No, I consider myself not important in writing those lines. I have gone through AC for many hours leaving me with a feeling of - sadness.
I came to this forum after long ways of hardship. I am an ordained pastor and philosopher, and I used to teach philosophy in a college. I always felt like in heaven.
Two years ago I was involved in a heavy case of mobbing, and I still don`t know why. My blood presssure climed astronomical hights, and I was sent to a hospital. A year later I got a mighty stroke leaving me sick and depressive. I had to quit my job. I`m still in the process of rehabilitation. I had to move from my home and ended finally in another town a month before. I lost lots of money.
I`m very thankful that I have not died and my body functions still working fine. But the mobbing case is still biting my soul. I lost friends without knowing why. People avoided me. And when I moved to my new home one month ago I was aware that I again felt like a lost soul having been thrown on a spot on earth somewhere...
I tell that because I know that so many people out there feel the way I feel. I had the privilige of having had always a disciplined life style which helps me a lot. I used to read and write many hours a day. I structure my day in order not to fall in sadness. With God`s help I still go upright.
This is my backround, and this way I came to this forum. I ask you to sit a while and think. Many of you might be lonely as I feel recently. Many seek recognition which is a fine good and absolutely understandable.
Think about the fate which is behind every individual coming here, a virtual soul asylum. It is not like meeting with real people, but it is not bad at all.
Draco for instance said he thinks he will die in six month. I suffer from stroke consequences. Others might struggle with other stuff. Each one has to carry a burden.
This way we all come here. We have certain ways of perception and thinking. God has brought us here. Think for a while. You will see that each one has reasons to go his way. And it is a wonder in our times that many share their experiences. And every arrogance and prejudice and anger is at least - a waste of energy.
Maybe we live in the final days of the old system, if Drake and others are correct. You may believe in this or not. But you`ve got to finally remember that you are human, fragile and limited humans with almost twisted mind sets. Please aknowledge that you are almost nothing of importance. You may perform rituals and knowledge and distinguished whatever - ot makes you not more important and aknowledgable.
The truth is - we all live from the abundant grace of something exceeding all our imagination. We live because it is given to us abundantly. We live because we are loved. This is always bassline. (Ha, I now remember a crazy man from Germany having that crazy song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1qXovb8QZc)
I ask you to make this place - although a virtual one - a kind place. For this it is necessary to listen.
With this I fly into the night in Germany. It is warm, and the sky is clear.
I ask you to rely on your kind side of mind...
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i experience a strong sence of lonliness
( in the midst of a loving partner. loud loving teen quiet loving early twenty 4 boisterous dogs and two chatty cats etc)
i hope/thjink/beleive this feeling is like the last mud from the end of a flood oozing slowly off the lndscape.
cleaning the house required some bloood sweat and tears...not so bad i tell myself
loved
enjoy