ASCENSION 11-11-11; MY OWN DISCLOSER & CONTACT, A PLEA FOR HELP.
THIS IS THE MOST DIFFICULT BLOG TO WRITE, OF THE TWO HUNDRED I'VE WROTE IN THE LAST COUPLE OF YEARS. THE DISCLOSER IS, THAT I HAVE BECOME AN INVOLID,DISABLED THROUGH DISEASE & ACCIDENTS. CONTACT IS THAT I NEED YOUR PRAYERS FOR I AM ALL ALONE AND GETTING UP THERE IN YEARS. I AM NEARLY AT THE POINT WHERE I CANNOT TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND MY DOGS. I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING MANY DISEASE'S THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME FROM THE DRUGS THE VA FORCED ME TO TAKE IF I WANTED TO WIN MY CASE. I THREW THE DRUGS AWAY WHEN I CAME HERE TO BELIZE AND HAVE BEEN HEALING MYSELF THROUGH HERBS. I HAVE WON MANY BATTLES INCLUDING TWO HEART FAILURES.ONE CAUSED BY VIOXX & CELEBREX & THE OTHER CAUSED BY A MEAT CO. BURNING ALL THE BUSH AROUND MY HOUSE. I EVEN OVERCAME PROSTATE CANCER THAT I GOT 3 YRS AGO BY USING HERBS,TURMRIC, GREEN TEA & CALIFLOUR.BUT THIS LUPUS DISEASE JUST WONT LET GO.
YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS YOUNG AND THOUGHT I WAS SUPERMAN. I HAD A SERIOUS MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT IN HOLLOND. THE MAN WHO HIT ME LIED TO THE POLICE SO AS A TOURIST I GOT NO MEDICAL HELP. I HAD BROKEN MANY BONES & BOTH MY KNEE CAPS WERE SMASHED. I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO GET THE WORST ONE ( MY LEFT) OPERATED ON IN DENMARK SEVERAL YEARS LATER. THEN AS LUCK WOULD HAVE IT. I GOT HIT BY A CAR WHILE WALKING IN A WALKING STREET8 YRS LATER.THAT BROKE MY LEFT FOOT IN SIX PLACES. I DID GET A CAST ON IT FOR SEVERAL MONTHS. THEN IN 30'S I AQUIRED ARTHRITIS AND OF COURSE IT ALWAYS ATTACKS OLD INJURIES. SO FOR THE LAST 30 YRS I WAS PART TIME DISABLED. THEN 15 YRS AGO IT TURNED MORE SERIOUS WHEN THE LUPUS DISEASE SET IN. LUPUS IS A AUTO IMMUNE DISEASE ,ENHANCED BY CHEMTRAILS & IS THE MOST DEADLY FORM OF ARTHRITIS. IT CAN ATTACK ORGANS AS WELL AS BONES & JOINTS.& IT NEARLY KILLED ME.
IN 2004 IT ATTACKED MY SMASHED ELBOWS, AND HANDS. THEN WENT FOR THE KNEES AND FEET. AT THAT TIME IT WAS ALL BUSH HERE, SO I WAS ON MY OWN. I COULDENT WALK, I COULD ONLY CRAW, FOR 2-1/2 WKS. IT THEN ATTACKED MY KIDNEYS. THATS WHEN I CRIED OUT FOR HELP AND MY DISTANCE NEIGHBORS GOT ME TO A HOSPITAL. I THOUGHT THIS MIGHT HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH KEEPING MY PROMISE TO GOD THAT I WOULD CREATE A HOLISTIC CENTER FOR THE 2012 ASCENSION EVENT. A COUPLE OF WEEKS AFTER I GOT OUT FROM THE HOSPITAL I HAD A HEART ATTRACK OF SORTS. IT WAS A AGENIA ATTACK, ( CELEBREX ). THATS WHEN I FOUND OUT HOW DEADLY THE DRUG VIOXX WAS AND I TOLD THE DOCTOR WHAT HAPPENED BUT HE DIDENT BELIEVE ME. FROM THAT TIME ON I BECAME MY OWN DOCTOR. THE HOLISTIC CENTER WAS A FAILURE , NO ONE HERE WAS INTERESTED IN THE ASCENSION PLAN OF 2011-12. IT GOT ROBBED AND I CLOSED IT DOWN. THAT YR 2007 WAS WHEN I HAD THE HEART FAILURE FROM THE BUSH FIRE. WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL A SPACE BROTHER OR ANGEL VISITED ME AS A MATERAL PERSON, JUST SMILED AT ME AND WINKED , THEN DISAPPEARED. I KNEW THEY WERE WATCHING OVER ME. SO I MUST DO MY PART AND WRITE THE BOOK.
ALL MY LIFE I HAD BEEN A LONER SENCE THE TIME I RAN AWAY FROM HOME AT 16 YRS. I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO WOULD LOOK AFTER ME. OF COURSE THAT WAS BEFORE I MET MY GUIDES AND GOD. I WAS DRAFTED ,AND WENT INTO THE AF INSTEAD THERE I WAS INJURED AND USED AS A GUINEY PIG. THAT NOT ONLY MESSED UP MY BODY BUT MY HEAD AS WELL. BUT I STARTED MY RECOVERY IN COLLEGE AND MADE MANY FRIENDS FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE. FOR MY CHILDHOOD HAD BEEN A DISEASTER AS WELL. BY THE BEGINNIG OF MY 3RD YR, I MET MY SPIRIT GUIDE TWO TIMES. HE SHOWED ME THE FUTURE UP TO 2012 & MY PART IN IT THAT I WAS TO PLAY OUT. AT THE END OF MY 3RD YR I WAS PRESENTED WITH THE URANTIA BOOK & STARTED STUDYING ABOUT THE GRAND MASTER UNIVERSE, GOD OR GODS & JESUS. I SET OUT TO SEE AND LEARN ABOUT THE WORLD.I GOT INVOLVED IN STARTING A COMMUNE CALLED CHRISTIANIA & LEFT AFTER 3YRS. ATER THAT I WAS ALWAYS THE OBSERVER I NEVER GOT INVOLVED. IT WAS TO PAINFULL TO LEAVE.
I KEPT A DAIRY WHICH I WOULD LATER USE AS MY REFERAL TO THE FULL SIZE BOOK THAT I WOULD WRITE & THIS KIND OF THINGS. AFTER I GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL THAT TIME FROM MY HEART FAILURE. WHICH I DID WRITE IN 2007-10. I WROTE ABOUT ALL OF THE UFO'S I HAD SEEN AND BEEN UP ON,& THE THOUSANDS OF ORBS WHICH STILL AMAZE'S ME TODAY. I LEARNED MUCH FROM THE AUCTURAINS ,ASHTAR COMMAND AND THE GFL AND MANY OTHER SPACE BROTHERS. BUT I COULD NOT SHARE MUCH OF THIS WITH PEOPLE, SO I REMAINED A LONER LIVING IN MY CAMPER OR RV, GOING FROM COUNTRY TO COUNTRY AND STATE TO STATE. AND EVEN THOUGH I WAS PARTLY DISABLED I MANANGED TO SEEK OUT A MEGAR LIVING DOING CRAFTS AND PLAYING MUSIC ,AND SINGING WITH MY GUITER. THE ONLY TIME I WAS A BIT HAPPY WAS WHEN I WAS TEACHING PEOPLE AT THE MARKETS OR PLAYING MUSIC FOR THEM. BUT AS THE YRS WENT BY MY DISABALITIES BECAME WORSE ,SO I WENT FOR MY VA DISABALITIES AND WON AFTER MANY YRS FIGHTING THEM. SO I PROMISED GOD THAT IF I WON I WOULD DO THIS MISSION THING AND LATER THE BOOK. I GOT THE CANCER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BOOK WORK BUT CARRIED ON TIL MY TRANSLATER WHO TYPED MY HAND WRITTEN WORK LEFT TO GO BACK TO THE USA.
SO THAT MEANT I HAD TO LEARN HOW TO TYPE MYSELF AND LEARN HOW TO USE A COMPUTER BESIDE JUST FOR E-MAIL. WELL I BROKE ANOTHER FINGER ON MY WRITE HAND AND LIKE THE OTHER BONES I DIDEN'T REALIZE IT WAS BROKEN TIL IT WAS TO LATE. THEN TO MAKE THINGS WORSE I FELL ON MY MOTOR BIKE ON THE SLICK CLAY ROADS WE HAVE HERE AND BROKE MY HIP. I CRACKED IT ON THE RIGHT SIDE. AGAIN I DIDN'T RELIZE IT WAS BROKEN TIL MONTHS WENT BY AND IT WOULDN'T HEAL. STILL I KEPT GOING WITH THE BOOK AND STARTED SURFING THE WEB MORE. I USED TO GET MOST OF MY NEW AGE INFO FROM A MAG CALLED SEDONA JOURNAL OF EMERGENCE. FROM 1992 TO 2006. AFTER THAT I GOT MY INFO FROM THE NET.WHICH I HAD TO DRIVE TO TOWN FOR THE WI-FI & I BECAME A MEMBER OF ACC AFTER WATCHING IT FOR A COUPLE OF YRS. AND STARTINED WRITING IN LATE 2009 OR EARLY 10. WHEN THEY BEGAN TO TALK SERIOUS ABOUT DISCLOSER AND CONTACT WHICH WAS TO COME SOON? I BROKE MY HIP AROUND X-MASS 2008 SO I WAS IN A LOT OF PAIN BECAUSE MY LEGS WOULD NOT ADJUST INSTEAD THEY BOTH KEPT TAKING TURNS GOING OUT ON ME BUT THE LEFT WAS THE WORSE.
BUT I WAS DETERMINED TO FINISH THE BOOK EVEN WITH LOTS OF PAIN, IN THE HOPES THAT BY X-MASS 2010 WE WOULD BE RESCUED BUT RIGHT BEFORE I FINISHED IT SALUSA SAID THAT PLANS HAD CHANGED AND THAT WE WOULD HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER YEAR,X-MASS 2011. HE SAID IT WOULD BE WORTH IT. THAT IT WOULD BE THE LAST -X-MASS AND THE MOST HAPPIEST ONE EVER. AND THAT SOON AFTER WE WOULD GET OUR NEW BODYS THAT WE WOULD MANIFEST WITH THE HELP OF THE PHOTON BELT AND THE GALATIC ALIGNMENT. IT WOULD BE LIKE THERES AND THOSE LIVING IN MIDDLE EARTH AND INNER EARTH. THAT THE ACHS AND PAINS WOULD GO AWAY FOR US ELDERS AND WE WOULD FEEL YOUNG AGAIN AND THAT WE WOULD BE. I HEARD THIS MANY YRS AGO AND THAT WE COULD KEEP THAT BODY FOR HUNDREDS OF YEARS. OR WE COULD GO EVEN HIGHER TO 5D, WHICH IS EITHER A VERY LIGHT MATERIAL BODY OR NON AT ALL ,PURE SPIRIT. BUT THIS MEANT NOW WE WOULD HAVE TO WAIT YET ANOTHER YEAR. SO I EXCEPTED IT AND HOBBLED AROUND. BUT THE HIP GOT STILL WORSE AND IT WOULD TAKE A YEAR IN BED AND OR A EXPENCIVE OPERATION ,NEITHER OF WHICH I WANTED TO DO. I DECIDED TO GO THROUGH THE PAIN AND WAIT UNTIL X-MASS 2011.
BUT AS YOU NOW KNOW THAT PLAN WAS ALSO CANCELED BY THEM AND THIS YEAR WAS THE MOST PAINFUL OF MY LIFE INCLUDING ALL THE ACCIDENTS AND DISEASEMENTS AND NEAR DEATH EVENTS THAT I HAVE HAD. IT HAS GOT SO BAD THAT HALF OF THIS YEAR I COULD ONLY HOBBLE AROUND IN GREAT PAIN. THEN ¼ OF THAT TIME WAS SPENT IN BED WITH MY LEGS PROPED UP CAUSE I COULDENT WALK AT ALL. THE LEFT LEG WHICH WAS DAMAGED THE MOST IN MY YOUTH STARTED GOING OUT COMPLETLY EVEN WHEN I WAS USING THE CRUTCH OR CANE. THE CANE WASENT ENOUGH WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN THERE WAS NO SUPPORT ON THE BAD LEG AND IT WOULD JUST GO OUT FROM UNDER ME. IN THE LAST MONTHS THIS HAS HAPPENED MANY TIMES AND EACH TIME I HAVE INJURED THE LEG AND KNEE EVEN MORE, SO THAT NOW I HAVE A HERNIANATED KNEE MUSCLE. THEY SAY I NEED A WALKING STOOL AND WHEEL CHAIR. I GAVE THE WHEEL CHAIR AWAY THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME BECAUSE I CAN'T USE IT IN MY AIR STREAM TRAILER NOR CAN I USE THE WALKING STOOL. I WOULD HAVE TO MOVE OUT OF MY TRALIER TO BE ABLE TO USE THEM. SO YOU CAN SEE WHY I AM MORE THAN DISAPPOINTED BY THE CHANGE OF PLANS FROM THE GFL'! THEY HAVE LET US DOWN IN MAN WAYS!
I HAVE PRETTY MUCH DEVOTED MY LIFE TO THIS CAUSE. I SHOULD HAVE DIED MANY TIMES BY MANKINDS STANDARDS. BUT I FOUGHT TO LIVE BECAUSE I WANTED SO MUCH TO MAKE THIS ASCENSION IN THIS LIFE TIME. I WASENT SO SPIRITUAL IN MY LIFE TIMES BEFORE ,SO HERE WAS MY CHANCE TO MAKE IT UP. I HAD TO LEARN FORGIVENESS AND HERE IN BELIZE I WAS TESTED TO THE MAX. THESE ARE THE MOST DISHONEST PEOPLE I HAVE MET IN THE WORLD. THEY ARE ALWAYS LYING, CHEATING ME AND STEALING FROM ME. I STUDIED THE BOOK A COURSE IN MIRACLES SO THAT I COULD HEAL MYSELF. JESUS TOUGHT THAT HEALING BEGINS IN THE MIND AND THAT WE FIRST HAD TO HEAL THE MIND THEN THE HEART WOULD FOLLOW WHEN WE LEARNED FORGIVE-NESS, THEN THE BODY.I ALSO HAD TO LEARN HOW TO REACH OUT TO THE PEOPLE. TO GIVE OF MYSELF AND BEING A LONER ALL MY LIFE ALSO MADE THAT A DIFFICULT JOB. BUT I DID FIND SOME FRIENDS ON THE NET WHEN I FINISHED THE BOOK AND OF COURSE HERE ON THIS SITE OF ACC. THE BLOGS I WROTE WAS TO HELP OTHERS AND TO REACH OUT TO THEM, ESPECIALLY THE NEWLY AWAKENED ONES. BUT NOW WHAT DO I DO. I DON'T WANT TO GO TO THE OLD FOLKS HOME DOWN THE ROAD FROM ME. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG IT WILL BE BEFORE I CAN;T WALK AT ALL AND HOW LONG I CAN PUT UP WITH SUCH GREAT PAIN ALL OF THE TIME. FOR ME THIS IS THE DISCLOSER AND THE CONTACT IS THAT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I AM ASKING FOR YOUR HEALING PRAYERS IN THAT I CAN'T DO THIS ALONE ANYMORE!
GOD DID SPEAK TO ME RECENTLY WHEN I WAS PRAYING TO HIM ABOUT THE GREAT SUFFERING I WAS AGAIN GOING THROUGH. HE SAID HE WAS THERE WITH ME,( DURING THE SUFFERING I SUPPOSE). I HAVE NO FRIENDS HERE IN BELIZE MOSTLY BECAUSE OF MY BELIEF'S AND TEACHING. IT WOULD HELP GREATLY IF THE GFL WOULD COME THROUGH WITH SOME MATERIAL ''SIGNS OF THE TIMES''. BUT WHILE I AM WAITING FOR THAT MIRACLE TO HAPPEN I WILL ONCE AGAIN GO THROUGH A SAD AND LONELY X-MASS,BUT THERE IS HOPE. STEM CELL RESEACH HAS FOUND A CURE FOR AUTO IMMUNE DISEASE'S LIKE MS AND LUPUS AND WHILE I AM WAITING FOR THIS TO HAPPEN I PLAN TO GO NEXT DOOR TO GUATAMALA FOR TREATMENT NOW THAT I HAVE A BELIZE PASSPORT. I AM SORRY THAT THIS WAS SO SAD AND SO LONG BUT I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO OR TO TELL MY STORY EXCEPT YOU ALL. I HAVE RUN OUT OF TIME AS I HAVE WAITED ALL OF THESE YRS FOR THE GFOL RESCUE THAT MAY NOT HAPPEN TIL IT'S TO LATE FOR ME AND OTHERS. I PRAY THAT YOU UNDERSTAND AND THAT I KEEP MY RESPECT. AFTER ALL WE ARE ALL THAT WE GOT , THAT IS EACH OTHER, YOU ARE MY FAMILY. I WISH YOU ALL HAPPY HOLIDAYS FROM MY HEART.MANY THANKS, WE ARE ALL ONE; ADONAI
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THANKS SISTERS. IT DOES SEEM THAT WE NEED MORE MALE ENERGY HERE. NOT ONLY FOR ME BUT FOR ALL OF US WHO NEED HEALING AND THATS A GREAT MANY. FIRST WE MUST HEAL THE MIND AND THEN THE EMOTIONS AND THEN THE BODY. BUT WE NEED OUTSIDE HELP. AND SO FAR WE HAVE MUCH FEMALE ENERGY AND NO MALE ENERGY SOITS NOT WORKING SO WELL. LETS HOPE KATJAMI DOES BRING IN THIS HEALING GROUP THAT ALSO BRINGS IN THE MALE ENERGY THAT WE ALL NEED IN THIS UNIQUE BALANCE. THIS IS A TIME OF HEALING FOR ALL OF US WEATHER WE WANT TO ADMIT IT OR NOT. THE AWAKENING BEGINS NOW WITH ALL OF US,ADONAI
you are very welcome. thanks for the feedback.
yes, karma, we all have to handle some, haven't we ?
see you around. big hug, and blessings.
THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU. LAST NIGHT OR RATHER TODAY I WAS ABLE TO SLEEP WITHOUT TO MUCH PAIN.ALSO I WAS ABLE TO GO DO SHOPPING TODAY. BOTH OF THESE WERE THE FIRST TIME IN OVER A MONTH, TODAY I PLAN TO GO FOR TREATMENT. SO YOUR PRAYERS ARE WORKING. ITS FUNNY BECAUSE IT SEEMS TO BE ALMOST TOTAL FEMALES WHO ANSWERED MY PLEA. I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THIS FEMALE ENERGY BEFORE. I KNOW THE YEN BALANCES THE YANG AND I AM TOLD FEMALE ENERY GOES IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION AS OURS. THE FIRST NIGHT I DIDENT FEEL MUCH BUT NOW IT IS PICKING UP. I HAVE DONE HEALING FOR OTHERS AND HAVE STUDIED SICKNESS AND HEALING FOR THE LAST 25 YRS. BUT NEVER DID LONG DISTANCE MENTAL HEALING, SUCH IS THE POWER OF PRAYER.
AS TO WHY ALL OF THIS HAS HAPPENED TO ME, I HAVE COME UP WITH ONLY ONE POSSIBLE CONCLUSION. AND THAT HAS A LOT TO DO WITH PAST LIVES, WHICH I DIDN;T DO MUCH OF ANYTHING, JUST SORTA GLIDING THROUGH LIFE.MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES AND THIS IS A QUICK WAY OF PAYING UP A LOT OF KARMA. MY OLD SPIRITUAL TEACHER MAFU WAS THE SAME. HE WAS ONE OF THE LEPERS THAT JESUS CURED. HE DID IT TO CLEAR HIS KARMA. ITS NOT SHAME FUL, BUT BOY IS IT PAINFUL.I AM NOW OUTSIDE IN THE COLD TO GET THE WI-FI.MUST GO.TA,ADONAI
dear rev. joshua,
you seem to go thru a very thorough testing. just remember that the ones who are called for the highest purposes are the most heavily tested.
since you are asking for help, i will send you healing from a distance - so that cause, consequences and the disease itself may be taken care of.
have you heard of the GNM (german new medicine, by geerd haemer), indicating that conflicts are at the bottom of each disease. solving the conflict is curing the disease - i know, it does sound easy in theory, putting it into practice is much more difficult. also, homeopathic remedies and aura healing can cure a great deal. my experience is that the sum of many (often small things) gets us going in the right direction. also, my own experience is that we -as humans- have some free choice, though it is rather "limited": either we go in the counter direction than what was foreseen in our life plan (which leads to illness), or we go in the direction of our mission - i refused several times myself this 2nd path, and "paid" for it quite heavily. and now, i must admit "by force" :-) , i have learned to follow my spirit guides and my heart and intuition - still learning though :-)
anyway, maybe this wasn't the answer you were after. but in summary, i will send you help.
namaste, dear brother.
Dear Brother, goodheaven what a journey your live is!
I send you loads of Love+ Strenght and Light.
You are Loved!
I will include you in my prayers, may God bless You!
Hello there Dear Soul....I know your suffering. I too have a auto-immune disorder that is causing great pain and loss of my quality of life in the physical. I know about waiting for the ships to offer some relief and perhaps a new perspective regarding the emotional weight that goes along with chronic pain. When One is dealing with something that never appears to cease or even let up for one day it becomes more than exasperating. I too have had cancer and more surgeries than I can remember to count. YOU ARE NOT ALONE... my relief comes in finding something small to be grateful for and some days it is super small but focusing on the gratitude opens a gate for me. I try to build on that vibration in my Heart Chakra and move it through my body. Some days it builds upon itself and Light just seems to come from everywhere. Other days may not be as great but the small (or big) gratitude vibration will draw 'like' energy to you and this starts to move the dis-ease distortion both you and I chose to learn from. Blech, I know, but all things return back to source and this imbalance will be corrected as all other distortions vibrating in the lower densities. Please know you are loved and valued.....Let us hold proverbial hands and keep faith. The strength it takes to continue with everything you have experienced is HUGE. I personally give you much validation for your Light and persistance in creating change. Please know my prayers are with you as is my gratitude. Deep Peace, Lisa