So I guess it's been a while since I've frequented this place, but I've learned some things since then. If you had to break down darkness and light into polar opposites, they go infinitely in their respective directions, and are codependent to define each other, but going too far in either way pulls me from where I want to be. I can't go scrambling for some kind of rapture or ascendance at the end of my life. There are so many belief structures for what happens to a person after they die, and you're going on faith. I can only have faith in myself, and what I know: I have a vague understanding of what goes on outside of my conscious universe.
Today, I was watching my dog play with a frisbee. She's really smart, and could probably come up with some kind of tool if only she had opposable thumbs, but she doesn't have opposable thumbs, so there she is; doomed to live beneath her full mental potential (although she expresses no shortage of love. I've never loved a dog as much before!).
Here I am in a world of linear or maybe even cyclical time structures where the energy is compacted into matter, and has to adhere to to these laws of linear/cyclical time. In this world, everything needs to have a reason . . . like . . . "hey there's probably a reason I live in a world like this." I can't functionally comprehend a "place" I used to "live" in a higher plane of existence because my mind has been conditioned to understand things the way they occur here in this standard of physics. All of the words we use are based on the concept of our worlds physical continuity, and here we are trying to explain something that transcends this place with words. I think you'd have better luck with numbers. I never really knew what algebra was for until I tried to figure out how to explain the fourth and fifth dimensions. I find that sounds are good for explaining things beyond words, but I suppose there are some real wordsmiths out there that can do with words what others can do with sounds.
Emotions, I think that's what we're all getting at here. Can't explain that with numbers. I can do that with sounds. Intense sounds. Ever hear what Saturn sounds like? Creepy. I just heard a really weird animal outside a few minutes ago. It really freaked out some dogs in the neighborhood.
This sound makes me feel a lot of love and light:
Probably not for everybody, but I just wish you could understand how hearing that makes me feel! It's like I have life in me!
Life, it's this thing I'm doing out there and right here at the same time. My time here is like some little expression of what I'm doing out there, and so on . . .
This is gonna be a good life!
I usually love feeling like an alien no matter where I am.
Hahaha! Planets are where you go when you're doing time!
Love you guys!
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