Trying to Remember Who I am

Greetings everyone,It's been a long road for me when it comes down to finding my own path. At around age 15 I decided it was time to leave my catholic faith behind and look for my own way of understanding who I was and my role in the Universe as a spiritual being. I'm 27 now and won't bore you with the details, as most of it is listed in my profile information. But suffice it to say whenever I look up at the night sky I feel his deep longing to be "home" wherever that is.I feel this great light inside of me,that I can focus outward into a surrounding area, and also one I can emanate out from my right palm. Another symptom I feel is the wing like appendages up near the shoulder blades. Those,however only really manifest when I'm focusing my inner Light. I suppose I'm just looking to track down my origins and discover my identity...and also a bit of confirmation so I know I'm not crazy.I don't feel right to label myself as anything that would put me within a box, but at the same time I'd really like to know..kind of a catch 22. It's frustrating at times to read all these books about Humanity and their evolution,when I don't feel human at all. I'm not saying that I'm special because of that..I just don't fit in. Most of the people I come across can't seem to look to the bigger picture, and are too busy with mortal concerns(money,job,biggest house, nicest car, etc) when none of that matters to me. The only real drive I've ever had was to be of service to others, in whatever capacity I could. Sometimes that drive makes it difficult to survive in this earthly realm.But I've rambled enough...so any help would be appreciated.Namaste.

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  • I share your same situation my friend, your story here almost fits mine perfectly (, apart from the age lol).
    Before following the path of my heart I followed the Bhudist philosophy, which has now became difficult as most of my matter how much people convince me that our spiritual family and cosmic history is a trap by satan or something like that, I just laugh and smile because I know in my heart it is not true at all. Likewise I really have a desire to return home, which I am sure is not earth, but one thing I feel is that I used to work for something in the field of technology spiritually family here are also Catholic. But I will never be bound by any religion as it feels like a spiritual prison for me, and no (Galactic Federation? Ashtar Command?), which probably adds for my interest in science here and of course, technology, but modern and high-tech. But whether I am human or not, is still to be remembered, there is the possibility I am a Feline-human, or maybe even a Reptilian (I'll bet everyone looks at my eyes now lol) but a lightworker all the same. Money almost means nothing to me now, the only thing it means for me is how we unfortunately need it to 'live' here to purchase food, clothing, drink, housing, entertainment, luxuries, etc. Our future is together as ONE, yes! Don't let secret cabal workers online or on Television decieve you, Youtube is hoachin with them lol, but i shall post a discussion about that later today or tomorrow ;). You are doing a great job here and all is going as it is, keep up the good work, and if you need help, there are many here willing to offer help, guidance and advice, Hey, I heard there was a help centre group somewhere here ;), or just check out the enclosed instruction book hehe!

    Find LOVE and JOY in the darkest of areas, as it is our key...

    Namaste ~*

    Oen - Kalashil - of the seven sisters~*
  • I feel you on this about 14/15 I started noticing things different than what I was taught, now 27, trying not to be too concerned about it, really we can only trust what we know and feel in the moment and that is the best!
  • Remembering who one is can be an interesting process. There is so much to it at moments, it seems... while others are an 'a ha' moment. Various places (planets, locations, dimensions) one has been, various things (the list is long) one has done... that locating a point of origin is a bit funny (hehe).

    Peace and Love. Namaste.
    • I should think that locating the point of origin would be quite easy as everything originated from First source within the void.

      Namaste
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