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I was the only daughter and child to a cupple that had come to America to try their luck there and where traveling in a wagon to try to seek a nice place to settle in. I was 14 years of age that time and  I had blond long wavy hair and blue eyes. Unfortunately my parents where brutaly murrdered by a small gang of 6 Cherokee native indians. They vandalesied my parents dead bodies..took my dads shotgun and guns and also our horse! I was carefully looking at them where I hid in the wagon! I saw a gang of 15 native indians coming riding fast.. The cherokee leader shouted to the boys and they left in a hurry! The Cherokee indians was simply outnumbered and would not had a chanse to fight off this Sioux gang of 15. Of cause I did not know it then for me it was simply nother gang of natives...I was scared I wanted to cry, but couldn´t! I knew that they would deffenitely find me if I started to cry..I heard them sneek outside looking around the wagon like they where curious on what had happend or if there was eny valuables to take with back home.. I was so scared I remember! Suddenly one of them came in the wagon...It was Blue Elk, he was 17 at that time. He saw me..our eyes met and I was scared! He looked around after valuables and at the same time looked at me curiously...probably thinking what to do! He continued searching the wagon and found some food and usefull tools...He found an apple and took a bite of it while he looked at me, probably wondering what to do! Suddenly he comes towards me and takes a firm grip on my arm and drags me out from the vagon! He had a firm grip and even thought he was only 17 he was strong as full adult man, so his grip hurted a bit! I tryed to strugle
cause I was scared but then his grip only hardend...Suddenly Blue Elk took upp a HUGE knife from his knife holder and showed at me. I froze and I was scared to shit! Was he going to kill me when I stryggled to get loose from his firm grip! Suddenly he cut a big huge cut on my dress and the dress fell down on the ground! There i suddenly stood in just underwear.The other natives who saw this grined and some even laughed! I felt bot humanilated and imbarresed.He Then forced me to quickly go forward and when I stood infront of his horse he putted me upp on his horse and jumped upp on his horse behind me and we took off in an amazing speed....I remember I had mixed feelings when I
sat on that horse. I was scared but at the same time I strangely enough felt relaxed and safe. We reaced the village and I became one of them... they gave me the name  Pahinzizi. It did not take long for me to figure out that even thought he did like he did with that dress so I ended upp in only underwear, he did save my life after all! I could actually bot died of thirst and starvation if I had been left in that wagon middle of no where! With that knowladge witch did not take to long to realice i grew pretty fond of Blue Elk! I was 16 when I got married to Blue Elk. He was an magnificent knife and tomahawk thrower. He never missed the target and therefore he was pretty feared by the enemies, even the white men feard him cause of his throwing skills. When I was 32 years of age I gave birth to a lovely adorable little baby girl! She had Blue Elks hair and eyes but my white skin! We gave her the name Sonseerai. I had lost my son few hours after he was born when I was 25 of age! Sonseerai became or little jewel and everything! She was Blue Elks little jewel and he loved her so incredible much from the depth of his heart and soul, he still dos! He was such an amazing father! Soneerai loved to bee in daddys lap and listen to his stories till she fell a sleep in his lap...Blue Elks stories was like little like lullaby for her...it was easy for her to relax and imagine the things what daddy was telling in the stories till she fell peacfully a sleep....

One day our little jewel got brutaly murdered by that blond white man witch the mustach! The man did not like Sonseerais scream...but that was not the only reason why he killed her! It was the bitter truth that I was white and I had a child with a native american, his worst enemy Blue Elk that he shot our little girl Sonseerai! The blond man had come to our village cause he was after my husband BLUE ELK! When I was on my knees and held my daughters dead body in my arms Crying I saw this mans eyes and from them nothing more than descust and hatred came from them. He left shortly after...

Later when Blue Elk came back and found his little daughters lifeless body he snaped! At that point he lost his sences totaly! I tryed to tell him to stay, that Is was no point chasing that man, our beloved daughter would not come back enyway...But he did not listen! That evening he took off to find his daughters cold blooded killer...I got horryfied to see my husband loose his insanity! So I quickly went to get my horse! Jumped upp on my mare and took off after my husband! It was not easy to track him..but I had my sences and I fooloewd them if i lost the track!I was following him for days... Blue Elk in his turn had been stalking Sonseerais killer for days...One afternoon he found him taken a drink at a river! Blue Elk threw one of his knifes on purpos on the three not far away from the blond man where he stood to get his attention...The man turned his ead emidiantly when the knife hit the tree and saw the knife then! Then he turned his head forfard and saw Blue Elk ifront of him... Blue Elk did not know I had followed him and  Ifound him shortly after he found his daughters killer! I saw everything....Blue Elk jumped down his bay paint mustang stallion and went to the river shore...He took his other huge knife from his knife holder and showed that white man to get that knife from the tree close to him and fight like a man with knifes! He litterly challanged that blond man with that mustach in a knife fight! The blond man did not take the knife from the tree, instead he took his own knife from his knife holder and they started to walk in circles with their eyes contsantly at eachother...The look that the blond man gave Blue Elk was nothing more than pure hatred and descust, while Blue Elks eyes where full of wrath and hatred towards this man...his little Sonseerais cold blooded killer. Soon the blond man started to try to stab Blue Elk but my husband was quick enought so he missed thous first few stabb. The second time the white blond man managed to get a tiny cut on Blue Elks arm. Not too deep but enough to make him bleed a bit! Blue Elk got then to a boiling point and stabbed the blond man in the stumach with force at the same time he shouted " YOU BASTARD! YOU KILLED MY DAUGHTER! DIE,DIE,DIIIIE!!!!" and then yet a nother stabb and a nother! I could see a lots of blood from all thous stabbs! Then Blue Elk stabbed the blond white man the last time stright into the heart...The blond man fell on his knees and died pretty much instantly! Blue Elk putted his hand on the scar that was bleeding that he had on his other arm...I Jumped down from my mare and I ran to him while I was shouting " BLUE ELK!" He emidiantly reacted to my voice and was pretty supriced to see me there! He opend his arms and I ran stright into his arms and we huged! Blue ELk silently said "  Pahinzizi, everything is ok now my love! He is never going to bother uss or our family enymore, ever!" I looked at him and into his eyes and we gave eachother a long kiss! We then took off back to the village...Blue Elks wound got badly infected from that cut that the white man dirty unwashed knife...He died not long after that fight since the infection spread rapidly trough his body! He was only 38 when he died from that infection. On that day Blue Elk died, one of native americas most legendary sioux warriors. The great legendary sioux warrior that had fought meny battles, both against the Cherokee, the Apache and the whites for justice and peace...