What's this? =/

Is that possible that i'm trying to ascend, and grow in spirituality so my lower self is trying to hold me back to not let me ascend? i don't know if this is what u meant Chris. I really want to ascend, but sometimes i feel so confused because don't know where to start and what to do because there's a lot of different informations out there. I am using visualization and ascension activation songs and dna activation songs. I feel so alone, i feel that i don't belong in here, in this family, and this life, i'm already 21yrs old and don't have a life, i don't have any desire to work, study or grow in this physical world. And i feel that i am here to help but i became satanist when i was 13yrs old and i think this separated me from my true self and destiny.
I was so negative and dark. After my mother's death i found about God and now here i am.
I feel lost, and i want to ascend but because of my past i feel that i can't ascend or reconnect to my true self alone.
I need help, =/

Cleyton,
We all have a pace by which we move...in our understanding and then we have a pace at which we can integrate that understanding... This is not a race, this is a journey and you are allowed to stop and smell the flowers and enjoy the view...:)....
'Conversations with God', a book which I read after a burn-out and then afterwards deciding to "break off my ties with God"..:)...which helped me on the way...
How do you climb Mount Everest?...a step at a time...:)!
I have had similar experiences...keep at it steadfastly and remember to find things that make you happy and bring you joy; that is very important too...sit often outside under wise trees among nature by yourself and just watch and look, it is healing and grounding!It always helps me.

This might sound very strange but I don't mean to make fun, in fact I am quite serious... Do you ever watch THE DOG WHISPERER? Much to be learned from him!!! He always says that dogs don't live in the past, they live in the NOW. He asks the owners to check their own energies frequently to become ..calm,assertive energy..and to be here NOW... he has an amazing way of teaching people....:)..:)..
Let the past go, you are not that person now! You have changed! You are reaching for the Light! God is on your side, you are not alone, ever! Ask your guardian angel to help you hear him/her better. This is not a race this is about intent and the journey to the light...you are never to late!!
Stop sometimes and check your progress, don't compare yourself to others, you will find many subtle changes have taken place, different ways to look at some things, a little calmer maybe, better in some responses...keep at it and celebrate that you are unique child of God and that you are loved!... and if you are unsure of things ask your higher self to show you different ways so you can understand...

It is important that you ask for protection every morning before you start your day and before you go to bed.

Sending you Love and Light!

Marion

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Cleyton July 13, 2009 at 9:24pm

thanks so much for all yout answers... I'll follow everything =) peace and love for all...
☼Petar▲Truthseeker July 12, 2009 at 8:45pm

I've feel like this too, the last month, sad and depressed for almost no reason. It's karmic cleansing, it will pass...
And yeah, it the lower-selfs' job to pull ypou down, and it pulls even harder when you are doing your best to ascend, so just keep on going without fear and everything will be great.
- Cleyton > ☼Petar▲Truthseeker July 13, 2009 at 2:31am
  
  yes, i really want to ascend... i hope it's karma cleansing, so i don't need to come here again lol i don't belong in here, i do want to help the human race but fully knowing everything in the backstage. I didn't fit here at all, i feel lost and i'm always looking at the stars praying to go back home =/ i want to be useful but i am not that free in this world because of its laws. I'm 21yrs but depending from my parents, they are christians, if i say anything about i'm reading here, they are going to say that i am worshiping the devil =( i can't count on them. And i don't know what to do, i really don't feel nothing for this world, it;s like i already lost my life in here so now the only thing i can do is kill myself and do again. I hope someday i can ascend fully and complete my mission here on Earth.
Cleyton July 12, 2009 at 8:31pm

Is that possible that i'm trying to ascend, and grow in spirituality so my lower self is trying to hold me back to not let me ascend? i don't know if this is what u meant Chris. I really want to ascend, but sometimes i feel so confused because don't know where to start and what to do because there's a lot of different informations out there. I am using visualization and ascension activation songs and dna activation songs. I feel so alone, i feel that i don't belong in here, in this family, and this life, i'm already 21yrs old and don't have a life, i don't have any desire to work, study or grow in this physical world. And i feel that i am here to help but i became satanist when i was 13yrs old and i think this separated me from my true self and destiny.
I was so negative and dark. After my mother's death i found about God and now here i am.
I feel lost, and i want to ascend but because of my past i feel that i can't ascend or reconnect to my true self alone.
I need help, =/
- Marion > Cleyton July 12, 2009 at 9:16pm
  
  Cleyton,
  We all have a pace by which we move...in our understanding and then we have a pace at which we can integrate that understanding... This is not a race, this is a journey and you are allowed to stop and smell the flowers and enjoy the view...:)....
  'Conversations with God', a book which I read after a burn-out and then afterwards deciding to "break off my ties with God"..:)...which helped me on the way...
  How do you climb Mount Everest?...a step at a time...:)!
  I have had similar experiences...keep at it steadfastly and remember to find things that make you happy and bring you joy; that is very important too...sit often outside under wise trees among nature by yourself and just watch and look, it is healing and grounding!It always helps me.
  
  This might sound very strange but I don't mean to make fun, in fact I am quite serious... Do you ever watch THE DOG WHISPERER? Much to be learned from him!!! He always says that dogs don't live in the past, they live in the NOW. He asks the owners to check their own energies frequently to become ..calm,assertive energy..and to be here NOW... he has an amazing way of teaching people....:)..:)..
  Let the past go, you are not that person now! You have changed! You are reaching for the Light! God is on your side, you are not alone, ever! Ask your guardian angel to help you hear him/her better. This is not a race this is about intent and the journey to the light...you are never to late!!
  Stop sometimes and check your progress, don't compare yourself to others, you will find many subtle changes have taken place, different ways to look at some things, a little calmer maybe, better in some responses...keep at it and celebrate that you are unique child of God and that you are loved!... and if you are unsure of things ask your higher self to show you different ways so you can understand...
  
  It is important that you ask for protection every morning before you start your day and before you go to bed.
  
  Sending you Love and Light!
  
  Marion
Lion of Sirius A July 12, 2009 at 7:55pm

don't believe in the fears that you create.
you don't need to think negative, don't give the negative any attention, let it pass and it will diminish.
after some time you'll stop seeing negative scenarios if you don't have the wish to see them.
fear is not creating solutions, so understand within that you are creating the scenarios with your own imagination/creativity.
Cleyton July 11, 2009 at 7:32pm

i had been doing meditation for few months, but i stopped and now started again, using visualization tools and Law of attraction. I'm trying to get total positive to achieve better life but this thing happened to me. I also desire to grow in spirituallity, i had been reading about Dna Activation, i posted a topic asking about it as u can see. So what u say is this can be a vision? i may be seeing things in other dimension and can occur in our dimension in the future? I know that i have a lot of negative energies that i have to release. I was satanist, i lost my mother, and lover. So after that i started reading and i am waking up. I'm glad that i found about Ashtar Command and the Galactic Federation of Light. But i have a lot to do and change. xD is there any more suggestions?
- Cleyton > Cleyton July 12, 2009 at 7:52pm
  
  Thanks, i just sent my informations for u... and thanks for everyone who answered this topic. I am really happy knowing that i have brothers and sisters in light that i can count. Thanks again =)
Marion July 11, 2009 at 5:41pm

I agree with both posts above! Maybe its is a parallel reality? Still whatever it is, it is important that you do not let this derail your attempts to stay in the Light.

Blessings to you!

Marion