I am at my wits ends with channeling the emotions of some people. I can feel my throat chakra pinching in pain as I have not been able to speak my truth in the group. I called for support but nothing was returned, as I was being used. I can feel them and their thoughts, and at one point I could feel one woman's negativity crawling up my leg. My significant other is not listening to me and I feel trapped. When I look at the kids I become enraged, which is less and less. Mind you these are people who belong to a group that is suppose to have integrity, but what they have are huge egos. The more energy (emotions/thoughts/pictures) I channel, the more enraged I become til I am in tears. As it feels like it is ripping my aura. A couple of people live down the street from me and I ignore them, but I cannot have there energy bugging me anymore. The energetics of this have been devastating. I told my significant other that I wanted to move, but they just don't listen. I feel like this is effecting my health, my self esteem.....I have done lots of work around this.....
Small example of what I have been dealing with:
"She blames the whole world for her problems."
"Don't blame me if you got used."
"I am going to hold her down and force her to fuck me."
"She is a hot piece of ass."
"Don't blame me if something happened to the kids."
"I am not obligated, it is not my problem."
"What does she think we will come and rescue her."
"Oh, that poor girl."
"What does she think this is a charity."
"She's not a mother. She does not know what it is like to have children. to hold children."
"I am not responsible for those kids."
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no life is not all about me
you don't have to feel sorry for the people around me
i can seek support or get help for something if i so choose
that is what this starseed website is for
you are not alone, concerning superior people wanting that fact upon you. or people who should understand, and seem to won't. or whatever.. any person who is too superior to say hello for instance: honest people do not do this. they are troubled. there is no such thing as an honest person who shuns a person, knowing actually, that person doesn't even know why. .strangers down the street. ........upsets, only lead to forgiveness. that is all that is occurring.
.............jealousy. relatives, fwends, who are jealous and won't admit it, are troubled within. only people who stay together, will talk, even argue, to clear the air. ...can't change people; but help set them up to think right. ego does tend towards arrogance. belief in truth is belief in god, i only say, cuz truth rules, [and artists, who do things, deserve a hug, not why he isn't really an artist. artists get the shaft because people defend their unsupportive upon the idea that they have the right to an opinion; but they don't; because all art can be improved on. [the Mona Lisa was worked on for 25 years.] just tell the significant, time to grow up and row love. .I THINK IT WAS LAST THURSDAY, IN MY REGION, SOMETHING WAS CAUSING IN THE nueroNET, FEELING OF IRRITATIONS. IT WAS ABNORMAL. AND IT WAS OUTSIDE OF OURSELVES. WANT TO WARN, THIS OCCURRED. IT MAY EVEN BE, THIS. it really is the truth that sets us free emotionally.
thank you conscious pi.....today i am channeling a bit of the energy, but i just have to stay neutral and focus on my life and myself as lots of wonderful things are happening with the family......I am just going to have to swallow my need to be right about how horrible they are and forgive, but I will not let myself be used, disrespected or abused by these people at all.
The mona lisa was worked on for 25 years.......that is wonderful to hear and how inspiring....
your awesome feather. yes i do deserve peace especially after everything i have been through......yes i could stay in a yurt in mongolia :) i was thinking about peru since i have had dreams where i am going down there. check out to see what tribes and what kind of shamans they have there
thank you. you are totally right in this feather. i know once i forgive and release then the energy connection is gone........i say forgiveness when i am doing the centering meditation. when i notice myself thinking i say forgiveness and return to my center....i was thinking about me and if I cannot be happy in the present moment in the here and now what is moving going to do to change that? I have gone to the woods and taken these people with me in my attempts to escape.....i am going to do my morning practice....
My solution is alowing me some time alone to recharge so i can handle other people better.
that is exactly what i need to do
thank you i will pass along the flower information.....agoraphobia is a huge problem and she has had it for 11 or 12 years. i don't know what to do about it. honestly i don't. all kinds of therapies, healers, counseling, medications, but still the same. maybe she needs to see a real shaman like the kind the parents of that austic kid was taken to in horse boy.....i believe mongolian shamans??? maybe i should book a flight to mongolia or something.....
thank you feather!!
yes yes I am still loaded with triggers around this......as i have never been treated with such disrespect and I think they are cowards. but i am going to have to forgive them.....part of me does want to move from this house and fly away, but (sorry i feel whiney) my significant other has agoraphobia and is very very limited so it feels like i am also trapped as well. but i cannot blame them or the agoraphobia as i don't have the money to travel. I don't want to feel like my house is a prison anymore where I have to channel the energy of a group of dramatic overreactive older woman.......
I was thinking about this last night in bed because i have been researching shamans and they when they are being chosen almost have to step into the shaman role and start practicing shamanism to keep the suffering and the sickness away........the practice becomes the cure. maybe there are other things that I need to take up and start practicing as well. i was thinking that might be for myself as well. that i have to take something up and practice it, and was thinking about shamanism, but i don't want to culturally appropriate something that isn't mine especially native american shamanism.
and you are also 100% right about clearing the triggers and staying centered in the hara line....thank you for listening to me vent....... the house and the devastating energy of those women have/are my biggest problems (but was feeling released completely yesterday) which is what i have wanted. any advice is greatly welcomed. i have my book on forgiveness and my shaman books (about shamans) which i will read today......
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