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http://www.valeriecarlton.com/2011/02/

The false accusations, which have plagued my life over the past few years, are as bizarre as they are hateful. The insults I received while I was falsely imprisoned, quickly incubated the false accusations, until an utter monster was created. I became demonized, hunted and hated by thousands. I was assaulted, caged and confined, but why? Are we not believed to be innocent in America until we are “proven” to be guilty? Why was there no doubt of my innocence even before any trial?

Consider what went through the minds of thousands of Marylanders when they heard: “a serial child molester, who tried to kill her infant, and exhorted money from it’s father, and assaulted, kidnapped, lied, and manipulated neighborhoods and communities of honest citizens” was just apprehended. Think of the minutes, seconds, hours, or even days it took, before such allegations, festering  in the minds of those Marylanders who had heard and witnessed the media propaganda, began to loath and turn to hate. Indeed, HELL was created by those honest individuals, as quickly as it took for them to convince themselves that such horror was actually true. Realize, that deception is a conscience act and partnership, both by the deceiver, and by the individual who chooses to accept the lies. Therefore, we need to understand far better, the reality of deception, and the nature of such a relationship. IF you are currently being deceived, which you will not recognize by the nature of what deception is, then you are also presently having a relationship with a (or many) deceiver(s).  IN truth, the likelyhood that you are not being deceived by anyone, in anyway is very improble, again because of the very nature of deception and human nature which is driven by ego.

I have discussed “The Phoenix Process” in my blog on heartbreak. The Phoenix Process is a mind, body and soul transformation, which requires, and involves detaching from one’s own ego. Understand, that once ego is detached, deception has no way to establish, or retain, such a bi-partisan relationship. The old adage: “it takes two” no longer applies. When ego is removed, the person cares more about the outer whole than the inner self. At the point of  removing ego it is possible to thereby have more power and control over your life.

At a time in my life when my ego and character was under constant attack, I could have gotten angry and enabled the propaganda and deception to consume me. Rather, I was fortunate to realize the “nature of this beast” and not blame, or hold other’s ill responsible for choosing to be deceived. I chose to not allow them (the liars and acceptors) to hold any more ill affect and power over my life. By having stronger faith in God, in a higher power than myself, I was given the strength to keep me sane, and not allow hatred to consume me. I have come to know evil very intimately. My kabbalah studies have taught me that evil can be measured by the quantity of selfish intention. This concept does not necessarily involve hatred. However, we all see how hatred can evolve, how it projects and reacts through irrational anger and ego rooted emotions. Realize that hatred is conceived and develops through our consciousness from an initial seed of negative thought. I believe that it is appropriate for me to give an example.

  Those of you who are now following my blogs, or for others who are only now acquainting themselves with my site and story, you should be aware of my imprisonment. What you may not know is that I have always stood up for those who could not. I have lobbied for animal rights, volunteered at food and clothing pantries for the poor, and stuck my nose into places where I felt my strength and compassion was most needed. I state this fact now only to further emphasize the desperation and anger I felt when I became one who could no longer stand up for others, my children, nor even myself. The events which stormed into my life in 2009 came with such force and speed there was no time to predict or prepare. I knew my enemies existed. I knew that hatred was developing around me, but I never considered in my wildest nightmare that I would be falsely imprisoned, persecuted by thousands, physically and emotionally tortured, left for dead and even later hunted by state law enforcement. Even now, I struggle to make sense of how this can be.

Imagine that one day, a sunny Friday after work, you are handed a protective order by two local police officers which reads that you can no longer have any communication with your suffering child. In fact, if you try to even get a message through to your child you will be fined and arrested for contempt. Think, how would you react, how would you feel, what would be going through your mind? Now consider what came next. I gave birth to my son and within four days police and CPS workers stormed my home while I was nursing him in my bed. They interrogated me, harassed me with bizarre, horrific statements before they pulled him, crying, from my arms and left after taking some of his clothes and necessities without any court “search and seize” order. The search and seizure warrant came later. Days later, my 64 year old mother and I were woken up from a sound sleep by banging at the front door before it was broken down: the wood splitting, the door frame blown out, plaster from sheet rock exploding over my foyer floor. I must tell you that the scene was so horrific my Basset Hound hid and cried. The details would most likely physically ill affect you, so I will move over them for now.

Eventually, after the couple weeks which followed, I was hand cuffed and shackled in a courthouse in front of all of the people who had conspired to create this anguish out of ignorance and hate. There was no truth, or rational analysis involved in any of the legal or physical decision’s being made. Hatred against me had evolved to a delusional level of conviction in a cooperative frenzy of self-righteous, ego stemming indignation. Too many conclusions had already been made without proper facts, and even worse, lies had been constructed to fuel the orchestration of a literal witch hunt. This was pure hatred at its final stage of violent, physical form.

I was and remain innocent, and I remember, I will most likely never forget the many angry faces, the profane insults, the death threats, the spitting at me against the window of my prison cell door and the inhumane treatment as punishment for what other prisoners and prison staff convinced themselves that I deserved.

This is my example of hatred. Thousands wished me dead, they were convinced that I was a monster; they allowed the negative seeds to consume their thoughts, and be controlled by the plethora of lies and furious propaganda. The more energy invested in this hate campaign, the more the public at large became convinced that it must be true. This is the nature of deception; it is a physical process, constructed out of a cognitive state. We do not see angles flying by us in this world, nor must we avoid demons lurking with horns and pitch forks. Evil and goodness can only be physically created through our efforts. The cause and effect becomes our conscious choice. It is within our control to not allow hatred to exist, to keep evil at bay, and to promote and facilitate goodness in this world.

I believe that we need to better understand how our minds can be altered and manipulated so easily. I have witnessed deception infect the minds of some of the most intelligent, God trusting people. Educating ignorance is not what prevents hatred although it does make it harder for evil to deceive. What is needed in my opinion is to learn how to recognize negative thoughts and emotions BEFORE such cognitive seed has any time to grow. Consider any issue, any cause or convention where negative emotions are present and recall what I stated earlier in this blog: “that evil can be measured by the quantity of selfish intension”, and do not allow deception to distract you from knowing what is right and what will ultimately heal and produce happiness and other positive emotion no matter how difficult. All which is constructed by you in your world is applied by your choice. Be strong, challenge yourself to hear no evil, see no evil and try and hard as it can be to be happy.

With Love and Strength,

Valerie Carlton

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