First of all. I would like to take a moment and apologize to anyone I have ever offended by including them in my illusory beliefs when saying things like "everyone on this site is bla bla bla". Eventually I would figure this out, that the way I see things when I am awake and engaged in day to day life, is only my unconscious mind interpreting the way it wants, just to feed the ego in me the best possible way. Its so easy to feel better when blaming everyone for their ignorance and stupidity. One feels smarter. Which is a great illusion...
But eventually I would figure out that I too am doing what I am blaming everyone else for, not just on this site but in my life also. I am being ignorant. I shift many times a day, like a schizo between the ego and the more conscious side of me. It is such an amazing and bizarre thing. I wish to write this as consciously as I can, with absolutly no walls. I really want to get this out there, but at the same time I wonder why? I cant help but to think that some part of me just wants attention.
So even by trying to write this consciously, will it still not be by the ego? By the time this is finished, I will have read through it several times and added and removed and edited, it will not be spontaneous, nor consciously, it cant be, it wil be by the ego. By ego I mean the mind, the voice in my head, the images, that inside me which attracts and invites me to believe that my thoughts on anything has to be real and a fact, what so ever it may be. I feel the only way to overcome this is to either act spontaneously or totaly disengage when generally engaged in day to day living. Or, do transcendental meditation where one only observes; the breath, the buzzing in the body, the waves in the body, the itching, the pain, what ever, than eventually one goes into a place of no thought, pure stillness and a subtle joy of that stillness. Just a twitch will get you out of it, but its that one moment..When it is only the witness.
I lust for that place...I have realized that it is the purest state, the witness state, It relieves you from any illusory belief. For a moment, one is totaly free from all illusion of the mind, and that moment is truest of the true, it is how it is, under and beneath all those layers upon layers of thoughts and voices and images, just pure silence and emptyness. And everytime I accidentally stumble across it, absolutely unexpectedly, I manage to bring some awareness back with me to the individual I am experiencing to be, so much that eventually I can write something like this and understand that I am at all times contradicting myself, wether I want it or not. When writing like this, the only thing that is real is that I am writing...other than that, nothing I speak about is real for you or me at this very moment. It is just my memories and experiences, there is nothing real or true about that...
I've come to figure that what I believed 6 months ago, I dont believe today and what I didn't believe 6 months ago, I believe today. It is still just beliefs and illusory, but I didnt't start in the 9th heaven, we all started in a hospital, on the chaotic (but amazing and beautiful) planet Earth. I started as a seed in the soil, in darkness, constantly looking for that crack of light, once I found it, I grew towards it and out of the soil, I think it will be the same for all who goes from dark to light.We eventually become a flower. But in that growing, there will be phases and many, many, many contradictions...One thing we all can agree upon, is that everything...is changing..always...flowing towards the next...Will it be eternal?
Does it matter? If yes than why? If no, than why? Questions bring more questions, which brings more questions...in the end, the mind has grown bigger and stronger...and that one place of freedom within you, is buried more and more beneath the layers of questions, lies, illusions, thoughts and the minds interpretations. I wish to go with the flow..I wish to lose myself in the flow, I wish to lose sense of myself, only that makes me free..
The mind is born into a society of secrecy, uncompletion and idiocy. What so ever it goes on to interpret will be fail, because it did not grow in a healthy, stabil/neutral enviroment, it was never nurtured the right way...It was born into momma says this, pappa says that, friend says this, news says that...before any of us had consciousness, our minds were polluted and corrupted. Therefor what so ever the mind goes on with, cannot be right, it cannot be truth or anything near truth. I cannot change my mind, what ever it tells me is only illusory, temporary and weak..I cannot trust it, I can choose not to trust my mind..isn't that just wow?...For all I know reality can be something else other than what the collective minds of humans have interpreted so far...what do I know?
It just makes it that much more important for me to spend all my mind and body energy into giving birth to exactley what I want to experience while being in this life, instead of following anyone else...All discussions, questions and opinions become uninteresting...it does not matter. Its insanly hard to keep going everyday when knowing that its just a matrix..Maybe the whole point was to experience the matrix, sure/fine enough, but..damn....What a dream this is...the more I feel this, the more I get in a state of awe, so much that I become annoying to those around me that dont see life the same way as me, because of my disengagement to them and sometimes my fury/anger towards them because of their "not intelligent" way of life : P.
Maybe someone out there is going through the same, I dont know. It doesn't matter to me, just the way this dont matter to you. But something in me felt the need to share this...So I did.
I would end this by saying nothing is more important than good humor, goodwill and imagination...but why would it be in that case? Maybe thats not the case for you? Do you get my drift? What ever we go on to do, it will be contradiction towards our so called "spiritual ways of being", unless we totally disengage from them and transcend into a no thought state through meditation..
There is only one way..within that one way, there is unlimited ways...But there is only ONE way..
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Life is full on contradictions. Mind is full of thoughts, they lead this way and that. I am convinced that only our Heart can lead us back Home. It alone knows what's best. The mind is to easily misguided by the ego which doesn't really know the truth, but only claims to. When the ego leads us to a wall, it finds some one for us to blame, or it will even lead us to blame ourselves. Only the Heart loves us unconditionally, and is willing to forgive the misunderstanding in our self and our Brothers and Sisters.
That Heart comes from our Creator, only it knows the way to lasting Peace, and Home. The mind with the ego as the decision maker leads us on a endless journey of contradiction. What path seems right today, will seem wrong tomorrow. Never will the ego admit it doesn't know the way. It just leads us on a path that will also lead to a dead end. It leads us on paths that only lead to dissatisfaction, and more dissatisfaction. We keep hoping that it will lead us to a final state of peace, but it cannot because it's full of contradiction. But only the Heart knows but it can't show us, as long as we are still willing to follow our ego.
Namaste, Brother Hopi.
the ego is sneaky, noisy, and easily influenced by unseen entities-how many people can afford to live in the woods and meditate all day and achieve mastery of the ego? I've been to ashrams and there's click fights and nonsense -one group I met were very serious and small-but they had the means so as not to work-it ain't easy
Agreed,,,,, this moment in its self alone is perfect. 5 million years ago,, this moment then -- perfect. and 200 years in the future this moment shall be perfect in its moment alone. All of nature knows this - the mind runs from the moment, the spoken word slam's the door shut. Hold fast to the eternal moment in which all the cosmos is with out end.
"the spoken word slam's the door shut."
Thats it...
Hopi, it was good to receive an apology from you, as yes, like several others here I have found you to be most obtuse on occasion...BUT, having said that, well, each human being incarnated must express thoughts and feelings, no matter....And we must each learn enough self confidence not to be phased....Indeed, water off a duck's back, as it were.... ;-)
To experience duality is indeed often the "battle" going on between the Soul's lifeplan and the stubborn persona, who may seeks alternative and less altruistic experiences....Thus the anger some feel....hehe...!! No need to apologise, it is inevitable for many....
I must confess to preferring to define the soul impulses as "egoic" and the personalities impulses, as "persona....." That is the Latin, you see...Many fail to use it correctly, but in truth, and in contradiction to the established norms of conventional psychiatry, which does not recognise a soul, the personality, aka, PERSONA, means "mask." Most apt really, when we compare the two levels of energies....As the Latin EGO, literally translates to mean, "I am...." Of course, the I Am Presence....Well, you might see my intent and meaning here, simply to clarity such words and bring back a balance in understanding the collective truisms........
Now again, my inclusion of that world; "collective," in itself leads me on to my next valid point......My point being, that my point is a collective point, as at some level of our beingness, we are actually part of a collective and not individual...Of course, I'm still ME and happily so....I beam on myself with delight I LOVE myself for being me, but I/me is part of something much bigger and much, much greater than even the human logical mind can fathom....It is inter-dimensional in scope...beyond time and space....That I am and YOU are part of a greater whole.....Now that is not something to worry about.....You get to like it, eventually....I did...;-)....But truly, friend......Some of my ideas, my thoughts, originate outside of ME....and likewise...you may have an idea or thought, which at some stage, you may assume to be your very own, YET, may actually be a thought from the collective mental plane of thoughts and ideas....and of course, these are indestructible, as science knows, energy can never be destroyed, only transformed....So true....so known. Or we may receive a thought sent telepathically, from a friend.....It does happen, yet most are not aware of it, consciously....However, that does happen at some stage...Thence, the process becomes the norm...
Well, please ponder what I said and truly, truly believe me....It is not said to inculcate attention and fame...I said it, because I like to share it....It is a milestone in each life to realise it....to work consciously with it....It was for me and for any other reading and eventually knowing it......Thankyou for reading my words....They were intended in good faith.... :-)
Drekx Omega
Sure man :)
... ;)) Then why try to pursue what is completed?
It takes time to fully realize that it is already a completed circel. I have just been "awake" for 5-6 years out of my total 24 years on earth. Slowly, slowly everything gets dropped...:) You are right, why pursue something that is completed? But how do I know it is actually completed? How do I know?
oh …. another concept that I have grown up with - we call it Triad - Reason – Conscious – Mind … ;))
The "grain of spirit" is embedded in each person that interacts through the conscious with the reason. The reason does not directly interact with the mind, everything happens again through the consciousness. Figuratively we can say that our conscious is a translator between the reason and the mind.
Consciousness - is the energy without the concept of volume, but with the quality of energy-material, information passing through it.
The mind identifies the received information with the based on material information/experience. Which usually leads to– ultimate knowledge as in forming stereotypes – another word ‘illusions’ . Awareness of ‘something’ is immersed from within … sending signals and letting know the ‘growth of consciousness’. That is the depth and nature of the ‘knowing’ that comes through conscious – it is an experience of spiritual growth. We perceive the world through – volume, mass, plane. Mind doesn’t inspires, the proses of awareness comes from inner illumination, allowing clearly see ‘cause and effect’. This living knowledge may not be carrying practical value, but expands the range of perception of life, events, expands the scope of man’s inner life.
Knowledge of the mind or core, is to adapt to matter, conditions, environment and the laws of this world. Knowledge of Conscious or core, is to absorbs the first one, growing around it, eventually exceeding in its volume. Human life in primary conscious (thoughts, ideas, dreams,) with regard to the manifestation of the mind. If the individual doesn’t understands his actions, lacking initial analysis, self-control – that individual lives and acts based on instincts – unconsciously, which only involves – mortal mind.
What it means is the process of transferring knowledge takes place only through the sphere of consciousness, through it we can see the extent of accumulated spiritual growth, the level of morality, the state of one spiritual being, the overall capacity to manifest the spiritual and moral life of man. Its accumulation confer the ability to transfer that information that will be used in life bringing both practical and spiritual benefits.
Those who exist within the mind, knowledge will be ‘hidden and behind the veil’ as mind will always try to split the whole, distort and apply its ‘program accordingly’ to fit in ‘ in its illusionary environment’ ... ;))
The mortal mind and the reason mind... I see...The reason mind is that which can choose to not agree with the mortal-mind? Basically the higher self kind of thing? But where is the reason mind (body) located out of time and space??
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