my today's story

I first started thinking that i should write everything i feel in a book and maybe then publish it, but i feel that writing here can also do me a lot of good.i don't know what i expect from you, or even if i expect anything, but i do know that my heart is the most beautiful thing i know and the fact that i feel being inside a matrix traps me a little. i have no idea if i'm talking to someone right now and i do have doubts about lots of things, but i hope that my heart will be heard in the end, as communication tends to help me most of the times; communication and tears.:)) i strongly love without knowing if i can find my soulmate, but there is no other way for me but to keep loving; this is what keeps me alive. i want to be honest and say that i don't fully trust these types of websites, as the bible used to say that there will be a lot of false so called saviours, but i feel i have to talk to you too, because anyone has some truth of his own to say, even the most simple. i somehow want to hear you, any of you, to tell me your story, your feelings, to be able to cry with you, as i am now. i feel i must follow my heart's path, even though sometimes it seems hard to do. the matrix is something i sometimes feel and see so deeply that it makes me suffer for me and the rest of the world. i don't know a solution, but i know i can open my heart and move on. have a nice day you all.

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  • I understand your pain are not the only one that feels all the bad people is sad when things go wrong but we have a star that does not leave us we must be strong and wait for the storm to calm down if we are alive we are entitled to be happy
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