Don't get me wrong, I will continue to seek enlightenment all my life, but do you ever miss the times when everything seemed simple?
In this increasingly complex world, I feel unable to connect to anyone these days. I feel disconnected and adrift. I feel peace, but I also feel incredibly alone. I feel unable to recognize when others care about me. It sometimes feels like I'm not even here anymore.
I'm glad the changes are occurring, but it's difficult not to feel depressed and insecure. Past traumas I thought I had dealt with keep rising to the surface. Does anyone else feel this way?
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Yes I do know what your saying in great detail and I also relate to what John Jancar says before me. It's like the took the thought right out of my head and posted it 7 hours before me. lol. The universe is full of surprises and there is always multiple perspectives to the same line of sight. I mean that in more ways than I care to explain just know its a total experience for more beings than can be accounted for in every possible way. Besides that yes simple can be all you really need. This place is another big playground of learning and not everything we go through here needs repeating once you leave. It's entirely up to you. Be blessed.
I feel you, I been feeling this too lately...that as much as I'm thankful to be awake, sometimes I wish I never got into this stuff at all. Life would be alot simpler, that's for sure lol In many ways, this has all been a blessing and a burden. A blessing in terms of, understanding and personal development, and becoming truly evolved. A burden in terms of, being an evolved person, in a world where most people simply aren't so evolved. A burden in the sense of, having to take on the worlds problems and make it my responsibility to fix it, and taking responsibility for my own life, and never quite living up to near impossible standards of perfection that I set for myself.
It's just tough, it is a weight, no doubt. It's tough to not have people to really relate to, or have real meaningful relationships with. I mean there's people on this site, and in this community, but even people here, aside from a small handful, there's not many here who I would consider truly evolved beings. There's some understanding, but not a whole lot. There's alot of mind, not alot of real true inner understanding. That's why I've drifted away from this site lately, because...sad to say...people have made all this into just another religion, in alot of ways. I see no real sovereignty, from anyone...new age or not new age.
And it's tough. But...this is the road we travel. I do hope one day, to be able to meet someone truly like me. Until then, I have God...and those in spirit...and they are my only real companions. As for the all too human issues, I've dealt with that too lately. Not so much now. I realized that, all the things we measure our self worth on, in this world...are largely illusions. Real self worth comes from within, from knowing and expanding our being. It comes from totally embracing ourself as we are and releasing self judgment. I'm still working on that, but I know it's authentic. It's a self worth that comes from within you only, not based on comparing yourself to others. Most people base their self worth that way...including in this new age community.