i am light i am dark and i'm everything in-between, so why is it that i must now choose a side?
where is the line drawn and who decide's it's boundrie's?
why is the darkness that lie's within to be feared and why can't people see that the light holds just as much danger if not watched aswell!
i am what i am, the darkness and ego protects me and allows me to do things when called upon that the light cannot!
the light inside of me allows to me to preform arts such as healing that the dark cannot!
it is plain and simple, i am not of the usual creation and i am both feared and honoured without even being held a face to, for nobody truly know's my true self!
i am a warrior, i am a healer, a wise man and an angry soul, all of these things united into a single being and entity!
i feel pain, i bleed the same colour, yet no matter where i turn i am simply something else!
i am accepted but by how many as a whole truly!
i do not expect acceptance nor do i require valor or honour or even title nor name to be put by my side for i do what i need to do to keep the world spinning and things running thier course!
it is a painfull and sometime's lonely existance, mis-understood and judged yet for all the darkness there is light and all the light there is darkness the same!
the main and i hope clear point here is why do i have to pick and choose where i stand, if for the right reasons alone!
i do what's best for balance and life and gia and she calls upon me now!
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my elders have been busy and i had a healer who was close to me simply cut me out of her life, wich is a shame, she was the most powerful healer i've ever known and even taught me a few things, but refused to release the inner being, aparently if i'm fully released and powered up at the moment i will be full of dark and be a dark being that needs to be destroyed so i have to wait and fix myself up to balance it properly before i can finally hit full strength!
i just need people to realise that the darkness in me is there for a reason, and it will be needed in the time of war and i'm one of few and far between who can wield it without being turned and use for the right reasons ONLY when it is needed most!
i do not want acceptance and i do not need pity nor fear, just pure understanding, take a second to look and listen and read and maybe there's something to learn of it!
maybe not!