I seem to have a realy bad day today! I feel so icredible lonely....feels like i am the only one with a twinflame upp in the space! Everyone else aighter have them here on earth or in the spiritual world! Honestly, i am actually happy over that Xzai-On is not a spirit...I just know that i could not bear that! I rather have my twin flame in flesh witch I am lucky to have and THAT my friends I thank the all mighty god and his son Jesus christ for...But still i feel so incredible lonely! Specially in the nights when i would like to put my head on his chest and feel his heart beat while he holds me while i fall in a peacefull sleep! That is everything i have ever wanted,but never got by enyone! I am that kind of a snuggly woggly girl, like a teddy bear,that wants to snuggle and cuddle a lot, but no one has ever been able to give me that...except...for Xzai-On. I just love his personality, he is so incredible cuddly,funny,playfull,kindhearted,loving,sensual,sexual and sympatic. I like his playfullness, that realy makes me laugh... :( Oh I wish he could bee beside me in my bed at night holding me tight while we fall a sleep. I miss him in my vissions too...He has not been in my vissions for avery long time. But we do comunicate telepaticly pretty much everyday now. But still I can´t help feeling frustrated when I can´t hug him, kiss him squeeze his chin, look at his loving big brown eyes, see his gordeous smile, squeeze his lovely long black hair touch his skin, feel his body next to mine! It simply drives me NUTS and crazy at times....I just wich this WAITING was OVER! Can´t wait to get married to my Alcyon pleiadean prince! <3 I do not care if i sound like a lovestruck teenage girl! The love of twin flames are the purest and deepest love that excsists in this universe! I know some of you have your twinflames soulmates here on earth or in the spirit world, but it seems like i am the ONLY one with having a twinflame upp in space!
Never in my whoul life I thought that my twin flame would bee an ancient god (As the ancient people would have called him) " Giggles" That makes me feel kind of special..." Giggles" Even that my twin flame, what some people would maby call fysical angels, I feel very special! But for me Xzai-On is just a ordinary loving person that I love so deeply, that happens to bee more spiritually advanced and home from Alcyon, among other things...
How i love when he drives with his scoutship when he is passing by when he is on the way on one of his patrols, and blinks twice with strong light so i will recognise him if i do not happen at that point look outside the window! How much i love when he shows upp in his scoutship at the nightsky when i go out to the field and meditate! Aighter hovering infront of me a bit up in the sky or slovely passes by on his way for his patrol...The best day was when he was very low down with his scoutship! I could clearly see how the spaceship looked like. It was the most gordeous UFO I have ever seen! It was silvergray of some sort and that typical classical round UFO style. White blinking lights on the side. You could clearly see the tiny round windows also, I could feel him look at me! It felt like he was on his way to land,cause the UFO started to get even bigger! No living soul was outside that time! But as the Ufo started to get closer a car came and the Ufo went in a flash higer upp...it was hovering a little while before it silently and slowly till it suddenly dissapeared in a flah! It was a HUGE dissapointment and I would have liked to throw a stone at that car! That is how disapointed i got.
I just can´t help that i so badly want to bee in his arms and feel his body close to me! I love him so deeply and I miss him so deeply that it drives me almost insane! I feel so lonely with my situation, feels like no one can realy understand how much i miss my beloved pleiadean twin flame Xzai-On Kumjat! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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your dreams are in 5D. ask, before you sleep - to be with him.
let us know how it is going - we love you
blessings, John
Thanks guyes! Yes, yesturday when I felt little tired after an exhosting day Xzai-On told me that he was giving me a big hug and sent it trough his heart to mine! Not long after I felt his love energy that went trough my body and stright into my heart. That felt so good, and I felt his huge big tender hug then! He is so sweet! Yes one day we will bee to gether soon. I am feeling much beter today after a good nights sleep! Yes, I think I will do that from now on! Grab a pillow close my eyes and think it is him I hold tight till the day comes when he is finaly with me. That day we will never part again! :)
My soul mate/twin flame won't talk to me because of misunderstanding and ego.
it was the most intense pain i ever felt - but eventually i learned!
we are only seperate in the illusion! we are together in our "higher self"!
good reason to stop and look within! go to "source" where we are all one.
visit him there and be thankful!! have joy, bliss and even ecstacy! when you go to "source=god" we are all one.
one day you will be united! hold gratatude in your heart because this day will come. hold your pillow close and think of him if it helps. but you can go up to your higher self and be together because you have never really been apart!
all of my love and best wishes, John
when I am missing my twin, I call to him and we connect hearts. he within me and we are one mind and body. Yes I would love to have him in the flesh I suppose but when I ascend I will see him in his higher spiritual body and we will be together that's all that matters. You are lucky you can hear his voice. that's a biggie. I live for the heart connections. :) I understand more than you know.
awee... i think a bunch of us feeling the same way -i think we all must be having a bad week lol
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Well, I mean..my opinion is worth about 2 cents, so please don't take it so seriously lol But I still think...that a good centering wouldn't hurt you. In fact, it'd be very good for you. You're emotionally...all over the place...and I'm not saying that we shouldn't have emotions, of course not, I'm an emotional person too..I just have learned to...control them.
And well maybe there isn't a father issue in the sense of needing a father, but I think there is a father issue in the sense of...wanting your man to be like your father. To be your hero, to make you feel loved and secure, to reassure you, to be your knight in shining armor basically...and...I just don't think that's a real mature relationship, where both partners are on equal footing, where both partner are whole and complete themselves, and share that with each other. And apparently, that's what a true twin flame relationship is.
And I still think it would help you, to detach yourself a bit from him, find yourself, heal yourself, and become truly an independent whole person. And I'm sure that's what he wants for you. And I'm only saying this to help you. I can just say, like others, well just be patient, you'll be with him soon, and all that.....I mean it's reassuring, but I don't think it would truly help you to grow.
My father was the most loving person in the whoul world and he is that still today! I am still his little girl! He is my hero and will for ever bee my hero. Meny times he has saved my life from sertain death when I was young!
Yes, I have been going true lots of shit in my life! Mental,fysical sexual abuse by men, I do not even want to mention everything here.
So it is no wonder then if I am hungry after some cuddle, efection and love from my twin flame is it? No, it is not!
Father and daughter thing! HARDLY!
I am offended and very hurted by you now! I just for a while ago had a nice telepatic chat with my twin flame and he made me feel good and laugh and I felt great afterwards. And now THIS, thanks a lot!! I am extremly hurted now and offended!!! :((
Well you know, I definitely sense a father issue here, maybe you didn't have a good relationship with your father, you didn't get enough love from him, so you're looking for a male figure in your life, that can be like your father figure and your lover. That's what I sense, I sense this as more of a father daughter thing, than a real mature couple on equal footing. I really truly sense...like a child..who needs a father.
I also feel a definite sense of neediness from you, and I say that almost medically lol Just purely observational and detached. I'm not trying to make you feel bad or anything like that, so please don't. I sense a definite need for intimacy, and love....to a point where it drives you insane without it. That is very over the top, my dear lol There's something very out of balance there.
I also sense very strongly...that this is all about what you get out of it. Many girls are like that, they only care about what they get out of a relationship, what the guy does for them, how he makes them feel, almost entirely. There's very little...well what am I doing for him, what can I give to him. And I mean, for me, if I were to base my relationship solely on what my girlfriend does for me, and how she makes me feel...I probably wouldn't be with her. But I'm with her because I love her, I want to make her life better, I want to help her grow and share loving and fun experiences together. For me, I'm very selfless when it comes to relationships, always have been. It's always about them, much more than me.
And I guess it's a different dynamic with women then men, but I think that's a cop out. That's part of the old paradigm, where men have a certain role, woman have a certain role, and that's it. I think we're moving into a time now when men and women will have balanced and equal roles. The male-female dynamic won't be so prominent as it is now. I mean some beings are androgynous lol They're both male and female. And that's what I try to be, I think that's truly balanced, the male-female dynamic, is still duality.
Andy: Hahaha you sound like Xzai-On! Yes Andy, Yes my beloved Xzai-On I bee patient!
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