Trying to Remember Who I am

Greetings everyone,It's been a long road for me when it comes down to finding my own path. At around age 15 I decided it was time to leave my catholic faith behind and look for my own way of understanding who I was and my role in the Universe as a spiritual being. I'm 27 now and won't bore you with the details, as most of it is listed in my profile information. But suffice it to say whenever I look up at the night sky I feel his deep longing to be "home" wherever that is.I feel this great light inside of me,that I can focus outward into a surrounding area, and also one I can emanate out from my right palm. Another symptom I feel is the wing like appendages up near the shoulder blades. Those,however only really manifest when I'm focusing my inner Light. I suppose I'm just looking to track down my origins and discover my identity...and also a bit of confirmation so I know I'm not crazy.I don't feel right to label myself as anything that would put me within a box, but at the same time I'd really like to know..kind of a catch 22. It's frustrating at times to read all these books about Humanity and their evolution,when I don't feel human at all. I'm not saying that I'm special because of that..I just don't fit in. Most of the people I come across can't seem to look to the bigger picture, and are too busy with mortal concerns(money,job,biggest house, nicest car, etc) when none of that matters to me. The only real drive I've ever had was to be of service to others, in whatever capacity I could. Sometimes that drive makes it difficult to survive in this earthly realm.But I've rambled enough...so any help would be appreciated.Namaste.

You need to be a member of Ashtar Command - Spiritual Community to add comments!

Join Ashtar Command - Spiritual Community

Email me when people reply –

Replies

  • I share your same situation my friend, your story here almost fits mine perfectly (, apart from the age lol).
    Before following the path of my heart I followed the Bhudist philosophy, which has now became difficult as most of my matter how much people convince me that our spiritual family and cosmic history is a trap by satan or something like that, I just laugh and smile because I know in my heart it is not true at all. Likewise I really have a desire to return home, which I am sure is not earth, but one thing I feel is that I used to work for something in the field of technology spiritually family here are also Catholic. But I will never be bound by any religion as it feels like a spiritual prison for me, and no (Galactic Federation? Ashtar Command?), which probably adds for my interest in science here and of course, technology, but modern and high-tech. But whether I am human or not, is still to be remembered, there is the possibility I am a Feline-human, or maybe even a Reptilian (I'll bet everyone looks at my eyes now lol) but a lightworker all the same. Money almost means nothing to me now, the only thing it means for me is how we unfortunately need it to 'live' here to purchase food, clothing, drink, housing, entertainment, luxuries, etc. Our future is together as ONE, yes! Don't let secret cabal workers online or on Television decieve you, Youtube is hoachin with them lol, but i shall post a discussion about that later today or tomorrow ;). You are doing a great job here and all is going as it is, keep up the good work, and if you need help, there are many here willing to offer help, guidance and advice, Hey, I heard there was a help centre group somewhere here ;), or just check out the enclosed instruction book hehe!

    Find LOVE and JOY in the darkest of areas, as it is our key...

    Namaste ~*

    Oen - Kalashil - of the seven sisters~*
  • I feel you on this about 14/15 I started noticing things different than what I was taught, now 27, trying not to be too concerned about it, really we can only trust what we know and feel in the moment and that is the best!
  • Remembering who one is can be an interesting process. There is so much to it at moments, it seems... while others are an 'a ha' moment. Various places (planets, locations, dimensions) one has been, various things (the list is long) one has done... that locating a point of origin is a bit funny (hehe).

    Peace and Love. Namaste.
    • I should think that locating the point of origin would be quite easy as everything originated from First source within the void.

      Namaste
This reply was deleted.

Topics by Tags

Monthly Archives

Latest Activity

Drekx Omega left a comment on Music for your soul.
"Quincy Jones / The Deadly Affair - Main Theme [ver.2]🛸🎵🎶✨✨🌎✨✨✨💜🩶💛✨✨✨👏🏻😎

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=508KjbSfc9U&list=PLyw5JONFDXk8M..."
54 minutes ago
AlternateEarth left a comment on Comment Wall
"Yep -they are lunatics."
55 minutes ago
Malcolm commented on Malcolm's blog post BASIC & URANIAN ASTROLOGY ANALYSIS: the horoscope of 'Ancient Aliens' host David Wilcock (1973 - 2026). Time of death is looked at, as well as the Uranian Astrology formula for "one's own death."
"One person who talked with Wilcock a few years back believed Wilcock may have been in rehab, possibly for drugs. He mentioned that he had a problem with "co-dependency" (depending on what or who you are co-dependent with)."
3 hours ago
Drekx Omega left a comment on Comment Wall
"The shooter was a self-declared; "he/they...??" WTF.....These people are SICK....!!"
3 hours ago
AlternateEarth left a comment on Comment Wall
"The shooter listed himself on instagram as 'he/'they'-teacher of the year LA County"
4 hours ago
David posted a blog post
                                                                                       VI                                                    THE REPRESENTATIONS OF THE MINDIt is necessary to deeply understand all the processes of the Mind, all the…
5 hours ago
AlternateEarth left a comment on Comment Wall
"Is he brave -I thought he would end his campaign for his family's sake after Butler be he is determined to end the deep state-huge task, but he's awakened a lot of people-millions"
5 hours ago
Drekx Omega commented on Malcolm's blog post BASIC & URANIAN ASTROLOGY ANALYSIS: the horoscope of 'Ancient Aliens' host David Wilcock (1973 - 2026). Time of death is looked at, as well as the Uranian Astrology formula for "one's own death."
"Thanks Malcolm......And I will add that the depression and anxiety David suffered, was specifically explained in a pre-suicide note, in his own hand, as follows:

David Wilcock Statement - The Truth behind 04/20/26.....David's friend, Jude, whom he…"
5 hours ago
More…

DIDACTICS OF SELF-KNOWLEDGE-CHAPTER VI-PART ONE


                                                                                       VI

                                                    THE REPRESENTATIONS OF THE MIND

It is necessary to deeply understand all the processes of…

Read more…
Views: 6
Comments: 0

Photo above from Divine Cosmos / YouTube. A conclusion is at the end for the uninitiated. David Wilcock was a host and panel member of the 'Ancient Aliens' documentary television series. He was also a History Channel…

Read more…