it,s been this long since I got mad, since I screamed at anyone but this I couldn't just stand idle and smile.I had enough and my nerves are tested to the max.

It's my partners ex~husband who just hangs around here, acts as if he still is was married to her and even goes as far as cleaning our house while we are not around. Not that our house is messy but he just comes and cleans it. Reorganizes everything around house as if everything was out of order and not to his liking. Always complains about the world and does in in extremely negative way, bitches about his old lady and does it in disrespectful ways. Never pays for using our phone, electricity and computer bills.

All this happens without my partners intervention for 4 yrs now as if it was ok for him to come here and do it. She , by all means allows him all that and never is able to talk to him or even give him a simple lecture about mechanics of being former partners and me around now.

For yrs we have had bat problems around here and often enough they use our chimney to enter the house which opening I had protected with wire mesh so they stop doing it. So guess what ! he took it down.

2 bats flew into the house last night and gave us a wake up call buzzing above our heads. Me, I can live with them but my partner as many women are gets freaked out by their close presence. In all commotion I accidently had hurt one of them while we were trying to force them throu our big glass door.

As a animal lover I took it hard hurting this creature and turned my anger towards this fellow. I really feel sorry that I yelled at him and my partner but feel like I have drawn that last straw about this situation.

More sorry I am that I got to leave this house run by mad ex husband but I don't know what to do and for sure I did not spend last 13 yrs learning to love my self, love others around and to finally realize that I wasted all these yrs if I can get mad and close to violent again.

I had many trying trials in my past , when I solved my problems with anger and violence but I do not want to get there again . I worked so hard on my issues that I felt as if I made some miracles in my life and now I feel all this wasted.

I noticed lately a lot of folks acting strange, and making irrational decisions and I understand why considering all this cleansing happening on this planet but until yesterday I thought I was the only one around whose is capable to stay come and wise about entire situation around the world.

Maybe its good to take one step back , I don't know. I just want divorce and get the fuck out of this crazy relantionship.

I had to write something and get it off my chest.

thank you for your time reading this.