Hi all,My story is beyond anything I ever heard of before.I was born a foster child and i think everybody knows all the abuse and neglect that can entail.I was very athletic and above average intelligence and GOD was beat into me.At 15 I was considered the wildest boy you ever seen.Sports got me by.At 15 i started to have premonitions that came true.I started to hear humming noise that scared me bad and not much did.Science calls this sleep paralysis but I have had that too and this was different.I was too awake for that.Then I read a bit.The book spoke of the humming and the fear so i knew they knew.They said I must get past the fear to bring back knowledge lost for centuries.I was caught reading bible in school as I was looking for clues.She happened to be from very religious family.She took me home to meet her parents.They took me to their pastor.We all prayed as he said I had been called!Called to what i asked but his answer I did noty understand.Drinking and drugging started when I lost my temper and kicked out of school.Shortly after I took my G.E.D. and joined the U.S.A.F. which back then you could do with only a ged.Well in there the humming got so intense I was so scared to sleep I would pray hard and have to hold a tiny giddeons bible that I could not understand much but brought me comfort.At 17 i again lost my temper and was let go out of the air force honorably due to my age.I was broke and no work in 1981 that a 17 year old could find.I thought I would simply be a firefighter like in air force but iwas too young.By the time I was old enough I got in scrapes with the law.End of my firefighting career.So i was broke and had found a bit of a job but did not know if i could survive until pay day.I was so hungry my pants fell off without a belt.I laid down and remembered what the book said about the fear so not having much to lose I thought why not just let go this time and see what happens whenthe humming noise started.I was thinking totally awake lying down what it be like to walk in the store as a ghost and just help myself without being noticed.Then it happened..ythe humming so I let go.This time I lifted up and out of my body floating offbalance around the ceiling.I felt very happy at 1st as to see I was a spirit after all.BUT then I felt i must have died and I freaked out!My body was taken control of by invisable tractor beam of sirts.It righted me and pulled me as if by a vaccuum back over my body where i fell back to my body.I was paralized briefly then I sat up amezed but almost in shock.Well,thsi all went on many years.I learned to meditate.I was good at it I guess.I saw the inner sun I have heard it called many times.I searched for others.I searched everywhere and in all the books I could find.I talked to prists rabbis and ministers.Then finally I asked the computer"what does it mean to see the sun in meditation"Ot took me to Psalms 19-4."Their utterances I have spread to all corners of the earth and in them put a tabernacle for the sun"Then I see this site!Here I saw somebody talk just today about the spiritual inner sun!!And I do believe you all will see this little miracle I grown used to seeing in my life.The name of the man who made the post name is TERENCE LEE!! My name is TERENCE LEE!! Terence lee campbell actually but never the less I do belive you see the little miracle here?I know I finally have found the next step in my journey.I hope I have not taken to much space but I think you can see the reason for my excitement.Lets find him this TERENCE LEE shall we? LOLI am very excited to be here,sincerely,Terence Lee Campbell(tlcisme)
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I'm sorry to hear about your having been through the Foster Home business. I actually see the religious people around you as a much greater threat than the system in some ways. Sounds like you've been able to survive quite a bit. I suspect that our politicians and other "leaders" know that we're capable of much more than we're aware of. They must make us lower and less capable than they are to maintain their "chosen" status. The really essential and important people, well, who are they?
Hi SuperDave,The foster care system has come a long way I am sure.I have seen ugly things that others were unaware.But that was then and I survived that too yes,thank you.I think the ones you speak of are harder to find for sure.It has been my experience that which I need usually comes and sometimes in some very unusual ways.Maybe we all really important people and essential people?It takes the convict as well as the President to make this place work.I think it serves the purpose for which it was created.I am of the opinion that if we can master what this world has to teach and through diligent seeking we shall find the ones to lead and teach.Always more to learn it seems.More to teach.After, that must be heaven? Yes?
Hi Feather,I am happy you enjoyed my story.Heard to explain much in condensed version but you seem to understand just fine.Thank you, I seem to be progressing in the right direction,,Terry
Hi feather,I have read where jesus said he was the way.I have read "The Way of St.Francis" and I have read "The Way of Zen".I have read of many "ways" but not one were able to explain to me much of what was shown in this little video.I can hardly explain the effect of this on me now.I will have to let it sink in a bit and meditate.I will say this.Only certain people will see and feel what I do I am sure.I had much more written but I can't yet put into words what I felt about this video.It is good..yes I like that.Thank you very much Feather.I will go the the wayseermanifesto.com and I have a feeling I will learn much more.Seems there is somebody out there with some very deep knowledge for what I seek and there is an incurable urge to know more in me.This video had a profound affect on me and I just wonder how many feel what I feel?Hard to share that I guess but thank you again Feather.If I can figure out the friend request button on here again I will make request as would like to know more of you and talk a bit.Than you again, peace and love..Terry (tlcisme)
well I am back.It seems I came to find an answer for myself but may have supplied an answer to somebody else.SO, ,y search comtinues.Has anybody seen this inner sun I speak of?In meditaion ie appears as the rugular sun only the 1st thought that came to my mind was this sun does not require sunglasses.I have seen this picture of the sun shing through the trees used by many places Books,websites and movies.I have asked many of the makers of these why they show this sun but their answer is not what I was expecting.It is usually just because it fit theirneed or they simply liked it.It has gone on this way for 33 years.Was hoping I had finally found another but my search not over.I have learned much in my search but only have a guess to the meaning of the inner sun.,mayve somebody could help me?Thank you ,sincerely,Teremce Lee Campbell
Hi tlcisme, I posted an experience in spiritual blogs where I saw that my heart was a sun. When I laughed, the laughter formed a lovely little mandala pattern. I'm not sure if that's what youre talking about... it only happened once but I liked it a lot. love Moanna xx
Hi Moanna,yes that is .What I have seen appears just like the regular sun but fl
Hello Sri,I hope you are looking forward to a great new year.Have you seen this sun we been speaking of?You have seen my story ,the readers digest version, can you tell me if there is a reason?I just stumble on such things?I have read that GOD creates us to look for him.Is there anything you can say to give me more insight?Any divine purposes involved you think?What is the divine will?What am i supposed to be doing?Any ideas?For that is something else I have seen.I once saw my dead foster mother and dead grandma and they seemed to be at top of some stairs and was like in a cellar.they squint to see me looking down towrd me and then they come down the stairs without walking.they come toward me and I was happy until they got close and they look at me and then away in digust it seemed.I felt like scolded child.then like a light switch on from another room and it illuminated the area I was in.I did not see anybody.BUT,out of the light a voice said "your not doing what your supposed to be doing" well i was feeling very sad.and it disappeared.I was just meditating and not asleep.Any ideas you could share?I am open to all explanations,sincerely,Terence Lee Campbell(TLCISME)