Chapter 7 # 3
DEPROGRAMMING & SPRITUAL REPROGRAMMING
I called the outside programming conspiracy and gave it a name of the Anti-Christ programming. Now we want to deal with or awaken the spiritual programming inside, what I call the Christ programming. This programming is also the same as the other in that it starts with the lower self and moves up to the higher self somewhere around the age of seven or so. We begin to make some spiritual decisions, when our moral system has been implanted enough so we can make observations about ourselves and our surrounding.
And if the “Christ” hasn’t entered us before this, then at this time he certainly will. This is also the time when we begin to picture or long for the future. And by this time, as I said before, we will have been abused or hurt by our parents, teachers, and other kids including our siblings.
As I have mentioned before, it’s at this point also that we begin to create our “inside” imaginary friend like the outside one who has now vanished only to come inside. We begin to create our alter ego ,“a new illusion” someone we can talk to all the time. And this new inside fairy at first seems to be on our side. So we listen to it and it tells us things to do or ways to react to other beings, but later we learn that, most of the time it’s wrong and gets us into trouble. At the same time, our new found inner lower self is created and we have a problem as to where to put all this hurt and pain caused by the outside world.
All those hurts and pains must go somewhere because there’s no one we can talk to about them. So we install a large garbage can, one with a lid, in the center of our emotional heart. Now we have a place to put all this garbage we call hurt, pain, attack, guilt and sorrow, which really in correct terms should be called “un-forgiveness.” So we put it or bury it in the garbage can. Now after we have done this for some years we begin to realize that someday that garbage can is going to fill up with all those unforgiving hurts and pains in there. So we say to ourselves, “Okay, when I get older or when I am an adult, then I’ll empty out the garbage or at least dump most of it out.” So as we go along in life more and more hurt or pain come to us.
And only too often we don’t know enough about “forgiveness” because it wasn’t taught to us. So we keep storing and throwing emotional hurts in our garbage bin, again telling ourselves that someday we’ll take out some of that garbage and work with it, find a way to release it and or find someone we can talk to that will help us work out these problems that hurt us and cause guilt, shame and pain.
Now usually by this time we’re in our mid to late teens, maybe later if we go to college, and so we again put it off. If we don’t find someone to help us to deal with it sometimes at this point we begin to realize something is wrong with our personality, that we have trouble getting along with other people and we’re unhappy. Even though we may pretend everything is alright, deep inside we know it’s not. Now for some of us it is here at this point that we start to realize that we have to do something about all this garbage because it is now really beginning to overflow out into our personalities. Those who refuse will keep putting more in and pushing or stomping until they get the lid on. They will keep on pretending in life until a crisis comes of some sort, either of our own making or someone else’s, because we’re all connected, we’re family, we’re one.
As for me, it was in my early college days. I had already been drafted into the military, injured, and early out. Also I had already been in the work force a few years. But still, when I started college back in January 1969 at age twenty. I had no idea of who I was or what the “real” world was about. That changed as I began to partake of the plant life that is called getting high, the good stuff, mind expansion. I was right in the middle of the hippie movement and became part of it, it was family.
Now the best part of the Hippie ( family ) movement was not the sex, drugs, rock and roll,(although it was a lot of fun) but a thing we called rapping, “Getting your head together,” where we each talked about our problems and our programming, family, society, government, etc. In other words, I had finally found some real friends to help me work out the problems in my head and personality. The Hippie movement was really an extended family or for most of us back then, it was the real family that we never had. We created the family the way it should have been but wasn’t. For the first time I then opened up the garbage bin and began to work with some of the problems that were bothering me from my childhood up to that time. It was difficult at first trying to remember all the garbage that I had buried, so I just began from where I was. That’s what we were told to do back then.
So I was to start with what was really bothering me down deep inside, what hurt the most. Now getting our heads together isn’t so easy. It took several years of rapping before I began to really awaken and begin to deprogram myself and at the same time I began to reprogram myself. Also at that time I had to work with what bothered me inside and with what bothered me outside like Nixon and the War and Kent State and other colleges, where the government shot and killed their own students .I was against all war then, now and before when I was drafted into it! I believe I was a solider in many past lives and finally learned my lesion. War was wrong; hurt not thy fellow brother and only the mega rich benefit from it. Of course it has taken many years for all of this to sink in because they (bad aliens) re programed our DNA from 12 down to to 2'.
So a lot was going on at the same time. And me, well I was just a poor simple country boy. This all became too hard for me, so I never finished the last year of college but went back and joined with friends in the commune I had helped start the year before, Christiania. I can say with the help of friends, I managed to get my head together somewhat, but it was from a not so spiritual point of view and later I would have to do it from a spiritual base. During those times, a lot of people were getting their heads together, cleaning out their closet or garbage can.
And there were university professors who joined us in the hippie movement and were our teachers as they had been through something similar themselves called the beatnik movement in which they smoked, rapped and listened to Jazz music. They were the forerunners to the hippie movement and in a strange way they served as the parents we never had.
Now also at this time we had gurus or spiritual teachers who started to come in from India and the Middle East to fill up that large gap that our Western religions left. They taught us yoga and meditation as well. It didn’t really take a strong hold on us until much later in life, that is for those of us who listened to folk and rock music. So we had quite a mixture of teachings at that time, but we also knew we would have to go inside to find the true teacher. So as we cleaned out more garbage with all its hurts and pains and sorrows we slowly began to see the light. Those who awoke first then in turn helped those who were still struggling in getting their heads together, its sort of the same as how the universe works, the higher always helping the lower. And this is what the present day society needs badly and quickly.
We are now moving into what Jesus calls the New Age, Also the end of an old age. And this same principle of going within applies here too because it is part of the divine plan. Jesus said to go within our selves. God is within. Heaven is within. Family and all that we want and need to know, are within. He also said we need to take time out in the day to pray, meditate and worship.”To keep God on your mind is Divine.” Some might say, “Hey, I heard this all before but only a few times from my pastor or church.” Yes, and what’s more is we need to hear these things many times over and over, to repeat and repeat until we remember them and make them our own truths. Then we need to put them into practice.
Next we need to learn one very important thing, “forgiveness.” This is something that I never, and many of us never, really learned, even though we did hear about it a little. And “forgiveness” is something that we all need to practice. We also heard about this in New Age churches but very few ever remembered to practice it. Neither did our parents. Neither did the society or the world. For me it was the hardest lesson to learn! If we didn’t have it in our original programming, then it’s hard to let go of all that garbage we dumped out. Now sometimes we write it down on paper, whoever and whatever has hurt us. Then we burn it in ceremony. That’s one Indian way.
We keep pulling out more garbage and we think there’s no more in there, only to find out there is always more. We forget that we had to jump up and down on the garbage lid to get it to close. We stuffed a lot of hurt and pain in there mostly from the people that hurt us and that’s not counting the guilt and shame from all the people that we know we have hurt. Which is more than enough for a lifetime and we don’t need for anybody to go and put it back into our can for us. But they do. They see our garbage just lying around and they put it back because we forgot to truly forgive them and ourselves. And as we get older, even if we did dump the garbage, there is always new garbage coming into our can.
So for me, and most of us, we need to learn true forgiveness which is total or complete forgiveness. We will know it when it is forgotten and doesn’t return to our mind, even unto those who hurt us the most. Forgive them and forgive ourselves for not forgiving and forgive ourselves for hurting others. Because “God” has already forgiven all of us before we erred. Now once we forgive, truly forgive, all those that have hurt us and whom we have hurt, then the negative feelings are gone, we can move on.
After we have forgiven ourselves, we forgive our brothers past and present. Then we can also forgive the world. If everyone in the world would practice this to some extent, we would have a more peaceful society. Wars would be few and crime would be much less, if we would only practice forgiveness! I believe we will have no peace on earth until we all learn this lesson. The way we know if we have truly forgiven is when no one will put it back in our can. If we didn’t, we’ll have to take it out again and work on it some more, until we learn to “forgive and forget”. This is also known as complete forgiveness.
Next after we have worked on all this, we may still have to do it again and again. We have to go back to our childhood first and start asking forgiveness to all those we hurt, attacked or caused pain or suffering to, plus forgive those that have done the same things to us way back when. If we confront them in person, bring up the subject of what happened then ask for their forgiveness, we will usually always get it. Now also forgive ourselves for the deed and move on. If those we hurt are not around, which is the case most of the time, we need to ask forgiveness in our minds or again on paper and then burn it or put it in our diaries. That way some day when we go back to read our diaries we will see if there is any pain or rather guilt or shame from within us. If not, it’s gone forever. The same will happen in our minds. If we truly asked for forgiveness and it returns then we know it wasn’t strong enough.
These are all things we need to do to cleanse our minds and heart. We only want to take with us the good things in this life and the next. We are not allowed to bring our garbage with us where we are going. There are many teachers and books and some videos out there that can help us on our way. We all need to pick one and start from where we are. We also have the spiritual hierarchy to ask for help both inside and outside of us. We are not separate from God or each other. We are all one in unity. We are God’s family.
Life has no opposite, for it is God. Life and death seem to be opposite because you have decided death Ends life. FORGIVE THE WORLD, AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYTHING THAT GOD CREATED CANNOT HAVE AN END, AND NOTHING THAT HE DID NOT CREATE IS REAL. In this one sentence is our course explained. In this one sentence is our practicing given its one direction. And in this one sentence is the Holy Spirit's whole curriculum specified exactly as it is. JESUS, ACIM
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