This is part dream, part reality.
Last night in my garden I had accessed another memory after I had an automatic writing experience and drew a symbol involuntarily on the shower screen which supposedly means rain / relaxation. I remember seeing that symbol written down on some kind of script whilst talking to a woman who was in a sort of military uniform. I found the script hanging on my wall in my house. I was sitting underneath it when all these road trains and helicopters/ plains started roaring around the house (road trains scream down the winding street past our place) giving me a heart attack as I was trying to focus on being in the garden but all this noise was causing my instinct to make me want to get up and run outside the house.
I was trying to calm down afterwards and analyze all my paranormal experiences I had a as a kid. I figured there may have been something I've learnt recently that could explain all of them. Then it hit me. One of the earliest dreams I remember ever having (which I remember perfectly) had me running all over the town from these men in black, two federal agents chasing a 7 year old girl. They were fast, and no matter where I hid or ran they were always on my back. Eventually they chased me down an alley. I got to a dead end but I jumped up and flew away. The men stood there and cursed. They looked exactly like the MIB stereotype, black suits, black sunglasses and all.
Why on earth would a 7 year old be dreaming about MIB chasing them all over town? I didn't even know anything about them or aliens or spirituality. When I was around 7/ 8 is when I started having all these crazy experiences and I'm very convinced at least two of them were astral or something. One was when I was taken underground and briefed on a desperate situation to do with a colony of fairies who's home was being destroyed. When I was teleported to their location I had a 20 year old body instead of an 8 year old's.
There was another.. but it's far too out there to tell. But I have a good feeling I know what the deal was behind it now. There were many other instances through out my life were dangerous situations had just *happened* to come about. Lightning strikes, gas leaks in the house, electrocution, near drowning etc. Someone had been in my house when everyone was out and set up the house so that it was full of gas. I couldn't even recognize the smell of it when I came home despite the fact that it's a very distinct smell, and nearly blew myself up along with the house, plus many other situations.
Then factor in the constant helicopters etc. After the MIB dream realization in my garden, I felt my "vision" being hijacked. I was standing in front of a T.V screen that was flickering on and off. A strip of blue and orange strip appeared in the top right hand corner as the TV flicked through the static. The words then appeared on the screen "WE'RE WATCHING YOU". I feel like for the first time in my life I feel scared of "them". Before I just laughed the idea off as they seemed like harmless morons, but I was being more than a little naive.
I'm almost beginning to wonder if "they" are responsible for my fear of planes and helicopters. Especially considering the military base memory that my parents conveniently don't remember. The silver dragon ring guy was there and was trying to tell me that no one was going to kill me but I'm not so sure now. I can't believe it took me 20 fucking years to figure it out, how fucking slow do I have to be? The evidence was right there the whole damn time.
Then I went and had a crazy yet fitting dream, which I'll have to make short. At one point I was standing in some foreign place looking at a setting sun. Some guy (silver dragon ring guy?) was standing on my right commenting how it was a beautiful sunset and I agreed. Then I was speaking to Anush in the dream and she was trying to tell me about this creature who was flying off in the sunset and how stupid humans were not to see it. It was either a large mythical bird or dragon, not sure and I think it was carrying an injured friend to get medical attention but on the way it was trying to show itself to humans to prove that it existed but when the humans saw it they just said "Well we don't know what it is so it's obviously nothing" despite the fact that they were seeing this giant black mythical creature flying around the sun.
Yeah, I'd agree. Idiots. Through out the rest of the dream I was a field agent for the CIA and I was trying to work on uncovering a conspiracy. I had finally worked my way high up enough in the ranks to gain top secret clearance to sensitive documents and I was charged with protecting them, as they contained all the UFO evidence, ever. Someone was trying to destroy it all to prevent it coming out into the public domain. Through out the whole thing someone had been trying to kill me, but was failing miserably. Luck just happened to be on my side for the most of it until at one point I had survived another assassination attempt and alerted my body guards.
They rushed to check the area but they couldn't find anyone. I noticed something move out of the corner of my eye, and saw the hitman hiding in the sand. She was wearing a sort of tribal monster mask and pulled out a sub machine gun. She downed my body guards instantly and my partner caught a bullet in his chest in the wild fire. I ran down a grassy hill and took cover behind a play ground, trying to shoot her whenever it was clear. However none of my bullets were even scratching her skin despite my accurate aim. Her skin was like a thick leather.. or something. It was too weird.
Eventually she put a round of bullets into my back as I running for cover. I was found later by my agency and woke up in hospital with agents trying to ask me for details on the hitman. I wound up in a wheelchair and was taken off the case while I was recovering, however the assassinations didn't stop. Someone was really out to get me. I was taking a shower (I could walk but the doctors wanted me in a wheelchair as much as possible while the wounds were healing) when bullets came flying through the window. I escaped unscathed but the next day I found two dead bodies in the hotel's pool area. One was drowned and the other.. I'm not sure. We never really determined the cause of his death but he was lying there on a pool chair.
The one in the pool chair was my partner and the drowned body was my boyfriend or something in the dream. He had left a note saying "I'm sorry", to look as if it was a suicide. I freaked out and called my agency when agents arrived. They decided to take me back to HQ and we were going to release to files to stop all the deaths from happening. We were just going to make a very random "disclosure" out of the blue without warning any organization connected to the cover up. We called in some trusted press without telling them what we were doing - other than assuring them we wouldn't be wasting their time.
My higher ups went to pull this capsule like box up out of the ground in the middle of the foyer which was what I had been asked to protect, but it was empty. Someone had stolen all the files. Needless to say, my higher ups were angry and wanted an answer. My boss: "You and Icarus were the only ones with access to these files, WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY?!" Yeah.. err.. my dead partner's name was "Icarus". Unless it was his codename, given our positions I think that's more likely. They boss apologized though, as it was learnt that the files were stolen the night my partner and boyfriend were killed, and they had tapes of me being in the hotel the whole time.
The uh, hitman. After that I was taken to a third person view point of her past and she was standing next to her grandmother on a hill saying "Grandmother, am I a bad person?" Her grandmother replied; "Dear you do some bad things, but you still have a good heart. You're true to yourself in whatever you do, and that's all that I could ask for." I'm thinking wow. Cool family. Mine would shun me for eternity if they found out half the stuff I had done. The hitman wasn't evil, but she was basically using her talents to bring money into her poor family.
Sigh. Now what to make of all this. I don't know.
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You need to follow the meetings with people that come over your path as they arrive.
It usually is important and you might think other things is more important.
It is time to speak to that guy, you are missing a opportunity to experience something.
G'day wee Sheila, I don't think you're paranoid....maybe a wee wee tad nuts, but I think Kevin "bloody" Wilson says it best "You're just f*cken loopy mate" lol
Just kidding Rae, don't come visit me in my dreams k, they're weird enuff already without a womans touch.
Well done Rea, you learned quite a lot. and you learned that people sometimes do things that is considered dark.
You learned to look at another persons life and see past the event to the source of who they are. That is a great lesson to learn, getting out of your perspective and prejudiced and looking at another persons life without judgment.
Yeah but I think eventually you're gonna have to take it. Remember it's not exactly your hopes and dreams but what your life path is.
Besides taking it might lead to what you want anyways.
I can relate to your 2nd paragraph about being chased and trying to get away but no matter where you go they find you!
I had a similar dream in which I was being chased by beings in black as well, I was chased around a city that resembled Venice, could've been somewhere else but I distinctly remember the city was surrounded by water, everywhere I ran, streets, alleys, walkways you name it they weren't far behind and wherever I hid they always seemd to find me. I was chased down an alleyway into a dead-end, I had nowhere else to go except over the edge into the water which was quite a ways down or fly away, I couldn't fly away cos everytime I tried I'd just go off into this mad spinning frenzy, like a helicopter without a back rotor, so that was outta the question and there was no ways I was leaping over the edge cos they'd just get me in the water anyways.
As it seemed that all hope was lost and these "beings" had me cornered with nowhere left to run, three white beings, lights, orbs or whatever they were flew overhead, just above us and "squashed" these black entities like into what I can only describe as marshmallows, I don't know if they were contained in a force field of sorts but they were completely immobile after that....then I woke up thinking....WTFH was that all about!
Maybe you were in a base in the states cos there are underground tunnels connected from Aus to the U.S and from what I can gather, the vehicles used are like "maglifts" they travel on magnetism and clock about 3000km/h so a trip to and from the states wouldn't take that long to complete. Why you have a phobia to helicopters and such I think is cos maybe when you were younger they did tests and experiments on you and one sure way of making you forget about it is to install mental blocks and phobias to things that were common to you in an altered state, this way your memories or could be put down to irrational fears and phobias, thus covering up whatever was done to you by "them" it also explains why your parents conveniently forget that such an episode ever took place, cos a mental block or firewall was put in them as well, so even under hypnosis the therapist will get into their subconscious mind but without the trigger word to by-pass the firewall they'd get no info at all.
I don't know about silver ring guy, but my advice is don't take the ring!! It could be something sinister as in drain you of your energy, powers, wipe your memory again or it could be a tracking device so they know your every move.
First off, Automatic writing experience? Cool.
Then, what was the other 'astral' experience, do you mean you can't remember it or that you don't want to put it out there?
Maybe you ought to check yourself for implants. I dunno, but maybe there is a connection between the visit to the military base and your odd fears. That or past lives.
Who's silver dragon ring guy?
Did you actually experience the dream as though in real time, day by day? Did you sleep in the dream (if so that's pretty cool).