The open diary of my life. I almost feel i should adress this to the people who may be reading it but i think i will adress it to source(the eternal being we are all a part) i wonder what i would like to say....

Lately it would almost seem that i am bi polar or something. It feels like i get a glimpse of bliss, a taste and a touch then i become curious to see how well i can manuver through dense energies. my body is a testing ground and so far i have figured quite alot out. i have fgured that there is a vast amount of energy waiting to be tapped for sustanance. im kinda tired of eating or atleast eating bad food. some people never learn to know their body, they just treat it like a trash can. im so tired of eating crap and having people tell me it is so good. blahhhh.

I once used to eat food not thinking it had effects on my body. i ate for pleasure and taste. Lately iv'e been going to extremes just to see what my body can handle. After eating all raw food i began to see how certain symptons, pains melted away. really i think my body allways knows what to eat that is good for it but my emotions don't. For so long i think i have been feeding my emotions without even realizing it. Now im in a decoding process discovering what works for me and what does'nt. so much food in our modern society is so absolutely overloaded with zest and disguise. i want what is real and real good for me. RAW FOOD is awesome! i love the earth and her blessings. i have been finding those blackholes i have been feeding and finally I'm filling them with what they deserve. so if i feel lonely im gonna find company not a sugar coated piece of crap.

i'm actually really tired of the whole food thing and kinda wish i just didnt have to eat. my nutrition and consumption has been a big concious key for me in my awakening. my long term goal is to resonate with source, earth and light and recieve sustanance by the pure existance of being. maybe my path of trials and error has just been a stepping stone for me to really understand my body and energy systems. I think alot of us are just feeding our emotions and we should be finding the source of those emotions and what they need to feel full. I feel we all really need company. we all need to know that we are together as companions in this life. we are more alive together than alone. we ll eat so very very differently. what does the source eat?