I'm very sad

Dear Diary,

I'm very sad at the state of affairs both in my own personal world and the world itself.

What's going on with me? My best friend of almost 22 years is getting married, however I seem to have hit a snag with her fiancee. She wrote me a rather nasty email and aparrently my repsonse hurt her feelings and now I don't know how to undue what I did!? I wrote her another email this morning apologizing for my email but I don't know if it will make things right?

My second concern is what's going on here at Ashtar Command. There use to be a lot of love and sharing but it seems to have stoped? The atmosphere as of late doesn't seem to be the same and the whole thing has shaken me up?

The third thing which concerns me is the Gulf Oil Spill, my heart broke looking at all those animals covered with oil and I feel so bad with all the people who are suffering down there because of this?

I am very sad and depressed with what's going on and I can't shake it.

The world around me is turning upside down and my own world is going right along with it!?

I feel very lonely as of late...I'm not from this world as I was sent here long ago to help usher in the new era of peace, but right now I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything I don't know what to do!?

My heart is very heavy and I'm very sad, I feel like crying all the time and just feel so blue.

i feel for you and understand to some degree the lonelynes your experiencing. sometimes it feels strange to reach out to someone you hardly know but when i here a cry i a want to comfort this call. im new to this website collective and thus far have felt alot of love. i am here to share, open myself and ideas to all who are willing to share in our experiences.

WE are all Solo in our personel path but connect and commune together in the most amzing ways. i feel that even acts of discord are blessed communitive experiences. ask yourself why you might be feeling the way you do. really feel the pain and accept it. i don't know if this reply will help but i hope you feel the love that comes from me to U. i am a messenger of yourself reminding you to look up and see the blessings in disguise. shake it all up, LAUGH and create some love. let your emotions draw a picture and reflect on it to percieve yourslef and situation from all sorts of perspectives. you are important and much loved.

yea the oil spill is sucky but don't let it get ya down. this world is falling apart and coming together anew. Because of danger and disaster created by humans we are connecting to create less of these things. conciousness is key and we are becoming more unified to the whole.

Not much more to say but I LOVE YOU and send you infinite blessings and strength to be as you will.

LOVE and LIGHT
-AZARU-

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Sashia Ishizu-Ishtar June 20, 2010 at 7:32pm

I want to thank all of you for your wonderful words of encouragement. I realize what is going on (as far as me personally) has to do with what's going on inside of me. I'm changing and it's for the better, have been doing a lot of self reflection and questioning my fundamental ideals. Change is good, and now I see that. Thank you all and love you, my brothers and sisters.^_^
Zurakiel Tetragrammaton June 17, 2010 at 8:14am

i feel for you and understand to some degree the lonelynes your experiencing. sometimes it feels strange to reach out to someone you hardly know but when i here a cry i a want to comfort this call. im new to this website collective and thus far have felt alot of love. i am here to share, open myself and ideas to all who are willing to share in our experiences.

WE are all Solo in our personel path but connect and commune together in the most amzing ways. i feel that even acts of discord are blessed communitive experiences. ask yourself why you might be feeling the way you do. really feel the pain and accept it. i don't know if this reply will help but i hope you feel the love that comes from me to U. i am a messenger of yourself reminding you to look up and see the blessings in disguise. shake it all up, LAUGH and create some love. let your emotions draw a picture and reflect on it to percieve yourslef and situation from all sorts of perspectives. you are important and much loved.

yea the oil spill is sucky but don't let it get ya down. this world is falling apart and coming together anew. Because of danger and disaster created by humans we are connecting to create less of these things. conciousness is key and we are becoming more unified to the whole.

Not much more to say but I LOVE YOU and send you infinite blessings and strength to be as you will.

LOVE and LIGHT
-AZARU-
J~{Shaar'Ah'Ai'La}~ June 17, 2010 at 12:15am

Oh Sashia, my heart goes out to you Sister. I too have been having similar problems, it seems like everyone I used to care about and trust have turned their backs on me. Either they don't care about what I'm feeling or they are completely misunderstanding where I'm at and putting all this nasty energy on me. All I can do is stand in my own power against this raging wind, connect with my guides as best I can through all the interference. There have been days when I've been too upset to even cry or express it, and I am noticing it's not just me, or just you, it seems to be in the collective consciousness. The weather where I live even seems to reflect it. I won't even go into what I feel from the world at large, it's too ugly and I don't want to put any more energy on it. I have not been spending much time here because I don't want to bring this sadness of mine to the table, but perhaps I should be, when I do connect with my friends here and there is that love and feeling of family, it helps me greatly, and I know others have felt the same when I'm in my space and there with them. You're not alone, and you have at least one friend in me, feel free to send a msg if you want to talk more :) Every blessing and lots of *hugs*~

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