So I got this interesting Ascension symptom. To best understand it, I'll give an example of it in action. A few months ago at my old job, I met this guy. He was somewhat new to the place and rather good looking. I never asked him on a date or anything but I did my fair share of staring. I know, I'm awful! Anyway, so one day I sat in his chair and was chatting with another co-worker. While I was in that chair, I felt his energy. It felt so good! It was electric and the really interesting thing was that it felt complimentary. Like a missing puzzle piece. You know how people wax poetic, and occasionally idiotic, about soul mates and twin flames and being able to feel each other's energy, yet you know that more than likely these people haven't experienced that? Well it was like that. Thing is, I never thought such experiences could happen. Since the Ascension hit me like a ton of bricks, I've become exquisitely sensitive to energy. People with energy lower than mine causes me psychic pain that filters down to the physical level. If they're on my level or higher, the energy is actually pleasant. But never have I felt an energy that was attractive.
To be clear, the above comparison best describes the experience, I'm just not sure if it happened because he was a soul mate. I'm not exactly a true believer in the idea. The part that truly blows is that he couldn't feel it. Probably on some deep unconscious level he was aware. And as I walk this path, I'm learning that I'll probably never find anyone else that can. I'm sure most of us have read about it or seen it on tv. People being able to truly, deeply sense each other's energy consciously. Some may read the above experience and want that, but the price is far too high. Many of us wish for the experience but know that more than likely it won't happen. One would think that being so sensitive to energy would make one more open but actually the opposite has happened. In a world of so much pain, I find myself wanting to close myself off. I don't even view myself as special, more like cursed. Lately, I've noticed a reduction in energy sensitivity because I've been attempting to close myself off from it.
I must say that it's a relief to not have to feel so much. My nerves thank me. Yet, that heightened sensitivity is starting to creep back in. Damn the Ascension to hell. It would be nice to have a useful ability like teleportation. Seriously, I'm thinking weekends in Paris!
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