Family!!

 I am sure that by now, many more of you are experiencing the various physical and visual "happenings" as we near the "Event." Here is my most recent (10-29th) occurance. While sitting in my usual sacred space and thinking about how much of a change has been made in myself since 1987, I began to softly smile in admiration of my progress, despite the harsh and "uncanny" things that have occured.  I just happened to look down at my hands and think of all the things they have done through the years and  just as I was beginning to thank them for their service, I experienced what I can only describe as a "temporary disconnect' of some sort. It was like I shifted out to the right side of my body and was watching my physical body begin to short circuit, kind of like when you throw water on a robot and it begins doing very weird movements and things. I must admit, it DID frighten me and wondered if I was actually about to fall apart at the seems like the "wet robot" does when he finishes melting down. It did not hurt nor did I feel anything but the immeadiate emotion of fear mainly because I was at home alone and didn't have anyone to call to for help, should I find that I did indeed, need it!

 Once the "happening" subsided, I sat perfectly still, not knowing if it was going to continue and become stronger or if that was it. Then, for some strange reason, I wanted to cry. Not from fear but from the fact that at that moment, I was made very aware of something so profound that I can't ascribe a word to explain or describe it. And maybe that's a good thing because it was more than a feeling. It was like something MUCH bigger than me had just made it's presence known to me and made me aware that "I" am NOT what and who I think/thought I was. Apparently, there is a part of and in me that wanted me to realize that there is more to me than meets the eye. For that brief moment, all of the issues I've had, both past and present, that I felt have "minimized and suppressed" me, were nothing more than just that... "issues," ALL of which I miraculously came through victoriously. It also allowed me to see the real "Life" that I have been missing and making many mistakes to find yet not exactly sure that I would find or be able to recognize it. As far as I know, it could have been trying to show me my new life after this one.