Thank you in advance for your kind words, advice and SHARING your experiences! ( Sharing is caring) :)
You all are so wonderful and give the best advice and send the most uplifting energy.
Ok...so I have "heard" on this site that many of us feel psychically 'attacked' or what not. I feel the same. Recently, I have been operating with my heart center more than my brain. Really, really, really working at it. But when I do try to operate this way, I get this sense that someone/something is trying to 'invade' my thoughts. I can feel this energy coming through my crown chakra, sometimes my third eye, and 'it' is installing doubt. It starts as one little miniscule doubt and it snowballs into full-blown i-hate-myself-and-this-world-ness. That's TOTALLY not me! And I have to work so hard to snap out of it. I have tried loving this entity, that usually works, but it is almost like this 'thing' puts a cork in my heart center so I can't open it. It's frustrating and I want it to stop. This has been going on for at least 2 weeks. I haven't done anything different really besides open my heart more and more. But it's become a seriously strenuous game of tug-of-war.
Secondly, I have had some interesting instances where I remember who I am--but I went through a long phase of choosing not to believe this--and then I started re-remembering a whole bunch of dreams during waking consciousness. (just concentrate on the lower-back portion of your skull) And the other night, all of these dreams kind of 'came together'. Where I saw something that I never saw the first time I was dreaming these dreams. I saw my dreams replay--mutlpile unrelated dreams--but now I saw that there was some creepy ghostly-pale androgynous entity whsipering in people's ears in my dream, getting people to trust in it, and then getting them to do things they wouldn't normally do. It was so vivid...like I was seeing the behind the scene footage in my dreams. And it was like someone was clueing me in on something. Is this who is messing with me? Has anyone had a similar experience?
Thirdly, I know now is the time for many of us to live a life that is more in-tune with our consciousness and with how we want the world to be. My husband and I have recently decided to change our lives completely, but are struggling to figure out how to live self-sufficiently whilst paying debt, health care, etc. I know, I know, you have to take a leap of faith, but we are expecting baby #2 in late Aug/early September, so I feel like there is little room for things to go south if you know what I mean. For those of you doing it now, how in the world did you make your dreams a reality!? I really, really would love to hear your long drawn out stories and journeys. I promise, I will read them because I love you. :)
Thank you for listening, any guidance or en unison moaning and groaning is encouraged. Have a blessed day and weekend
~*somesayimnot*~
(live everyday like it's Saturday, your birthday, and your favorite holiday all rolled in one!)
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SomeSay, to be honest with you, and I'm being really blunt about this, the only person on here lately that I have heard talking about what you have been talking about, with wanting to use the heart more then the mind, has been John Jancar.
I don't think that Greg has anything to do with this, but really becareful SomeSay, if you want to go to some of my postings about the Lone Wolf Path, and some of the other postings on here, where Jancar talks about how using the mind isn't the way to be, and using the heart is the way to operate on things more, then I can share some of the links
Really keep on talking with your Guides on this Somesay, and no I don't feel that Greg is the issue at all
Bless the Nite,
April
I would like to see more links if ya don't mind. I am in a research and read mood. I don't know where it came from, I just feel a need to stop using my brain as a mode of knowing so much. I am a social scientist (sociologist) and so I am so entrenched in the scientific method and logic that I forget to use my heart for discernment. I was talking to my guides, and I had a sense that I was being told to open my heart, and to practice this breathing/meditattion mantra "calm and loving"..where I pictured my heart beat which was a calming blue color, and purple ray of light intermingling with it. It was purdy :) Now that I am trying to communicate with my guides more and listening to my heart, I "see" things in pictures rather than words.
I had felt a nudge to make sure you are intouch with your Higher Guides.
Something feels really off about this, but I'm not getting involved, because it isn't something I should be doing right now, so in any sense I hope that you get intouch with your real Guides, and learn the truth of what is going on with you
I can't do this for you, but I'm keeping you in thoughts, and hoping you will see the light in all of this soon enough
It was nice chatting with you, and hope things go well for you
Bless the Nite,
April
hmmm.."real guides" how would I know them from the fake? And what makes you think I've been communicating with unreal guides? Just wondering. I think someone/something is 'warring' with my mind or something sometimes, so that might make sense. What makes you think I need to speak with them? What feels so "off" about what I said? Sorry, there were far too many statements in there that I need a little more help with understanding.
Sometimes Entities can cover up in being something really positive, and there are some Humans out there that can do things in the Astral Realms, like shape shifting and things like that, to make there presences known around a person. You want to becareful, because there are some people out there that have been practicing in things like Metaphysical uses, and sometimes they aren't using the Metaphysical use for positive energies, instead they are doing things in the Realms that are causing more harm then good to other people
I think you are intouch with your real Guides, but the communication with your Guides is getting messed up some, because there is something around you lately that isn't in the best interest for you, especially now that you are pregnant. Your Guides are the key to the answers you need, but you need to be more open in hearing what they have to tell you at times, and even if it isn't the popular thing to do, it is sometimes the right thing to do for you. This is why I can't really get involved here, because I would be setting myself up for a lot of trouble, but really just make sure that you are intouch more with your Guides, rather then letting something slip in by mistake
I really can't dig into this anymore, because there would be a whole heap of trouble coming in with it
Bless the Nite,
April
Congrats on the new addition! How wonderful for you, what a blessing. The entities remind me of a story that Edgar Cayce gave about his experience of meeting with off duty soldiers on the street who were very drunk and aggressive, he saw that one of them had an entity that entered him, and afterwards he was not the same... certain weaknesses of spirit can allow these things into you and you hear of some really horrific things humans have done and you wonder how they can even be human... but that is a dark place and I'd rather not go there. However you aren't that type of human, I believe you did the right thing and you are experiencing many of the same symptoms I have of awakening. What a ride, eh? I'm averaging a mood swing every hour, but with these solar flares I shouldn't be surprised :) Do you sense the energy of violence, too?
If you google the term "thoughtform" you will be forewarned of what to expect and how they operate, often these thought forms are human created subconsciously... like someone being in lust with you and you dream you are with them in a biblical way... well aleister crowley and the marquis de sade were said to brag about having any women they wanted... I know...ewwwww..... well, thoughts like that don't always die, they can jump from person to person feeding and increasing their anxiety or what have you... getting in through chinks in your aura.
There are protections you can do, such as the one Greg Giles describes, so awesome to always have someone who has your back, lol... as well I'm big on crystals so if you don't have any black tourmaline or volcanic glass, I would suggest some... well there are others as well, go for what your instincts tell you. You're doing awesome, they can't handle your Light:)
Thank you Kelly! Do you know that song of the new Florence + Machines album, "We are shiinnning, and we will never be afraid again." <--that's what I keep repeating to myself :D
Yes, I do sense "violent" energy once in a while just popping up out of nowhere. I've had some bad episodes where it lasted for a couple days, where I just couldn't shake it. (A lot of times it was sensed thorugh music or television...like the violent lyrics/characters really came to life--weird). But I am making slow progress in learning to maintain my distance from harmful energy, even my own. Now I feel like I am sane in an insane world, but not in that panicky kind of way...more in a detatched, observation-mode. Which is much nicer :)
someone was saying to me that the internet (being at the computer) is somewhat of a portal.....she said to put the flame of St. Germaine around the computer. I can sit at the computer and (for example) if someone is in london I can feel a person that feels English. I can feel people from these sites that I have not met. Also, people humanity is releasing a lot of garabage right now and mass conscensus shows horror movies unplug from them both. *be well*
I agree with the internet/websites being a portal. Sometimes when I log on here, I feel a a very calm energy...very serene.
@somesay
I don't know if you saw Greg's blog today http://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/profiles/blogs/message-from-the-ga... it sure fits and makes alot of sense.
Just ask them and they shall free you of the neg entity.
Love and Light
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