........this question hopefully will be explored by our humble Ashtar members. I want personal info and believe as to whom and what to trust. So many conflicting opinions as to what next 15 months have in store for us.
Please, your opinions are important, articles and videos are welcome to the mix. Also, I would like to know what your intuition tells you, let it be a split of earth into 2 different dimentions as had been suggested in recent post here on Ashtar, or that everyone will be O.K. in coming days or is it really possible that many are about to be left behing ascension~!~
What is it according to your intuition~?~.....................
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it is dawn..9/11/11..I AM UNDER ATTACK!!!!...can barely write..on adrenaline..DARK FORCES EVERYWHERE IN MY SACRED SPACE...HAVE CANDLE LIT..PRAYING FOR ARCHANGEL MICHAEL..GABRIEL MY ‘GUARDIAN’ IN CHIEF ANGEL..ALMIGHTY GOD TO BRING A MIRACLE..NOW..FOR ALL BEINGS OF LIGHT..was born in 1935..know all ways a lightworker..now 76 soon 77..have never ‘fit’ in..only the rare few like me know my/our TRUTH..we came in full aware of MISSION..traversed through the dangerous ‘mine fields’..aware the DARK lie in wait to slip in..when I am most trusting..most vulnerable. I HAVE NO AGENDA..never know what i will say or do next..improvise..against all ODDS..stand firm..in TRUTH..... A CRYSTAL IS EMBEDDED IN MY LEFT EYE..gaze into sunlight..and emanations send forth signalling me..see..experience miracles..messages appear every single time i remain in focus..see/experience in powerful streaks of multi-luminescent ‘beyond’ rainbow..through tetrahedon prisms reaching through..touching every cell..I am visual artist..writer..poet..to recreate what i visualize..it is my only tool..gift from the ‘White Brotherhood’ Ancient transcended souls my companions..so difficult to explain here.. the DARK keeps me prisoner..blinding others who toss me off..as Demented..Insane old woman..to be ignored. when recognized as light being..that is when I AM BLOCKED..ATTACKED..
ESPECIALLY NOW..DURING PISCES ‘INFLUENCE’..TRIPLE PISCES..BORN SUN/PISCES..NEW MOON/PISCES..SATURN PISCES..GEMINI (MERCURY/COMMUNICATION)..RISING. others here eons more sentient than i..have more insights and wisdom..yet something about me is very, very, rare..mysteriously fathomless..deep. Some of the most notable..most powerful.. psychic..brilliant..world famous aware ones..tell me they know i am authentic..valid..yet still do not have self-esteem..no matterstill keep standing..WILL NOT SELL MY SOUL..if there isn’t SALVATION..or a JUST GOD..whether I trust or believe..here in this world..I am a frail..human..exhausted..beaten down..useless helpless.
FAITH..KEEP TO TAKING RESPONSIBILITY..TRY AS BEST I CAN..CREATING..RECREATING..WHAT I HAVE LEARNED TO IMPROVE..BE IN FORGIVENESS..REACH OUT..SHARE..use knowledge of any healing ability i
possess..if nothing else to be kind..compassionate..even towards those who are still unaware..mean-spirited..angry..venting their frustration..giving in to temptations at any cost..to save themselves..
If I AM CREATING THIS KIND OF REALITY..I STAND GUILTY..DESERVE TO REAP THAT WHICH MY THOUGHT HAS SOWN.. THERE IS IN MY BELIEF A TOXIC..INVISIBLE SUBSTANCE THE ‘DARK’ USES TO CONTAMINATE the masses..and they don’t have a clue this is what may be at the ‘root’ of why we still suffer..remain victims..feel
hopeless..no matter how much we put INTENTIONS FOR GOOD..to keep EVOLVING FORWARD TO OUR INHERENT
RIGHTFUL JOURNEY TO HARMONY/JOY,,GOD GIVEN HEAVENLY HOME..FROM WHENCE WE CAME..WHY WE WERE CREATED~ THAT IS WHY I JOINED THIS GROUP..one of the last possible sites..available. HOPING I CAN KEEP WHATEVER LIGHT I HAVE..TO KEEP GLOWING..YET STILL HAVING DARKNESS DUMPING..COVERING IT OVER..USING ‘SATANIC’ POWER TO DIMINISH~ FEEL I HAVE FAILED...GONE INTO DUST..ABOUT TO FADE DISAPPEAR..NON-EXISTENT~ NEGATIVE NOW..HELL YES~ SORRY..TRULY BROKEN AND SORRY I’VE LET MYSELF SO OPEN TO ATTACK..CRUCIFIED~no longer making sense..babbling..going unconscious now~
I AM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW..I AM FEELING NEGATIVE..ANGRY..DESPERATELY LONELY..AND FOR WHAT..SHOWING LOVE, TRUST, FAITH, COMPASSION, FORGIVENESS..NO MATTER HOW I HAVE BEEN ABUSED AND DECEIVED. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL..LIE TO MYSELF..SAY OH..LA LA LA..IT NEVER HAPPENED..I CREATED IT ANYWAY..IT’S ALL MY FAULT!
I DID NOT CAUSE THE ABUSE & SUFFERING..I WAS A VICTIM..AND ON TOP OF ALL THAT..NOT ALLOWED TO SCREAM OR CRY OUT IN PAIN. THAT WOULD NOT BE A BEING OF LIGHT. I THINK YOU SHOULD ALL THROW ME OUT OF THIS WEBSITE..I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH..NOR DO I DESERVE TO BE HERE~
NEVER MIND..I CAN JUST SWALLOW A BUNCH OF PILLS AND ‘OFF’ MYSELF..AND GO TO HELL FOR COMMITTING SUICIDE..LIKE I’M NOT THERE ALREADY ANYWAY????????
becouse we are masters of our own reality, manifestation of our thoughts, words and actions, I would suggest serious egzamination of your reality.
Yes, I agree with Ann and HappyKelly~come down and try to relax , life is not that bad, it can't be that bad if we were engulfed in compassion, kindness and full Love but again bad things happen only to those who are not in such high energy, that much we know. So, lets put aside excuses, blame, negativity and dark thoughts , and have a moment to reflect on this.
So, what do we suggest~?~........prayers ( and I mean real time in prayer and not just words without action ; and I am not suggesting anything here just advice ), meditation, volunteered work in some positive activity, long walks away from closed confines of walls of a home(many often times such places might have the feeling of a closed space like a prison~cell for example), gardening, swims in natural water like a lake( I know of one in close aproximity to middletown and hidden valley) or a creek which are all around you in Lake Co, breathing practices to calm down, Also suggesting fresh, organic fruits and vegetables to help with depression or sadness as it kind of sounds like here, which are best remedy for such,.......................and what else~?.....no more coffee, alcohol or ciggarets if that's the case..............maybe even some sort of positive meeting with other folks who are struggling with such down time. I know there' is plenty of those meeting all over Lake Co. if I may suggest...................
any suggestions folks, to help Joyanna~?~
ps@Joyanna
I hope you are not gonna go into spin of fear becouse I mention Lake Co, or clearlake or hidden valley or something. I checked your personal page and you wrote middletown. Well, my page say so, so we are neighbors .
Something else came to my mind ; how about some real practice of visualization of loving energy, like contemplating and looking upon a picture of Love
......and it just came to my mind that you are within just few mere miles from Harbin Hot Springs which offers vast array of help and positive activities, a massage, spring pools for relaxation, Any A. meetings, yoga classes, drum circles, meditations and beautiful landscape with it's nice garden in the middle, to gaze upon and engulf self in beauty( a positive and kind energy to experience )..................
There are ways to improve your life and get rid of this dark and negative reality you seem to be experiencing..................
Love self first and loving others will become a norm.........................
good post .....
~..........every dimension gets pushed up an octave but...quote and my correction~.....not all entities have to go.....wouldn't be nice if we could stop worrying about others, correct personal issues, help others correct their issues and we all do have to go the same way.............................now that sounds good.
"..............my intuition tells me to patient and see what plays out..."...............kind of like I feel.
also I agree that dark hats had made it a bit difficult when making decissions come to play but then out intuitions kick~in.
The anger part , you mention is something many go through yet from experience and by reading our friends post that is not just exclusive for few.I think this is what we all feel at times, especially lately when our patience is tested on many levels.
I would like to see as many as possible to go through this process, even those we call evil or dark 'couse I feel that they deserve compassion and help adjusting their behaviour and energy. Recently there were few posts about Lucifer having been helped and corrected towards the light and me think that we all could have this kind of help regardless of our actions. There's nothing better than having someone on higher levels of counsciousness help us correct some mistakes and back~wards believes.
So trusting universe is most likely the best choice we have at this time.
thanks MOL for your imput here and one more thing ; I read your posts and have to say that I enjoy them .