Hey Guys,
I wanted to share a story from my heart. Almost a year ago I quit my job because I was being influenced by a person who I didn't want to associate with. I started hearing voices in my head and I couldn't figure out who it was. Things were telling me to commit suicide and that I was an Elohim who mated and was obsessed with material matter. I'm not sure that part was him but I did hear that. Almost like I was talking to myself asking who or what got was. Each time I get that he was "love" and I so know that is true. I try so hard each day and I know that I will make it if I keep trying. Almost like I gave my personal power away for so long to this person. I've experience things like body transformation and many unheard of things to me at least and could not handle what I was experiencing on top of the bad influence.
I guess I'll I'm asking here for are some genuine prayers. This is what I need and I do want help from masters. For so long I've been receiving guidance from Dr. Joshua David Stone and he's taught me a lot. Knows all my flaws even that it's sometimes so hard to forgive this person for what he did to me. I know I'm not totally innocent in the situation and I'm told that I'm a better person than how I was being treating I just couldn't let it go.
I've been literally dead in the mirror, stuck at home fro months at a time, brought back to life and such. It's like this one thing I can't get over. He was very successful and like I had a piece of his soul and used ti to mimic what he was doing. At first I was told that I should stay positive and allow him to like me. I try to do that at times but there is still some karma there and I only want purity. I've tried romantic relationships that worked pretty well to help me forget but every time I get around certain people I end up thinking I'm better and well that's how the game goes.
I realize it's a life long battle, and I'm aware of how many false teachers there are. It's been my deepest heart's desire with no selfishness at all to teach this stuff to people. I'm into ascension but I'm told I need to enjoy earth life as well. For the past two nights I've had very few hours of sleep but I've had help from the masters so I wouldn't go to sleep.
I'm even told that I could live an other 40 years if I wanted, and have an earth life. I really want this! Sometimes I want to cry but I know it damages me when I do. To the point where I can't think and that's where the guilt comes from. I can't do this anymore!
I just want to forget about this person and make some friends here I can relate to. I met a girl she's very pretty but I don't know if she's such a good influence on me and he holds all this stuff against me. It's like my life - my breath and so are the people in my life.
This person knows what he is doing and has tried to send me to prison many times. He constantly tells me "I'm taking you home" time over again and it's so ridiculous. I know it's the negative ego and I just wish I could let go.
I've moved back home with my family from where I was in Cary, NC. I'm so serious about what I've written here I would be willing to give the person's name so everyone can pray for him and me. I asked him once if he believed in God and he said that he did but was not religious and completely used my life energy whenever he needed to business it was tearing me apart I walked out about 5 times.
I'm told that he would like to keep me working there forever and I know that I have more potential than what the job entailed and the people who worked there.
It's really tough out there sometimes and I just would like some prayers from everyone.
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Dear CentralSun,
Welcome, you are amongst friends and we all mean the very best for you. Regardless of where you came from you are here now. That makes you (for the time being) human with human foibles. Foremost, forgive yourself for that. We may have memories of what the greater part of us is/was but that is not what is manifest right here, right now. You need some practical steps to help right away. I humbly offer these greatly oversimplified steps which eventually helped me through a similar trauma.
1. Remove yourself from the influence so you can gain some perspective. You are too close to the pain to see clearly.
2. Recognise you are still a piece of God, what ever has happened. You are an immortal having a human experience.
3. As a piece of God, whatever you have created in your life is perfection. Your Higher Self (God piece) thinks you have a lesson to learn from this person. The intensity of your pain is an indication of the greatness of the lesson.
4. Accept you created this pain - the person causing it is immaterial. If it wasn't them agreeing to help you, it would have been someone else. You alone are the creator of your world.
5. Find the lesson by searching your heart. How are you like this person? What exactly did they do that you don't like. He is your mirror for learning this lesson. Accept your responsibility in this.
6. Forgive yourself for having this facet to your being - accept it needs to be removed. Love yourself for the imperfect experience you are having. I found inner child work very helpful.
7. Bless those who taught you this lesson. They have suffered too, bringing this to you. What a wonderful gift! How they must truly love you at a soul level to accept the risk of increasing their karma to teach you this.
I truly hope you will find you way through the pain and return your focus to Love. Remeber all is Love, it is just our perspective that may require adjustment. I will pray for you CentralSun, as requested. Blessings and Love,
CentralSun ~ If someone is using your life to do anything against your will, you have to also look at yourself, because you are the master of your reality - and if something is happening, then obviously you are supposed to learn something from it.
I have found through many experiences, that you can't just blame the other person, you have to ask yourself why you allowed these things to happen, and what you are supposed to take away from it as an experience. These types of experiences can empower you if you allow them to, it just depends on you really...
With my limited understanding of what's happening here - that's my best advice.
You can make great changes in your life, it's really up to what you decide to do.
Consult your higher self - and you will be guided. :-)
CentralSun first it is gunna be ok and you are not alone in what you are going through there are many people on here that have had experiences with psychic attacks........I was psychically attacked last November before thanksgiving when I sent a text message to this individual to resolve something. I felt like I was in a pressure cooker, low grade hot vibrational energy was everywhere I felt hot prickly tingles on my forehead, and not only that I could read their mind, which to read someone's mind when they are angry at you is horrible....It can be challenging and tough in many ways, but also in the same respect I have learned so much from this situation and have gone to local healers to help me clear the energy and that has been so beneficial to me and my growth and protection. I have also learned a great deal about energy and how to protect myself. If you feed a situation or meet a situation with anger then the situation will become angry...It is the law of attraction....Last night I was in bed and I was going to sleep and I could feel someone working on me it felt like there was someone (kinda like fairy dust) with their fingers on my forehead, and then I closed my eyes and felt golden protection and safe. Seek a healer.....With some people it is best to cut off all ties from the individual if they prove to be unhealthy, and dragging you down.......
http://www.shininglite.com/Uriel.htm#Releasing%20Guilt%20&%20Fo...
I found this website and thought it was a good exercise....
love and light to you, tentinyturtles
greetings CentralSun,
explore the energies of 5th dimension in whatever ways you can... Introduce the energies of joy, love, freedom, compassion to become prominent in your field. These energies will bring more of that to you... It will take you away from blame, shame and all fear based emotions... You are not the emotional being you believe you are at this time. You, the being of light, the master of your own reality has the ability to make choices that help you ascend. Ask yourself = is this thing, person or situation an ascending quality - or a descending one - then make your choice.... Stand in the power of you - the Central Sun. We are here in support of your light.
Solene
sending you Love and Light as a fellow lightworker to give you strenght
Andy,
What you said here is what I need. I'm pretty high on ascension but lacking a bit in consciousness development, and I need to forgive this person. I attack him in my mind. Sometimes I can't stop doing it because of what he did to me. I've spent hours for days meditating and no food. Even at this moment I just took a cold shower / hot and I am learning maya and illusion a little better. My thoughts manifest now so quickly that I'm having a hard time comprehending it. I need light and life, and fellow lightworkers around me. It's something I've never had really so much.
A lot of disorders are from not only negative energy but negative entities including dis incarnated spirits. Find a good hands on healer and have your aura cleared and chakras balanced. Try this immediately. Vocalize out loud a few times -I command all negative energies, entities, to leave my aura and dwelling-say this over and over silently.
Wow amazing. I just done your vocalize and i felt a energy spike within raise up
Namate
Jason
I have done the vocalizing of clearing energeries and disconnecting cords and immediatly have felt better. The key is to do something, if you are indoors, go outside and connect with nature, and get crystals and see a healer, and call on A.A Micheal