Longing

Will you reveal yourself
Or will you continue
To haunt me in the shadows
To cause only poetic words
While making me a slave
To the silence that overcomes me
As I bear my grievances of living
Without you here

Are you like in my dreams
Faceless yet familiar
Do you exist beyond my inner realms
Do I exist to you and if so
Do you want me as much as I want you

We are like two separate entities
Caught in this tango
Waywardly spirited
Yet with no choice
But to desire from afar
Only the slight pang
Of sadness and yearning
Which eventually gives way
To anger and loneliness
My companion all these years

The dust has long settled
In the fine lines of memory
And the heart struggles to beat
Threatening to cease
From the want of something
Never to be again
The mind wants to escape
Though it remains ensnared
In the wishes of yesterday
Because warmth has vacated
To places I know not

As I tax my mind
With these taunting
Ever tantalizing figments
I succumb to the feeling
Of sinking, drowning
In the depths of my despair
While searching for you
Just another smile
Another word
But our time in all it’s brevity
Makes me linger
To the embrace I will never feel again
To the eyes that I will never see

You are the source of my joy
As well as my hate
My elusive love

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Justin89636 commented on Drekx Omega's blog post An Introduction to the Devic Kingdom
"I would say yeah good chance animals may see them sometimes."
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Justin89636 commented on Drekx Omega's blog post An Introduction to the Devic Kingdom
"Since they have been caught on camera before maybe I should find my video camera and film the area. It's worth a try :)"
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ET Hugger commented on Drekx Omega's blog post An Introduction to the Devic Kingdom
"Animals may see devas, I’m quite sure about that."
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ET Hugger commented on Drekx Omega's blog post An Introduction to the Devic Kingdom
"You don’t need to do much, just sit somewhere or walk around, take your time and look at the trees, birds and other animals. You may feel a tingling sensation but may not see the energetic interaction between you and the devas. I’ve always been…"
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Justin89636 commented on Drekx Omega's blog post An Introduction to the Devic Kingdom
"Thanks for that. I actually posted something a while back on my health page that talked about forest bathing. I'll have to go back and read that again as well."
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Drekx Omega commented on Drekx Omega's blog post An Introduction to the Devic Kingdom
"To prepare you for deva watching I recommend trying the following starter process:

"What is forest bathing?
This Japanese practice is a process of relaxation; known in Japan as shinrin yoku. The simple method of being calm and quiet amongst the…"
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Justin89636 commented on Drekx Omega's blog post An Introduction to the Devic Kingdom
"A lot of other people like to go through that area that I mentioned so I gotta time it carefully. Folks like to ride their dirt bikes in that area so definitely can't do it during that time. Definitely gonna give it a try one of these days though.…"
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