Hi starseed, 

I am in the same boat. I feel like I've ignored my mission, and my mission was a girl or was going to come through that girl, she was the one because of whom I saw all of the 11:11 synchronicities, along with a host of other ones. She was a polar opposite, and instead of resonating with her, I ended up forming a life-long impression that seems impossible to break out of. I have been judged, and I am willing to do anything it takes to regain my mission, to anchor unconditional love, but I find myself at odds, at loss, to do that. 

This dissonance that was created with her seems like an impossible hold to get out of! I feel weaker, and I don't resonate much with what is posted in these forums,even though it DOES make sense. I fear that my brain and my ego have overtaken, and that my heart is not connected to the grid anymore.

I do not know what fate awaits those who've failed their missions, and honestly, the only thing that I resonate with is that it wasn't supposed to be this way, and that I'm possibly stuck in a timeline that I wasn't supposed to be a part of.

I'm looking for more signs that would help me break out of this hold, but that girl seems so far away, so so so far away, that I do not know what to do about it. I know the WHY, but the guidance that seems to be missing is the HOW. I guess the 'HOW' comes with the advent of 'free-will', the most respected function of humanity. 

I've looked for guidance within, and I can only resonate with this girl, I feel as if she is a soul-twin, and I do not know what to do, or what to expect anymore.

I hope this helps.

A reply from you would be much appreciated.

Light and love.