.
I do think it maybe got worse because of the meds, unfortunately there is no way to prove this point.
Im really glad that i don't take them anymore, i couldnt even hang out with my friends or family because of the fact i sat there as a zombie, not responding or interacting with anybody.
So yeah, i was over medicated, but i dont think the seizures came from there.
Thank you for thinking with me for a solution, it means a lot!
With love,
Renee
Hi Reneetje,
Naturalcures.com try this website for some great detoxes! One step at a time for your body and even if you just play relaxation music and just focus on wiping out the head chatter, you will be okay..Reiki is a great natural energy healing tool anyone can use on themselves which may help you release bit by bit.
Cheers
Suzexx
Hi Suze,
Thank you for your advice! I already checked on the site and it looks good!
So i deff going to try some!
Thank you so much,
with love,
Renee
Hi, reneetje, thank you for sharing :)
I'm sorry to hear you've had a difficult time of it. I, too, have been on medication since I was fifteen years old (for depression). It's only been in the last few weeks, after having my dosage cut drastically, that I've felt more in tune with who I am and what my purpose is. Yes, I wonder whether all those pills over the years were more of a hindrance than a help - but it doesn't matter any more. I'm awake and alive now in a way I don't think I've ever been before. And from the sounds of it, so are you, which is excellent!
I think (I may be wrong) that the only things capable of "blocking" us our ourselves; my advice would be to relax. Remind yourself that you did the best you could with the cards you were dealt. If I am right (a big risk, there), in two days time you won't need to worry about feeling the energy in the way you once did - we're all due an upgrade anyway :)
I'm sad to hear that you feel lost and sad (believe me, I know how it feels), but rest assured: you are not, nor have you ever been, "broken". You're doing just fine. Trust me.
Everything's going to be alright :) x
Thank you for your kind words!
Its nice to hear similar stories, although i feel really bad for you that you have to go through all that! Ive been heavily drugged for 8 years. Meds for sleeping, for depression, for epilepsy, for staying awake, for spasms, and muscle relaxers. All those combined every day.
I do think it has blocked me for 8 years, but i also do think that right now im blocking myself. So i agree and disagree at your point, haha.
I have trouble finding peace within myself, relaxing and being patient. I think that the fact that i once could is making it harder for me, because i want it back soooo bad.
Maybe thats the lesson i have to learn. Being patient.
I hope your right about the upgrade. I really think im ready, or at least starting to!
I just want to feel the connection again, to feel the love again and to feel myself again.
Because now it feels like i am in a room with a lot of windows. Im alone in the room, but i can see people through the windows connecting with each other. I just have to find the door to get out.
Thank you again for your reply, im sorry to hear what youve been through, but i think is so nice of you to share this with me :)
With love,
Renee
Hi Renee....
Read through your post carefully....
The seizures you were having in your early ages was dew to transition in your consciousness and your body being not strong enough could not withstand the pressure or say energy at your physical level.... At mental level you could digest it but physical level was a bit issue.....
Relax ... Everything will be alright.
The blocking you feel is nothing but the effect of drugs or medication you have been taking for so long time ... give it some time to get to your natural regeneration process to over come it .....
In the mean time if you want to feel I would personally suggest you for detoxification methods ( I have tried ionic Detoxification at home... not very costly and easily available materials). But please do not exceed the time limits suggested for due to that I had faced drowsiness for 2 - 4 days.
Rest everything will be fine .... After detoxification do some meditation it will help you a lot ....
Well if anything else let us know ... here we all are there to help you .....
Let Love, Light and Divinity fill us ALL ...............................
For your reference:
http://www.ehow.com/how_7566774_make-ionic-detox-bath.html
http://www.wikihow.com/Test-a-Detox-Foot-Bath
Note: there are many site claiming it as Hoax... but Who have actually tried it knows the truth ....
I suggest to try it at least twice that is once in one week and see the difference yourself ...
Thank you so much for your reply!
2 years ago a woman came to me and said the same things about my seizures. That my body couldnt take all the influences anymore and started to "crash" which resulted in seizures. It made a lot of sense and ive been playing with the thought ever since. I think that was the main reason why i stopped taking the drugs.
The doctors searched for 10 years to find out wat was wrong with me, and they just let it of as having epilepsy. But the tricky part is, they never found the source. When you have epilepsy, in most cases you have scartissue in your brains, or they see weird brainactivity popping up on scans.
In my case, i have a lot of brainactivity, but they never find the scartissue of the source. So in my case the epilepsy is called: Criptical Epilepsy which in my opinion is just a name label for : You have seizures which looks like epilepsy, and were to lazy or to lost to see what the real problem is.
So yeah, your comment makes a lot of sense because you are not the first one saying this to me, and also because i feel this is true. Im really glad you gave me the links for detox! I really want to try it out, or read more about it!
If you ever come across something else which can be of help to me, i hope you will think of me and let me know!
Thank you for your comment again!
With love,
Renee
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