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Happy Monday Everyone!!!!

I was thinking about Anush's most recent post, regarding how we all need to investigate our own gardens more to gain access to our memories and what we need to learn/transmute, etc.

I was chuckling because she had made sure to point out that I needed to do the work too.  I thought it was sweet.

Little did I know the significance of the item I found would prove her right in pushing me to do more of my own "garden work" lol

but I'll get to that in a moment.

I was taking a shower, thinking about my responsibilities for the work day, and that today is the day I get to submit my resignation letter (yay!).  And the thought came to me that I really should find some garden work time.

then the resistant thought came to my mind that I wouldn't have enough time to do any in depth garden work, because I wanted to be able to do my garden work in a place that relaxed me, and New York is not a relaxing city in the least.

But I realized this was avoidance and procrastination manifesting itself, and I needed to make an effort.

So, realizing that water is a great medium for AP, I decide to spend the rest of my shower exploring my Garden.

and I find that I can do this with my eyes open!  Not the best for focus, but it was interesting to see what Anush meant when she spends 24/7 in the physical and in AP - she's used to the connection being open permanently.

Now it's our turn to work on opening that connection.

ok, sorry about the side note.

I drop into my garden, with the cascading water fountain in the middle, and lush green trees surrounding the perimeter.  It's getting easier and easier to see the details in my garden, so I can see how repeated visits are necessary to truly grasp meaning and information about myself.

I decide to check out my armory.

a wooden closet immediately extends from the shadows of the woods right to where I'm standing, and I realize, as I open the door, that I can swipe up, down, left, and right, much like an ipad or ipod, to locate different genres and subcategories of weapons.

The first weapon I noticed was a huge hammer with pointed ends, that looked like it was chromed. 

whoa.  That'll cause some damage.

I spun the armory to the left, watching the different types cycle by, and I stop it at a long bow with an arrow that appears to have a poison tip.  Guess I sometimes feel the need to do stealth work, although I prefer direct and organized assaults if I can help them.  People need to know that judgement is coming for them, and just how brutal it will be if they resist lol.  Guess that's why I prefer the sword.  Really shows you mean to do some damage, and that it's personal =).  When you strike, it's deliberate.

ok. fun. armory stuff.  lots of them.  I'll check it out later.

what else do I have around here.  

I notice some armchairs, where I think Anush likes to relax and meditate, nap, you know, enjoy the garden.

I wonder what I prefer for relaxation, and look around, but the only thing I notice is my hammock in the other end of the garden.

I don't always want to use a hammock.  there must be something else.

I lie down on the grass, because I know I love the feel of it, and am astonished when I realize that I can make the grass come up to support me, much like a temperpedic bed!  oooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh......that was nice.....I even felt it in the physical.  I'm gonna spend a lot of time doing that =)

But I realize I'm still too distracted.  I am not focusing enough on discovering memories.

So I call out to Elron and Kal, thinking that there was a good chance they would show up.  I notice two shadows, and I know they are smiling.

Me" What's up guys!"

Kal and Elron don't say anything - mostly because I don't think I'm concentrating enough to allow a response.  I'm just excited to be talking to them in my garden consciously.

I say to them - "I want to see something that will help me with my memories!"

and immediately I see an image - of a mother of pearl attached to what looks like a clamp.

I see the clamp turn in my mind, from vertical to horizontal, and it releases the mother of pearl into my hand.

huh.  interesting.

I thank Kal and Elron, knowing I want to wrap up my shower and check this mother of pearl thing.

this is what I find lol

Mother Of Pearl - To see or wear mother of pearl in your dream, symbolizes renewal, birth and fertility. Alternatively, the dream is telling you to be more focused on your tasks or goals. 

I think I need to focus more and allow less distractions =)  I need to slow down my garden visits and really focus on what is being said, or what I see/experience.  This one was way too rushed, as the mother of pearl clearly suggests.

I need to focus on all my goals, not just memory retrieval.  completing a phd in psychology.  working on music, and actually finishing songs.  working on internal boundaries.  important things that matter to me, that I should not be letting take the back seat.

Hop up to the front seat guys.  You now get priority =)

Guess Anush was right to poke me to do more work.  Thanks Anush!

I need to remind myself just how well she actually knows me lmao

Either way, that was fun.