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My life is falling to pieces, but I have to be sturdy as the ground. I type words so that I know I'm still alive. This bad health care...I'm truly sad, scared! I don't want to see doctors as they never have time to see me anyhow. I go crazy in my own pain. Drowning in the pain. My kidneys are swollen. Why wont anyone help me!? Those egotistical doctors can push me aside. They go home to their families and have meals cooked for them. Shirts pressed. I have pain, pain that is some "random virus." Now I truly suffer. Why isn't there any health care in this country!? These words I type, they make me feel better, make me feel like I'm deserving of proper treatment. I still have to work to pay the bills yet I am too sick. If the doctor had just done his job, I wouldn't be falling apart. And after all I've worked towards in starting my life over right. Please anybody give me some antibiotics!!!!!!!!! This is a fucking joke. I know what I need. It's not fucking brain surgery! The infection is spreading...
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  • Hey, Mel... we're all going through some harsh changes.  I don't find you negative when you are being truthful and you aren't attacking anyone to make yourself feel better. 
  • Thank you for the comment! I'm sorry I'm so bitter and negative in my blog posts. It feels right to write harshly. It gets those bad feelings out and onto the computer screen. Also, In a week, I will hopefully be seen at the doctors office for blood tests!
  • I'm sorry, Mel that you are experiencing this.  You do deserve better.  I send you love and white light for healing, please ask your guides for help, you shouldn't have to go through this suffering. 
  • I can deal with the physical pain. It's the misunderstanding and blatant medical neglect that cuts just like a knife.
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