Spiritual Forum

The stroke I had last year still gives me hard times once in a while. I`m often tired and need rest. And sometimes I come to the point I believe my mind is going away.

I follow international press review for three years now including many pages like jhaines6, nesaranews, shiftfrequency and a couple German speaking blogs.

While trying to hold up humor as much as possible and dealing with my mind affairs, I have come to acknowledge the obvious right before my eyes - we are not sailing in unknown waters, and all are only cooking with water.

One sneaky kind to destroy a person is making him believe he is unable to understand things of importance and his mental constitution is somehow fucked up following the track of life.

In unbelievable arraogance the bussiness of labeling people resulted in manyfold results - from putting harmless people into mental institutions till establishing ritualized institutions of telling other people how to live and what to do. Before I continue I`ll post a true piece by Laurie Anderson (wife of Loo Reed):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uIT5X46aJcY&feature=related

We are not sailing in unknown waters - the mess in minor scales is very much alike the mess in big scales. And so does all regarding betrayal, manipulation, conspiracy, hunger for power. The only difference is the scale, the range, the frame. The general structure is almost the same.

I got divorced 22 years ago, and my ex is still picking at me - it`s all about fucking money. I know of many persons experiencing similar shit. I tell this because it illustrates what slavery means in case you are somehow accountable in monetary regards.

And it illustrates the effects having on people. I got sued a couple times for allegedly not having payed enough money for child support, and each time the court could not file anything against me. Thus it was fairly unable for me building a kind relation to my ex, although we are both parents of two wonderful daughters.

The obvious before my eyes I acknowledged is the bloody normality of all that is happening, and it happens similar in small and big scales. Being aware of this, it makes it easier to encounter the big fishes.

Meanwhile I tend to withdraw myself from performing too extensive daily press review, because it`s not really news. It´s in fact the repetition of old patterns we all know - the emperor`s game with new clothes inclusively. Ego games. Rage, anger, insults, dogmatisms. And a lot of taking you not serious, but a news slave.

Actually I feel like sailing on waters I have always sailed. Some were silent, some did happen under rain, clouds and heavy storm, but most important I survived.

Are we sailors at least, travelers of many skies and weathers? Yes we are. And our mind is often telling us the old story in new clothes. It seems they are always trying to sell us real sex but train us performing sophisticated masturbation appearing most fulfilling. Fake fuckers at highest degree...

No, my mind is not going away. The little I have I hold together  and keep attention that no cold servant of fakery may steal it...

Finally a last piece of depth:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRxvaVhVN7A